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I recently posted this elsewhere but would like to also post it here... incase someone has anything to comment :x

Sorry if this isnt allowed, but it pertains to my sexuality..

My dad is very sexual...

He watches porn.. he rents it.. and looks it up on the internet.

Me... 100% asexual. I dont like naked bodies of any gender... I don't like porn... I don't like the idea of sex... or masterbation. It's well, gross and whatnot, in my opinion.

I guess my problem I have here is... because I AM this way, I don't see why my dad is so addicted or whatever. When I confront him about it... I say "Youve seen 1 naked lady, youve seen em all."

Because in my opinion anyway, that is true!! I've SEEN the HBO late night movies.. Ive seen the 'hardcore' stuff...

I found it incredibly boring.. repetitive.. gross.. disterbing.. and whatnot. But because I DO have an open mind I didn't just shut it off and say "blarg!"

It's good to know about everything in the world even if it is gross.

so anyway, My dad said back to me "well all your little anime you watch is the same too~"

I think it's not.. There are different people in different situations.. I watch anime because it's an escape from reality.. I can forget my poor excuse for a life and be engulfed in someone elses. (which is also why i watch some TV shows too) It takes me on an emotional rollercoaster that I am not capable of going on in my real life.... With the security that if something bad happens to a character it will not affect my life directly.

So.. I don't get porn at all... It's all the same to me..

Sure there may be different plots... and actually this one i seen had an interesting murder mystery plot but spoiled it with random sex everywhere.. But arent porn movies.. MADE... to 'satisfy the horny' or whatever? Being as I don't GET horny..... may be why I think they are stupid.. I dont know..

Does anyone else feel the same way? Anyone feel different? Why do sexual people think that way? (and im sure some asexuals like pr0n too) and why?

Thanks~~

~Cait

Soooooo....

Yeah..

I just feel kinda alone out there regarding sexuality..

I know shane is gay.. and apparently likes teh Male pr0n..

Travis is... probably straight and likes regular pr0n?

My dad does...

Cory i dont even know.....

It's just... the whole idea of secks and whatnot is SUPPOSED to be natural... SUPPOSED to be done...

yet to me it seems like it's something so unconceivable.. so.. HORRIFIC.. that it's impossible.

or maybe im crazy..

*admits self to mental home*

Shanes gone AGAIN!!!!!!

And..

I couldnt go to quiz bowl today

cuz of this..

and travis with his play thing..

and dads being so friggin PISSY

goin on about OMG i cant get social security for 3 months because my mom willed 25% of her money to me..

and even if i DO get taht 25%.. id just have to give it to dad because all hes doin is FRIGGIN USING ME FOR MONEY!!!! OMG!!!!!

i friggin hate how hes handing all this..
I hate how hes treating me.
i hate how he doesnt even CARE about my life...

I told him i needed to stay after school to finish my art project.... and hes like
"WELL IS ANYONE ELSE HAVING THIS PROBLEM!?!?!?" Because he LOVES TO blame all this shit on the teacher.. and i am NOT letting him be mean to Mr. Loveless cuz he didnt do ANYTHING to him or me..

But anyways.. So i was lkie "...Dad.. there ARE no other kids.. its my INDEPENDENT STUDY CLASS!!"
and hes like "well i didnt know you had an independent study class." and im like "OMFG! DIDNT YOU LOOK AT MY EFFIN REPORT CARD?!? IT /SAYS/ INDEPENDENT STUDY!!" and hees like "well i didntknow if it was in Arrrt.. or English.. or Mathhh.. or what.."
and im like
"O./ M. F. G.. WHAT the HELL ELSE ! would i HAVE iT! IN!?!?"
hes just making excuses..

he doesnt even know what FLIPPIN classes i have..
even though i print off picture of what i DO in independent study and like talk about them all during supper..

and he didnt even know i had the class..

That makes me feel really hurt..
it does.... i feel like crying because.. He doesnt CARE.. about my life at all.. Sure hes like "ohh i care about you guys and i love youuuu and BLAH DE FRICCKING ARSE BLAH,." I Think a REAL parent would be like Shanes mom.. Shes involved in his life.. She knows what CLASSES he takes.. she knows about the video games she plays... She isnt paranoide ARSE about the internet.. where my dad says "OMG DONT GIVE ANYONE YOUR FIRST NAME OR AGE OR THEY'LL COME AND STALK YOU AND RAPE THE SHIT OUT OF YOUR ARSE!""

and omg
Dont even get me started on my dad and sex.
3 words.
Hes. Obsessed.

He wont let me go to chicago.. with 2 OF MY FREINDS.. because "OMG YOU'LL GET RAPED AND SeXX0RD AND MOLESTED AND LOST AND DRUGGED UP AND PREGNANT AND RAPED SOME MORE!" why? becasue its a SUBURB of CHICAGO..
Hello?
Maybe if it was lkie the City OF chicago.. i MIGHT get raped or something if im BY MY. SELF>. but im in a SUBURB. a WEALTHYISH suburb. With a GIANT FILIPINO MAN, a TALL GAMER, and a SEXY SHRIMP to protect me... or maybe he thnks THEY would rape me. HAH! hillarious..

but like.. the first time sp00ny was to come over.. he ABSOLUTLY reFUSED to let sp00ny spend the night IN MY HOUSE..
because he said
"OH IF HE SLEEPS ON THE COUCH HES GUNNA COME INTO YOUR ROOM AT NIGHT AND RAPE YOU!"
that was the FIRST words out of his mouth when the situation arose..

and i was like
"O M F G. you TOTALLY .. dont know me. AT ALL.." he should KNOW i detest SEX he should KNOW how i HATE PR0n and SEX and STUFF OF THAT NATURE!

but.. If you mention anything to him.. the first thing in his mind is something related to Sex... Or Pr0n.. -_-.

Like.. Whenever i wake up at like 3 am.. and im real thirsty i go to the kitchen to get a drink.. i have to peek around the corner to see if hes watching a PR0n MOVIE before i GO IN THERE.. ... And often he does and i have to just go back to bed DEHYDRATED cuz hes friggin WATCHING PR0N!.

this is REDICULOUS.

and when corys in my room playing video games.. and im on the computer.. He'll go in there and flip on some pr0n thing.. and turn the volume reaaaal low.. and watch it.. and I like cant go in the kitchen.. ON A NORMAL DAY AT LIKE 6PM because HES WATCHING HIS GHEY ARSE PR0N!. and the funny thing is..
i have REALLY good hearing.. and i can still hear it -.- even if it is real low..

and he used to do this but not anymore cuz me and mom yelled at him.. He'd get on the computer and look at pr0n.. and since the computer is like in the center of the house.. If i wanna go to my room or the bathroom or the kitchen or living room i have to pass by the computer.. and he'd HOLD UP A PEICE OF PAPER TO THE SCREEN and STARE at us as we walked by.. it was so EMBARRASING.. and my computer kept getting friggin spyware on it BECAUSE HE LOOKED AT PR0N ALL THE TIME!@

and my mom HATED It when he looked at PR0n! she HATED IT.. and SO did i!!!!!

And every time we go to the movie store.. He ALWAYS go into the adult section and gets a PR0n movie. EVERY time.. EVEN AFTER he said he'd stop.. .. he stopped for like.. 1 or 2 times.. THEN HE GOT SOME MORE!@!!@!@ its RE-FRIGGIN-DICULOUS!

One time in video Village.. There was a mirror into the adult section from the outside of it.. and Me and mom and cory were standing there.. and every time he went to pick up a movie. mom was like "No... DONT.. TOUCH IT. ITS BAD FOR YOU!"

i duno if he ever heard her or not.. but omg.. it pisses me off so bad.. all pr0n should be destroyed.. ALL OF IT. i dont CARE how much you *THINK* you need it.. but its RIDICULOUS.. and STUPID and NOT NEEDED. i consider it a form of cheating >_> which is why if i EVER catch my husband/boyfreind Watching pr0n.. i would SO.. SOOOOOOOOO get pissed at them and yell and shit cuz.. its so stupid.. i cant STRESS THIS ENOUGH!!!!!!!

it just
PISSES ME OFF TO HELL AND BACK!

Anyways. its supper time and i cant think of anything else to rant about.. so.. ill bbl ^_^

<3 KT!

My asexuality post....

=( RANTING TIME WOO!