caitaro | ugh... crap again

i feeeel like ~~a women~~ crap again.. >.< super coughing and.. right now its hard for me to breathe...

twas a week ago tonight i was graced with roko presence.. since then i have seen nothing of him..

as of now, I will assume that he is dead, and move on with my poor excuse for a life.. although i will look back on this for a month or two and wonder what it could have been...

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shit like this happenz all the time.. i think i find the awesomeest guy.. and he turns out to horrible.. or disapears.. *sigh*

i must accept that in my life i will have the worst of luck, and not get my hopes up..

bu it's been so long since i've felt truely undeniably happy.. >.<

totally regret sayin this, but i miss it.. and i say agan, i hate feelings.. and i hate my keyboard ive had soo many typos lately... >.<

doesnt hurt too much to try.. but it is dissapointing..

regardless.. i need a job. Soon.

i feel horrible when my dad comes home.. i know hes itching to yell at me "GET OFF YER LAZY ASS AND BLFWE*HRF*ASIDHFDF"

:| *sigh* i need to escape right now.. um.. this time to the world of mother..

ninten will make me feel better. he always does.