Cait's Ramblings

Romantic friendship

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Romantic_friendship

if i ever find someone whos amazing and i dont hate them, i would like a romantic friendship, not a relationship, lol.

I recently posted this elsewhere but would like to also post it here... incase someone has anything to comment :x

Sorry if this isnt allowed, but it pertains to my sexuality..

My dad is very sexual...

He watches porn.. he rents it.. and looks it up on the internet.

Me... 100% asexual. I dont like naked bodies of any gender... I don't like porn... I don't like the idea of sex... or masterbation. It's well, gross and whatnot, in my opinion.


I guess my problem I have here is... because I AM this way, I don't see why my dad is so addicted or whatever. When I confront him about it... I say "Youve seen 1 naked lady, youve seen em all."

Because in my opinion anyway, that is true!! I've SEEN the HBO late night movies.. Ive seen the 'hardcore' stuff...


I found it incredibly boring.. repetitive.. gross.. disterbing.. and whatnot. But because I DO have an open mind I didn't just shut it off and say "blarg!"

It's good to know about everything in the world even if it is gross.

so anyway, My dad said back to me "well all your little anime you watch is the same too~"

I think it's not.. There are different people in different situations.. I watch anime because it's an escape from reality.. I can forget my poor excuse for a life and be engulfed in someone elses. (which is also why i watch some TV shows too) It takes me on an emotional rollercoaster that I am not capable of going on in my real life.... With the security that if something bad happens to a character it will not affect my life directly.


So.. I don't get porn at all... It's all the same to me..

Sure there may be different plots... and actually this one i seen had an interesting murder mystery plot but spoiled it with random sex everywhere.. But arent porn movies.. MADE... to 'satisfy the horny' or whatever? Being as I don't GET horny..... may be why I think they are stupid.. I dont know..

Does anyone else feel the same way? Anyone feel different? Why do sexual people think that way? (and im sure some asexuals like pr0n too) and why?

Thanks~~

~Cait

Soooooo....


Yeah..

I just feel kinda alone out there regarding sexuality..

I know shane is gay.. and apparently likes teh Male pr0n..

Travis is... probably straight and likes regular pr0n?

My dad does...

Cory i dont even know.....

It's just... the whole idea of secks and whatnot is SUPPOSED to be natural... SUPPOSED to be done...

yet to me it seems like it's something so unconceivable.. so.. HORRIFIC.. that it's impossible.

or maybe im crazy..

*admits self to mental home*

WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE SOOO GOOD NOW LIFE?? WHY!?!?!? WHY WOULDNT YOU HAVE BEEN GOOD LAST WEEKEND?!?!? XP

not that im complaining..

but ooooooOOOOHHHHH MANNN

Me and sp00ner talked today for longer than EVER put together XD (not really)

*lurve sigh* butt hess soo cooooll.. and cuuutteeeee.. and awww ^-^...

There are no words to describbee the happynesss that me and sp00ny shaaarrreeee ^_______^^^^ *explode*



On another note...




Im obsessed with posting at AVEN now..

Thats the asexual visualization education network (i think?)

umm..

The people at the site seem nice enough

but some ppl at the LJ are thinking im forcing them to belieeeeve in whatever and what not but im just stating my opinion...

It kinda hurts me that some people are taking things the wrong way but

*shrug* i guess it's not really my problem.....


Sp00ny updated his journal today.. yay..

Ummmmmm.....

We played d00m endlessly yesterdayyyyy....

yar.

umm..

back to school tomarrow =((((((((((((((((((

oh well...
its like midnight so i guess i gotta go to bed so... cya later ppl..