So, 2 people un-friended me today! One i wasn't too thrilled about, the other I never see anymore, so it was okay.
It's just gunna be awkward when I see her. BLEH! :|
I always wonder why anyone would ever do that, esp without even saying anything first. Then when i see them its always awkward... Like.. Hii how are you.. hows that 'not seeing me on your list anymore' thing going? I cant comment on your life anymore cuz you deleted me so i dunno whats going on in your life anymore... Well... Bye. xD
I'm extremely socially awkward! If i dont have any material beyond "Hi" then it's like "Avoid at all costs" LOL
I have 3 separate "Main" friends accounts. 1 is for my online friends... I post most of my stuff there...
I used to have all in 1, but a lot of people IRL are too frikking stuck up and get 'offended' by things.
So then I made a 2nd account, and i didnt add anyone. I said "anyone who wants to add me, go for it. I wont force people to look at my stuff if they dont want to."
Then I was sad because I've had this acct since 2006, and i want everything to be on 1 account.... That and I still wanted to see what everyone else was up to even if they didnt wanna see me.. So I came back here, and moved all my Online friends to the 3rd account.
The 2nd account is just doing nothing nowadays.
Someone told me something awhile ago like "Dont censor yourself just for other people. If you have to act around them to not throw a fit, its not worth being their friend" or something like that..
I was like "Wow.. Good point".. So I came back to posting regularly here....
BUT THEN.... I got paranoid again, once all these unfriendings started happening. Noone's telling me why theyre unfriending me... People I see and talk to on a fairly regular basis on the store / shopping..
Some of them have said "Cleaning My flist of people I don't talk to!" So i go back later, to see, yup, they deleted me.. but they left some people that I know and talk to... So i go and talk to those people left on their list... and i say "Hey, remember so and so?" and theyre like "Um.... No...." and i explain more in depth.. and theyre like "OH WOW, YEAH! I remember them, wow its been forever."
That person was still on her list, even though they didnt remember WHO THEY WERE!... I thought we were FRIENDS and they deleted ME!
So 'cleaning of the FB' = delete me. -____-
It's hard enough for me to even TALK to people offline.. but when one deletes me off here, it's like saying "I dont care about you anymore (if ever), and I dont want you in my life anymore."
Someone also told me that maybe a person just was just feeling emotional and wanted only close friends on the list..... which is possible, I guess... but a nice short message saying "No offense, but I'm keeping my facebook only for family right now. We can still talk okay! "
Which I never get. I dunno.. It's extremely hard to upset or offend me.. One of the only ways to upset me is tell me I suck, or terrible worker, or etc. Deleting me without a message, is kind of like that.
I kinda feel like moving back to livejournal, but NOBODY uses that anymore. xD
I dont have anyone to talk to offline yet besides daniel, really.. I started making friends with a few people from Daniel's work... But I still feel really shy around them, and I'm not at the 'feel comfortable talking to them casually stage' yet. That usually takes... a few months of everyday contact at least LOL
Oh, geez. Ok, then there was like.. what a couple months ago. I added EVERYONE onto my restricted list (they dont see my posts, but i see theirs) to people that I think might not be accepting.... So the fact you guys even see my posts means I think youre cool, LOL