caitaro | >< conflicted again

my friend on msn

telling me about this girl he likes..

....and i kinda like him

and it hurts

and im jelous..

and i duno why

cuz i hate love, i hate relationships

yet part of me craves it.

............................But i wish i didnt.

i told myself when/if after sp00ny, that was it. No more relationships, cuz its not worth it in the end...

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and I know noone would ever like me cuz im so wweird and strange...
.............and whan i have lovey dreams its just the best feeling in the world......................
on the other hand i couldnt ever do stuff IRL that i do in dreams......

*confuzzled about her random instincts ;_;*