Cait's Ramblings

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Alright so Phantasy Star Universe is now shut down. </done with sega mmos forever>

daniel couldnt get on for the farewell cuz of their idiocracy.

http://www.tssznews.com/2012/09/07/ahead-of-proper-psu-shutdown-abrupt-xbox-cutoffs/
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"WOO! Sold a lot of old video games today for 139$.. Finally I can afford peanut butter again!"

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"I almost smashed into a red SUV today.. I looked.. and ididnt even see it.. I SWEAR THERE WAS NOTHING THERE.... Daniel was screamin all STOPPP.. and then this big Yellow semi was comin from the other way and i was 1/2 way out into the road already.

</never driving again for i have lost my mind>"


 Daniels gotta work.. we thought it was a day rabbit show ~_~ We might run over around 1:20 and see if its still goin on.

"Okee, i should clarify that there's a lot of little things going on that is making me like *TWITCH* *TWITCH* most of them people wouldn't understand. xD"


So just like ignore this post unless you wanted clarification...

-Search algorithms on Windows 7 = Someone was on drugs. Buuut I can fix that by using agent ransack.. = Problem solved.

-1/2 of the rest of Windows 7 = inconvenient and broken... But again.. I can fix that too. (w7mods.2fear.com)

-Since im on the PC 20/7, having to deal with the little things like "When I click BLACK in piant, it stays white unless i click on it like 50 times" grinds mah gears.

-Search algorithms on deviantart = someone was on drugs. When I search my gallery for "Ariel" It comes up with nothing.. Yet "Cait x Ariel" is on the FIRST page... (check it yourself: http://caiterz.deviantart.com/ )

-On ebay the other day.. i search for "Pokemon Black Guide" (No description) and it comes up with some sex e-book... that didnt have Pokemon, Black, OR guide in the title.. Its like.. WHAT-__-.

-On ebay if you search for some things, some things show up, while others dont... Like i searched for ".hack 4" and some came up.. yet when i searched for ".hack" itself... one called ".hack vol 4" came up that did NOT come up on the other search.

-Photoshop has stopped responding! *Loose work*

-NOTEPAD of all things.. has stopped responding.. *Loose ALL work*

-Mai guildies have lied to me.. and lied and lied.. I put myself out there for them, i give them my email, i give them my phone number, tell them, If anythings wrong, LET me know! Then i PM them and ask if everythings goin alright, they tell me "yes" and now 1/2 of them leave because "Something is wrong" and "they wont tell me" and it doesnt matter if they told me or not because it could just be ANOTHER STORY!

-Everything in the apartment is broken.. The doors wont close, the back screen wont slide (even after cleaning the track), The back screen eventually fell OFF so we stuck it in the back, all the drains are plugged, the dishwasher liquid door wont open, the handle on the front door is falling off (at least it locks now), the stove is turning on all by itself. The air conditioner freezer over about every other hour unless you have the door open, and even then its about twice a day..

-Im almost running into cars that i SWEAR TO GOD were not there, forgetting a TON of stuff (Like if i turned the stove on???)(Like leaving keys in the door overnight!)

-Ive been sick for a while frikkin month. I got sick june 16th at the open house, and here i am still coughin my brains up, with an infinite source of mucus somewhere in my lungs.

-Being sick makes me angreh. *hulk smash* XD

-I cannot get a blu-ray disc to work apparently. I got it to work once, and it had terrible audio/video sync... and no option to offset it. v_v. *Boycott bluray forever*

-I can think of 8 people off the top of my head that have arranged dates to do something with me then blown me off without a call to cancel, without feeling like anything wrong the next day. Without explanation at all.

-I see people posting about hanging out with each other on facebook and i get sad cuz noone asks to hang out with me -_o, and when i ask, well i get blown off :p...

-The people that DO talk to me constantly (which is why im offline on facebook/aim/msn so much) are ANNOYING AS HELL.. they just want to RP (and ive never RPd) and want to talk about pron and other stupid crap that I have no interest in.. Yet the people i Want to talk to, i send a message, I get no response.

-So, thinking that its too much of a coincidence that all these people dont wanna hang out or talk... I conclude that the problem is me. Whats wrong with me? Cuz i dont drink? I ask, and I get "Oh no, cait you are fine o_o you are awesome, why wouldnt somoene wanna talk to you?" So i am very confused naturally >_>...

-WHY DOES ANYONE CARE WHO MARRIES WHO? *Ragerageragerage*

-Walmart mocks me..1/2 of the problems i had, they are fixing. I complain about the pegs in the back being REALLY messy and unsorted. I offer to re-sort them out. They laugh in my face and say its impossible... Sure. Now i go in and theyve got all the pegs lined up in site to store, been sorting them for WEEKS.. .I could have done it in a day, and had fun doing it. >_>... I see all these repair men on the roof.. fixing "THE LEAKS".. Which.. I SLIPPED and screwed my knee up pretty bad.. couldnt walk right for a month or 2. I asked them to check the tapes.. They didnt. I asked them to fix the roof. They laughed at me and said theyve tried to fix the roof and its not gunna work, so just deal with it..... I was in toys that day, and Carol was in fabrics. They pushed Carol to go people greet, wheras if she was zoning instead of that, she might have found the leak and cleaned it up. But I was running around from fabrics to toys and electronics trying to cover EVERYONE, and i didnt even see it at ALL because i have SO MUCH CRAP TO DO, where theres people standing around TALKING TO CUSTOMERS FOR HOURS AT A TIME that could be helping out.. -__-. and a month after this, i had a breakdown with the people greeter thing... and then a MONTH after that, they got RID of people greeters. -____________-

-Daniel doesnt help me clean up at all. v_v which.... Im the woman, i beloing in the kitchen/cleaning is my mantra.. I'd still like to see socks candy wrappers in the trash can instead of on the on the desk by the trash can.. (its really the only thing that me and daniel argue over at all)

-Other health problems which are prolly TMI, so i wont go into them here, but they make life very inconvenient.. -_o

-I cant stop thinking about everything. I've never been able to, really, but lately I think about dying a lot. I think about my family dying. When daniel is late, i think about OMG HE was probably smashed by a truck and dying along side the road, and etc... I think about How my dad woud feel if my brother died... I think about when Travis the cat died. Outside of dying, i think about people being upset with me a lot.. I think about what others may be thinking. I go over conversastions in my head about 9004 times with different scenarios of what i could say, and what their reaction might be, and how i could have changed everything... this is GHETTO worse when someone really IS upset with me (or they lie to me and i call em out on it).. I just break down and cant stop THINKING... esp when im trying to sleep.. I can never sleep, cuz im always always always thinking... I wish i could shut my brain off.

-My brain thinks about weird ass things, such as caring if people are upset with me, like before.. but its like.. WHY DOES IT CARE? Why cant i just MOVE ON with my life and not care how they feel.. Most of the time i ask people if they are upset after 99 years of thinking and scenarios, and they say "Umm no im not upset o.o" so its just my STUPID brain.. Why does it WANT other people to hang out with besides daniel? I mean, i can understand wanting daniel, since the grand scheme is to pass on the genetic code.. that has a reason, but being friends doesn't really provide anything life-changing... v_v.. I think of terms of programming a computer and a brain.. Its not the same at ALL, but i HATE inefficiency, and my life is inefficient because of this random need to want to hang out with people and talk. I spend more time on facebook and chats than I'd like because of this. V_V..

-Daniels car is taking a poop. Super jerky. So i gotta drive him now. My car has had check engine light on foreva... so likely it will take a poop. Cory says my roders are about dead. whatever that is. I hate cars. Expensive and stress causing. *wants to move to europe and public transit everywhere*

Thats all that i have on my mind at this second.... all the little stuff building up.. causing rant-mode. :P

Sorry guyz, I shall shut up about it now. xD

"Went out to the rabbit show today at the fairgrounds.. it was really awkward and i didn't know anyone but it was nice to go out..

Then i went over to radioshack and looked at some stuff, and wandered over to gamestop and bought minecraft for 360.

It looks like its gunna rain... But.. I was pretty excited abou tgetting out of the house.. it was nice.."

"This weekend, while everyone is out at BBQs and stuff, i shall be at my PC, compounding and refining my equips.

If i'm feeling extreme, I might open the window. O_O!"

Mich. Wildfire Burns 20,000 Acres - weather.com

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A fast-moving wildfire fed by dry conditions in Michigan's Upper Peninsula continued to burn Friday, consuming nearly 20,000 acres and prompting evacuations of homes and sections of a state park, officials said.

"http://www.weather.com/news/wildfire-michigan-20120526

Newberry Fire!"

In my last eBay blog entry someone said something that I don't quite understand.

What I understood it being was that because I only buy the ABSOLUTE cheapest ungodly amazing deals on eBay that I am in  a nutshell  'destroying the "ebayion" economy'

something about.. people that only buy amazing deals 'take away' from the good honest sellers or whatever.

Those comments almost made me think that they were thinking I was being cocky or demanding things from my 'wish list' post. 

When in reality, It's just a list of things that would be.. interesting to own..

I am in no way expecting to actually even own all of them at any point in my life o-O

My family is relatively.... Not wealthy. Sure we can still afford ~200$ on christmas presents but that doesnt really mean anything..

My dad works at a factory. He is a single parent. The house my mom bought has an over 1,000$ a month mortgage..

however, my dad is an incredibly penny pincher.. He will freak out and buy something else if it's 20 cents less.. you know as long as quality is decent..

"There's some things you can go cheap on, but others you just can't"

Car insurance..   Gas ranging from 3-3.80 a gallon.. Buying the essentials every week.. my and my moms hospital bills...

I really don't expect ANYthing from my dad but the essentials..

I know there are a lot of people that are worse off than us, but that is OFTEN due to poor money management skills.

We have no debt at all besides the mortgage on our house. Perfect credit.

There was this one lady who was in fashion bug. Her daughter was about 4-5 years old.. She got to the counter and couldnt pay because her credit card was maxed out. She tried calling SOMEONE on her cell phone but her battery was dead. She takes her little girl's (4-5 years old) cell phone and the little girl was screaming because it was HER cell phone and she didnt want her mom to touch it..   We got outside and she had a brand new shiny PT Cruiser.

This is an example of horrid money management skills. THESE people right here are the kind that say "oh im soo poor~" but they really arent.. their money managemetn skills SUCK. They could live a decent life.. if they would just LEARN. Sure they wouldnt have brand new cars and 6 cell phones but they could be DEBT FREE... for a lot of people.. being debt free is a lot more important than new cars and whatnot that they cant afford.

My dad drives a 1986 Astrovan with the  frame rotting out.... When this one dies we will prolly get like another van.. 1995.. for ~2,000$ IF it's a good deal.  We arent going to go out and buy some brand new 2012 H6 Hummer  or nothing because we cant afford it. It would be a bit retarded to go and buy something like that soley on credit cards..

Unfortunately most people do.

I buy most of my things on eBay because they are CHEAP.. usually better quality.. and you can get IT, whatever IT is..  when you go to walmart and i have a choice between a dog or a rainbow latchhook set.. When on ebay i could get a super cool tiger one!!! (for the same price or cheaper!)

SO I think I'm about done with ranting about money.

When I live on my own, I will probably shop at goodwill and eat nothing but 10cent ramen and ride my bike everywhere.........    because I'm cheap. Nothing anyone can say or do will change that. (Unless i came across an incredibley large sum of money... Then I might splurge and buy an electric powered bike :X hahahah)

Pretty much in short, I hate money. I hate dealing with it. It's hard to get and never seems to stick around. But I'll do my best! :)

(and by the way flamers, any and all comments that i deem... insulting or whatever will be reported and deleted.. So just dont waste your and my time. ^^)