o boy.

[caitaro]

I was... up all night last night.

Of all the things in the world. .thinking about shane..

about things i prolly shouldnt have been.. Things I could just leave alone and go on fine and dandy w/ my life..

..and now i need to discuss them...

well at least thats what sleep-deprived cait says XD..

non sleep deprived cait.. will be like "omfg, why the hellz did i even say anything at all?? this is teh UBER embarasing.. >.<"

*el sigh*


okay

when i take seroquil..
and its kicked in pretty good..

and i watch americas funniest cats evr..

It is bad..

everything gets like 400x more funnier when im seroquilled up..

Like this cat was clawing its way around this carpet thing.. and ive seen it lke 900 times.. and i just laughed histerically and fell on the floor and laughed like there was no tomarrow.

wth???


*yawn*


travis wants to come over sunday...


today were going to JXN to... fix corys bike WTH!??!?!

yeah but im goin to gamestop/gamecrazy too

cuz im that kewl.

But i will be like "aaahhh *mouth open with drool hanging out* *stumble* woo~~" cuz of lack of sleepiness.. DUN DUN DUNnnnNNNnnNNNNnNnn


dad went mushroom hunting with lynne.

I told him i wanted to come.

but noone likes me enough to evr do anything with me *ka-sigh*

*goes saturday-night-live on ur arse*

....let me walk behind you in the woods.. I wont make a sound. please... you wont even know im there, i swear.. let me walk behind you in the woods.... I might even help you find some mushies you missed.. Let me walk, please.

*Chris Farley runs in and screams* FOR GODS SAKE, LET THE BOY WALK BEHIND YOU IN THE WOODS. HE WONT SCARE THE MUSHIES AWAY.. LET THE BOY WALK!!! GEEZ!!!


....Let me carry your baggies.. while youre in the woods.. It'll be easier on you..

Ok im done w/ that.

but ya you get the point.

or do you

but it doesnt

matter

cuz..

I'mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmMmmmMMm depriveddddddddddddd offffffffffff.............. carbon-based.. pants.



gawd..

I am so lame XD

ok anyway

somethin else i was thinkin about this morning was like..

Dude.. 2005 was a long time ago.. its 2008 now.. long ago..

yet it seems like.. not a long time for me.. it seems like.. a year at the MOST..

It feels as if ive been coasting through the past few years.. with fuzzy vision.. not caring..

esp since a certain someone.. and a certan linux.. were doing certain things o.0 0.o...

and i realized. d00d.. Im almost TWENTY..

thats frikin arse old d00d...

whos 20??? srsly o_OOOOOOOOoo

I'm still 16... I havent done anything teenager-y.. I havent.. done anything... in forever...

its just been the same...

fuzzy.. and stoic..

and ive just been coasting.. and not caring 0.o....

I wonder if its possible i will ever clear up my vision.. find a shread of something to make me experience that thing called happiness again.. and most of all CARE... CARe about /SOMETHING/... /ANYTHING/ at all..

because this morning i remembered what it was like to care..

and it beats not caring. but i dont remember how...


[/emo post about nothing but random rambles due to carbon pants-deficiency]