Cait's Ramblings

So sp00ny talked to me today :o

for the first time in like 99 years XD


Heres a couple of logs of what happendz~

But yeah we had a GOOD convesation about guitars, skewl, math, xfire and more.

I was surprised.

but he acted all "omg please excusee this and that and sorry for intruding"

almost like... he was talkin to someone he didnt know o.o;.

o wel XD

its good. more people to talk to..

me n sp00ny n greggy can have pwnst4r parties wooooooooooo! (If he gets trickster working) XD


6/5/2008 12:42:56 AM Sp00ny Ive picked up the guitar
6/5/2008 12:43:01 AM Sp00ny and I suck, but I don't care
6/5/2008 12:43:09 AM ~Cait~ acoustic or electric?
6/5/2008 12:43:37 AM Sp00ny I'm practicing with electric right now
6/5/2008 12:43:57 AM ~Cait~ :woah: coooooooooooooooooooollll
6/5/2008 12:44:10 AM ~Cait~ people at my high school used to play electric guitarrr..
6/5/2008 12:44:16 AM ~Cait~ i thought they were super cool XD
6/5/2008 12:44:30 AM Sp00ny yeah, but this is what I sound like, *BOOM BLASH BAM DEATH OGOD HEADACHE*
6/5/2008 12:44:46 AM Sp00ny I actually give myself a headache
/5/2008 1:20:39 AM Sp00ny so yeah
6/5/2008 1:20:42 AM Sp00ny college happened
6/5/2008 1:20:47 AM Sp00ny thats about it
6/5/2008 1:20:53 AM Sp00ny any questions?
6/5/2008 1:21:05 AM ~Cait~ what'd ya take? howd you do?
6/5/2008 1:21:22 AM Sp00ny CIS101 or HOW THE FARK DO I DOUBLE CLICK
6/5/2008 1:21:26 AM ~Cait~ ROFL
6/5/2008 1:21:28 AM ~Cait~ i took that too!
6/5/2008 1:21:30 AM Sp00ny ENG101 or NO HABLO ESPANOL
6/5/2008 1:21:37 AM ~Cait~ i took that also
6/5/2008 1:21:48 AM Sp00ny MTH080 - 2x = 10
6/5/2008 1:21:55 AM ~Cait~ Ehhh i wish i never took that @_@
6/5/2008 1:37:37 AM Sp00ny whats your username?
6/5/2008 1:37:42 AM ~Cait~ caiternoodle
6/5/2008 1:37:43 AM ~Cait~ i think
6/5/2008 1:38:00 AM Sp00ny yeah
6/5/2008 1:38:05 AM Sp00ny 445 hrs of trickster
6/5/2008 1:38:09 AM ~Cait~ XD\
6/5/2008 1:38:26 AM ~Cait~ and that doesnt count unlogged hrs :-O
6/5/2008 1:38:52 AM Sp00ny Ahhhhh
6/5/2008 1:39:48 AM Sp00ny maybe I'm a lion
6/5/2008 1:39:50 AM Sp00ny :X
6/5/2008 1:39:59 AM ~Cait~ by the black mages :-O
/5/2008 1:57:26 AM Sp00ny I really don't want to pry
6/5/2008 1:57:30 AM ~Cait~ 0.o
6/5/2008 1:57:30 AM Sp00ny but what time are you usually online?
6/5/2008 1:57:38 AM ~Cait~ lol
6/5/2008 1:57:47 AM ~Cait~ dewd you can ask me anything, you dont need to hold back
6/5/2008 1:57:53 AM ~Cait~ ok, i wont give you my SSN but..
6/5/2008 1:58:06 AM Sp00ny OMG WUT IS UR SSSNN
6/5/2008 2:10:29 AM Sp00ny bed for me~
6/5/2008 2:10:37 AM ~Cait~ Okay XD talk to ya tomarrow then~
6/5/2008 2:10:41 AM Sp00ny have a nice night :)
6/5/2008 2:11:10 AM ~Cait~ you too!
6/5/2008 2:11:17 AM Sp00ny sorry if this whole "Hey, I'm forcing me back into your life" thing was odd or awkward :X
6/5/2008 2:11:24 AM ~Cait~ oh ROFL, nooo
6/5/2008 2:11:26 AM ~Cait~ its fine, its good!
6/5/2008 2:11:33 AM ~Cait~ recently greg came back "into my life"
6/5/2008 2:11:41 AM ~Cait~ he surpassed me in level within weeks T_T on trickster XD
6/5/2008 2:11:45 AM Sp00ny ._. ok, because sometimes I can be bullish
6/5/2008 2:11:51 AM ~Cait~ dont worry XP
6/5/2008 2:11:55 AM Sp00ny well, don't worry about me leveling
6/5/2008 2:12:01 AM Sp00ny I'm gonna be grinding a lot on my guitar
6/5/2008 2:12:02 AM Sp00ny and
6/5/2008 2:12:08 AM Sp00ny reading
6/5/2008 2:12:13 AM ~Cait~ :3 yeah
6/5/2008 2:12:16 AM Sp00ny I probably won't be doing much rpging
6/5/2008 2:12:25 AM Sp00ny erm
6/5/2008 2:12:26 AM Sp00ny trickstering
6/5/2008 2:12:30 AM Sp00ny so yeah
6/5/2008 2:12:35 AM Sp00ny anyways
6/5/2008 2:12:37 AM Sp00ny sleep sounds good
6/5/2008 2:12:40 AM ~Cait~ have fun XD
6/5/2008 2:12:44 AM Sp00ny goodnight again

yes. i hate it with a passion...

anyway..

so i got shanes gba sp cable..

and did algebra.. and went to school...

and got home

talked to sega <3 a bit...

then sp00ny was on and i talked to him for the first time since like.. SEPTEMBER @_@... and showed him the poemy thing..
(shown here if you're interested) http://aycu35.webshots.com/image/9954/2000406971695070372_rs.jpg

and then.. here i am..

and i gotta do more algebra. FOR EVER. so bi.

...so sp00ny just went to bed and we had a kinda talk thing.. Um.


so noone really knows where our relationship is going.....

Um....

as for me i wish it would just be me and him together as it always has...


Im not interested in anyone else so i dont have a problem with it...

really im not interested in anyone else as even a freind.. all the people in my classes are old people too XD o_O

but..


I have learned that i dont view myself as being important...


and i dont really know what to do about it..


I did find a quote in someones journal that i have to quote.. it seems like a beautiful phrase.... and explains exactly how i'm feeling

THat someone is athena1027 and this is the quote.

I feel excitement and dread for thenext moment. I feel like a change. ... I'm looking in themirror and I'm not seeing the person I want to see. Who do I want tosee?

It's complicated, see. I feel dark. Ifeel stoic. I am becoming it. I feel it. It's a reflection of how Iwas and who I am to become. It got lost the last couple of years butI think I'm finding it again. I love life but I also am wary of it. ... I belong to the night.I always known that but the light distracted me for a little while.Or maybe I'm going through some transitional mutation of myself.

I am too compromising and defensive toeven deal with myself. There's always two sides to a story. Worst,sometimes even more. Well fuck that. I'm sick of being balanced,equal, and bright. I want to live among the stars but ironically notthe sun. I want dramatic change. I want change. I think I'm sick ofbeing in this phase right now. This transitional mutation of myself.It's causing me to brood. And I hate brooding. That requires a lot ofoverthinking and overthinking results in doubt. And doubt will resultin more brooding. This is a sad sick disgustingly long cycle I alwayshave to go through. I don't want my brain to cycle through thesecycles anymore. I want to take risks without being afraid. I want toact without fear. Without self-reprisal. I want to see the images inmy mind clearer. I want to hear my soul sing without doubt.

~Cait

Last Monday........ the 24th..

was mine and sp00nys 2nd annaversery.

lol...........

we've been goin out since july 24, 2004. yay.


but yea we havent talked lately..

school + work = in my way >:(

we need to start emailing :p

on my savants community.. me and taryn are insulting eachother..

and on aim we are having an S + M party >=) OH THE IRONY..

um... Courtney .. yea.. drive me home today o_O i thought i was going to die..

and i was nervous.. and she asked me if i had any cigarettes o_O...


on a sadder note..

i havent even SEEN sp00ny on in the past 3 days..

i have no idea where he is..

and our last conversation wasnt really a happy one =(

i hope he isnt mad at me and hates me ;_;..

I <3 YOU SO MUCH!~ ^_^..


i hope you have a FUN ARSE day renting one night at church ;)

lolol


on the other hand..

Shane was here..

MR. Stanton was here <33333 I felt so happy.. Mr. Stanton is the pwnest person EVASR!#@(RI)_W


On the other hand..

Im extremely sick.. I can barely talk. at all.. which is sad.... And it hurts if i try at all..

But i sound like an old lady. esp when i laugh.. oh whiteface its hillarious! XD

So i origionally started this as a comment in meh new friend's journal.. HOWEVER... It was long and i think it needed to be posted HERE in LONGER FORM.. so ya.



There was an article in my paper the other day about video game violence. Because i live in michigan our WONDERFULL (not) governer grandholm like banned M games from being sold to people under 17..

Ok so.. What makes a game being rated M?? Hmmm.. Possibly simulated real life violence, death, graphical death, Swearing, Toilet humor, etc. Well.. Isn't that what a bunch of other games are too? Just not with humans?? Now take harvest moon for example.. If you get your hoe out and go in the chicken coop.... ...wait nm.. That's violence twords animals. Noone cares about that. @_@
PETA: AAAAAHHHHHHH *STABS CAIT WITH A VEGETARIAN CHEESEBURGER*
But seriously.. Like in random games.. that i probably have never played.. Well zelda might kinda be like it but whatever *shrug* You take your gun/sword/fist/spoon and just kill the heck out of aliens/'bad' people/rabid monkeys/misshapen squirrles/jousting peeps/etc. Wouldnt that be considered violence too? Maybe kids will learn to take all their violence out by pounding their cat with a spoon if you ban "M" games.

I have no idea if you've ever played it.. but a 10 years ago they gave away free copies of Chex Quest in the Chex cereal. Now Chex quest is the EXACT same thing as Doom.. And chex quest (i suppose) appeals to little kids. When you take your gun and shoot the monsters, green 'guts' (or if your using a doom/chex mod thing, Red guts) come out and splatter.. And in the bottom of the screen.. your little guy is covered in green slime/blood whenever he's about to die... So our lesson is here.. As long as a video game contains violence of ANY SORT... some IMMATURE little kid will expel his anger on the closest thing to him. Be it a teacher... peer.. or bunny.

What i think is a major problem in the world today is age discrimination. "You must be 16 to drive." "You must be 17 to buy this game" "You must be 5 to start kindermagarden" I think someone should invent maturity levels.. Like "you must have a maturtiy level of 1 before going to kidermagarden" "You must have a maturity level of 10 before you can drive" and whatever..

Because i am SICK.. Of people saying "YOU CANT DO THIS UNTIL THIS AGE." "YOU CANT DO THIS EITHER YOU ARE TOO YOUNG"

Things that can endager your health or have no positive use should be kept at the ages.. ex. alcohol 21, cigarettes 18... pr0n 18.. But if kids want the alcohol they're going to get it anyway i dont see the point >_< idiots..

But things that are whatever... dont need an age, but a maturity level..

I hate how the learning to drive system works.. The government says.. Kids dont even get in front of the wheel at ALL till they take drivers ed.. at 15..

Ok.. fair enough i guess.. SO here i am.. Mr. 15 year old.. goin to drivers ed.. i was the first person to drive the brand new 2004 ford tauros.. It had 11 miles on it when i got in.. But hmm. i was TERRIFIED to drive. I had never driven before.. Never done ANYTHING at all before.. however i did watch my parents when they drove.. So eventually i got through drivers ed.. and dear WHITEFACE.. i hated it.. I hate driving.. IT scares me to death.. SO here i am.. almost 18... Still on my level 1 "only drive with parents " lisence.. woo..
I think that the parents should be able to obtain a temporary lisence for kids who have a maturity level of ___Whatever.. so they can drive on.. like backroads or empty parking lots with their parents BEFORE drivers ed... so they dont end up terrified of driving and hating it forever like me..

So yea i think i will do that sometime.. Invent a maturity scale... perhaps ill promote it when me and shane take over the world... bwaha...


In other news.. Sp00ny installed linux and blah again.

SO i really wanted to play with sp00ny today but a series of unfortunate events.. (not the books) Happened..

like

-Laundry
-Cory
-COrys Game shark
- Storms
-Dad
-Garden
-Mr. Loveless
-Travis getting his leg almost chopped off by retard...

x-x so i didnt get to

hopefully tomarrow...

sorry sp00ny babeh
XD!

i made a FLIPPIN idiot out of myself infront of sp00ny talking about random crap i dont even like or care about

I dont even know why i talk about it it just happens..

Like i start out talkin about crap.. just joking about it cuz its funny or whatever..

but then its 1/2 way serious....



AND GRRR HE HATEEEEESS MEEEEEEEEEe

(not really))

BUTT OMGGGSDJ)FWEIR)IWE(TUSDfetus.

i DUNO why i RANDOMLY say things..

that i dont even RANDOMLY know about
ANYTHING,.
AT ALL..

and i just,.
dont.
know
anything
;_;
*stabs self with a dull sp00n*


I think that...
Sp00ny may be feeling some negativity twords me...

but i dont know because he never discusses his feelings with me <=| and i duno what stuff offends him or makes him feel uncomfortablee... or whatever...

BUT BLARG

I AM AN IDIOT.

PH33333###EeeeEE#333R ME!!" ;_;;;;;;!#EQ)DASj

WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE SOOO GOOD NOW LIFE?? WHY!?!?!? WHY WOULDNT YOU HAVE BEEN GOOD LAST WEEKEND?!?!? XP

not that im complaining..

but ooooooOOOOHHHHH MANNN

Me and sp00ner talked today for longer than EVER put together XD (not really)

*lurve sigh* butt hess soo cooooll.. and cuuutteeeee.. and awww ^-^...

There are no words to describbee the happynesss that me and sp00ny shaaarrreeee ^_______^^^^ *explode*



On another note...




Im obsessed with posting at AVEN now..

Thats the asexual visualization education network (i think?)

umm..

The people at the site seem nice enough

but some ppl at the LJ are thinking im forcing them to belieeeeve in whatever and what not but im just stating my opinion...

It kinda hurts me that some people are taking things the wrong way but

*shrug* i guess it's not really my problem.....


Sp00ny updated his journal today.. yay..

Ummmmmm.....

We played d00m endlessly yesterdayyyyy....

yar.

umm..

back to school tomarrow =((((((((((((((((((

oh well...
its like midnight so i guess i gotta go to bed so... cya later ppl..