well... its over...
May. 29th, 2005 10:05 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
caitaro...i can still feel his arm around my back...... its weird.. its really weird... but um... i know.. what its like to be hugged now.. i know what its like to be kissed.. (sort of)... I know what its like to be missed and loved.. to an extreme extent..
*edit*.. the way he smelled.. he smelled sort of like my grandpa's old house.. i loved it.. its like catnip for caits.. every time we hugged.. every time we layed down together.. i could smell it and it was awesome... he says i smell like smoke.. but he said my house also smelled like his old GF's house o_o;;;;... but yeah the smoke thing.. and i apologise.. i myself never have smoked and never will so.. someday.. ill loose the scent.. and make sp00ny happy =333 perhaps.. when we grow up.. and we can live together... ^_^.*end edit*
It all started out... yesterday...
he called me... while i was in the shower.. um.. i had to hurry up to get all the shampoo out of my hair.. and then um i ran outside in my hamtaro towel and answered the phone.. and i was talking to sp00ny.. in my towel.. Lmao... anyways.. the phone kept dying... and yeah... so we called eachother like 4 different times.. then we just gave up... at 30 till we had to leave...
then.. we were going to get sp00ny.. i was excited and nervous... but yet.. i didnt get that weird feeling in my stomache.. im sort of glad i didnt or id feel like i was gunna puke.. but anyways.. we got there.. i had the camera in my pocket... and we sat in the car.. i heard the whistle of the train... and i jumped out of the car faster than i have ever moved in my entire life.. and of course i bumped my camera on the car and broke it so it wont close properly anymore...
but besides that, wahtever.. so me and mom walked um.. to the outside of the station and uhm.. *shivers* ( ohh.. that was weird.. ) anyways.. i was looking through the cars and they passed, looking for sp00ny.. and i didnt see him.. i was sort of scared.. what if it wasnt the right bus.. what if he was sleeping?!?... so we walk down and there comes this boy... quite a bit taller than me... my eyes go to about his chin.. but anyways.. moms like "what does he look like?!" and i said "long brown hair" i was like.. "mom.. is that sp00ny?" and shes like "i duno.." so as we walked passed he sort of waved.. so i smiled..
EDIT: i forgot to tell about the butterflies... normally i think.. in this situation i'd have UBER butterflys in my stomache going *BOOM* *BOOM* but this time.. i didnt.. i really didnt feel anything.. and i wish i did because its the excited butterflies that add some.. touch to the situation.. *end of edit*
and then he followed us out to the car.. and we got in and um.. we smiled awkwardly at eachother the whole ride home.. i dont think we really said anything... wait yes we did.. we talked about how everythign was greenn.. and it was a green conspiracy.. heh.. we made jokes about the green conspiracy throughout both days...
but anyways... we got home.. and i showed him into my room and he sat on the floor by my closet.. and i stood by my bed.. and we just stared at eachother.. and he got up and hugged me... i didnt know what was happening so i just stood there.. then it clicked: HUG HIM BACK... so i put my arms around him and hugged him and sorta rubbed my cheek onto his head.. which was like "OMG BLISS" but anyways..
we went to the creeekkk on our bikes andd.. we walked around and yeah.. then we went back home and i gave sp00ny his puppy statue thingy and the yu yu hakusho bookie thingy,.. then
*edit* then we swang on the swingss... and.. i got up and cory pushed me and i tripped and fell over the slide.. and i was on the ground all dirty XD.. i was laughing though cuz nothin hurt and yeah.. *end edit*
then cory came in. my room.. before we played DDR i got the camera out and i put it twords him and hes all "O_O *runs out of the room* and im like "say hi!" and hes like "hi!" and i set the camera down and hes like *runs up to it* *puts hand over it* he said "craziest thing is.. it feels like im hanging around someone i know but i dont know" and im like "i know its crazy" and so he says "another part of me says "well you have alot of catching up to do so you beter do it NOW." (which to me was like... "WOO PDA O_O" ) and he picked up my little bug things and hes like "you made these? " "yeah" "sweet.. cool like paper cut outs.. so whos gunna try this out.. should the guest of honor or one of you... *everyone points at him* WHY DO YOU ALL POINT AT MEEE!?!?!" and we played DDR... Corys like "i hate A' and sp00nys like "good for you" and he did the song "A" then "do me" on standard.. and afterwards cory got the pink fluffy bear and and hes sp00nys like "AHH PINK FLUFFY BEAR!" and he said "this house smells lkie my old girlfriends.. " adn im like "wonderful" and hes like "thts not wonderful! thats creepy!!!" XD but anyways it was embarrasing... heh.. sp00ny had the controller and i was
dancing.. and suddenly sp00ny shouts "EARTHQUAKE!" and im like "*look at him* *strange face* O_O WTF!!?!?!:" and hes like "nooo nooo thats not that i meant. my hands are like all wavery im sorry... yeah man i didint mean it that way.. ok we're recording over that spot im sorry i didnt mean it that way i mean i honestly.. i didnt mean that way i swear and cory its not that funny! jebus! how can you be so heartless.." and im like "heh".. so anyways. he started eating his chex mixc and hes like 'am i supposed to eat in front of the camera?" and im like "i dont care"... . He played beautifully... he was so swift and .. awesome... he also did frozen ray
and we went into the ktichen and hes like to my dad.. "ah. ive got a sock in my hole.." and hes like "o_O what? you better get it out then" and im like "...o_o;;.." cuz he had a GIANT hole in his sock
and he ahd to sneeze and cory was recording him and hes like "MUST I BE RECORDED FOR EVERYHTING" and im like "you should have seen shane Omg XD" and then um.. cory chased him around the house and he was screaming.. ti was funny
then we played karaoke revolution... and he sang awesome... he didnt do that good score wise.. but oh god his voice is so <3ish... and i sang some songs and hes like "oh man your voice is so pretty.. sing some more" =3.. (oh god i feel his hair against my cheek.... i miss him so much...) and like.. at SOME point.. i was like really cold.. and cory was hot and so sp00ny took his coat and put it over me. .^_^... it was warm and aw...
Then um. he hugged the squish pillow and hes liek "its so squishy i love the squish pillow its so squishy im gunna taake it home" and im like "you love it more than me?" and hes like "yes i love you more than the squish pillow" and he was hugging it and hes like "lets share the hug" and he puts it on me and sorta 1/2 hugs me hehe
and then i was recording him sing so he didnt want me to so i stopped and hes like "yugi summened the power of squish.. stop recording me!!!" and im like.. "why!?" and hes like "squish is more entertaining than me"
so hes lkie "who wants to play pie? caity do you wanna play pie? i know how to play pie" and they're arguing ocver whos using the wireless controller. and sp00nys like "lets play ahndy clap this is so lame" and so we clap hands.. and im like "well we already did this at shanes house XD" and they'er talking about boredom and stuff.. and how the bunny is bored and the pillow is bored.. and the pink fluffy bunny.. and hes like "why daddy stop it daddy dont you lvoe me anymore.." and corys like "no" XD.. and he puts the pillow on my head and hes like.. "you look so cute.. she looks awesome in that hat dont you agree?" and im like "IM THE QUEEN OF BRAZIL!!" and hes like "im the king of nathan" and he puts nathan the bunny onn his head XD
and we played test drive.. and sp00ny was like making random noises and corys liek 'Sp00ny stop being nasty" and im like "YOUR the nasty one your talking about your weiner!" and hes like "that was like.. 20 minutes ago..." and im like "ROFL BUT STILL YOU DID IT" and sp00nys like "your the the one thats calling me fanny wany and stuff" and i randomly said "we should make you climb mt. fuji" XD and we played test driveee.. and um.. I was like "woo i have a pimpin bus" and sp00ny said "i wanna ride caits bus!" and cory threw a fit and i said.. "cory im gunna tell dad.. im gunna scream 'rape' to dad! " and sp00nys like "o-o no thats gunna put me in a bad position..." and im like "oh yeah XD" and of course cory threw a fit and stuff.. and i was crossing things off the list of stuff to do.. and i was like "we did this and this and this.." and sp00nys like "we did some PDA.." and im like "NOT ENOUGH! =O!" so sp00nys like "so caity take my hand come back to the light." so i think we held hands then.. im not sure.. and then cory left.. and then cory shut the door and sp00ny started freaking out.. and cory was laying next to sp00ny and 'hugging him' and im like "you cant do that! you cant hug hiM! that my job! my spot!" and sp00nys like "SAVE ME!@!!!" and so cory decides to lay on me and im like "AHH CANT BREATHE"
um we played ping pong and stuff like that then.. we talked about mr. loveless.. about hwo he doesnt like the shape of hearts.. and corys like "I like the shape of... your mom! =O!" and we're like LMAO
and we went to cedars..sp00ny got a bacon cheeseburger or something like that.. with fries.. i got a grilled chikan sandwhich with chips.. and cheese sticks.. omg that was the hardest chikan sandwhich i had to eat in my entire LIFE.. but um.. at cedars.. tehy have this Keno thing.. and i was like "OMG MOM PICK 13 and 37!!!" because 13 + 37 = 1337 = leet.. =O and when they drew the numbers it said on the screen "13" then im like "WOO 13" and then it said "37" RIGHT After that.. and i started freaking out going "OMG THEY DID 13 and 37 AT THE SAMMMMMEMEEE THINGGYY MABOBBERRRR OBH MY EFFING SHIZNESS!!!!! O_!O!!_!O!_o" yeah.. but anyways.. tehn they said "60" and sp00ny was reading them off.. then they said "9" so it sounded like he said.. "60..... 9" XD = 69.. it was funny.. we had a CHUCKLE OUT OF THAT...
edit: and um.. we went to.. my swings and.. um.. we swang on them.. and sp00ny gave us a talk about anger management.. mainly to cory cuz corys like "RAR RAR *KILL CAIT*" *end edit*
anddd sp00ny played with my hair and braided it really funny.. and he massaged my shoulderss.. omg it felt good XD.. <33
we talked about how the animals on my curtains were scaring him..
and we were talking about reading between the lines.. XD.. and sp00nys like "im gunna disterb you now.. *licks his middle finger" and im like "LOL" and so cory does it to and sp00nys like "are you disterbed?" and hes like "no" *Does it again*
and we talked about getting ran over by a car.. and cory takes the pink bear and was like.. *puts it on sp0ny*"it wants youuu.."-- and im like "not as bad as i do =O"
andd... sp00nys like "You both loose.. you both dont get a prize" and im like "=O i want a prize!" and sp00nys like "if you look at the animals on the curtains long enough you get a prize" and sp00nys like "those pandas like you in not so good ways" XD "run cory run before they like you anymore" and cory takes the squish pillow and sp00nys like "no i was using it first" and corys like "no cait was" ewwwww and im like "to sleep on" adn sp00nys like "TAMPON" and im like "OMFG XXD im sorry i dont use those!" and sp00nys like 'i just called out a random word and tampon happened to be it! XD"
and so sp00nys like "DUDE.> THAT HEART IS SMILING AT ME" he looked at the pumpkin pic i made "oh it looks like a heart that things creepy mann its like holy crap it harry potter and his hypnotic owl they wanna eat me mannnn"
and corys like "IM GUNA POKE YOUR CHEX MIX" and sp00nys like "CORY GO TO BED"
and we talked about jeans and how cory hasnt wore jeans before..
and cory was like randomly "I want to eat your mouth" and sp00nys like "what the.. i dont even want to know" and he layed down
and he said "i dont know if this is happening or if im dreaming.. and i lay next to to him and i say its happening.. your not dreaming"
cory layed on the other side of him so it went | Cait | sp00ny | cory | pillows | and i said "its me.. and im here" so he pinched himself and hes like "yep.. its real" and im like "what are you overcome with joy or?.." and hes like "overcome with... i duno what the hells going on.."
and so then.. cory got a bottle out and we played spin the bottle truth or dare.. and we did stuff.. i truthed sp00ny "what have been your emotions so far" and hes like "i saw you and im like.. its cait.. but somethings different... " and im like "okays" and soo ummm..
So sp00ny truthed me "how many ex's do you have? ive been dying to know for some reason" and it hought he ment in genetics.. so i said "2" because girls are XX and boys are XY... and so im like "cory doesnt even know what that means. XX is girl XY is boy.." and sp00nys like "noo i meant ex boyfreinds.. " so i list off the list and i was like "and sp00ny" and hes like "hey!! im not your ex yet!" and im like "oops.... wait.. YET?" and hes like "good question.. well as i say, prepre for the worst, hope for the best.." and im like "<=|"
and so sp00ny dared cory to leave the room for 5 minutes and he said later.. .. and um. then he said "30 seconds" and hes like "no!"
and then cory asked me how many BFs had a i wanted to move in with.. and im like "4.. alex, chris, gary, and sp00ny"
and then sp00ny asked cory why he had a picture of a wrestling people in his room and hes like "well i won it at the fair.." and sp00nys like "ROFLMAO YOU WIN THE PRIZE ROFLMAO!!!"
and then
corys like "sp00ny do you like your mom?" and sp00nys like "i like her as a mom"
and then the tape ended.. so my further In depth writing of the trip is halted..
then..
i think.. cory dared sp00ny to kiss me... and so sp00nys like "cory turn around for 15 seconds." so he did.. and he kissed me on the cheek.. it went so fast.. i barely noticed what happened.. i think i blushed.. i dunno.. but anyways.. lesse.. what else did we doo.... we played badminton i think.. o_O im not sure..
but we played super smash brothers melee for like a ZILLION hours and i quit like 1/2 way through.. and at some point.. sp00ny was like "That was an eptic battle ." and so im like "CPR?" " sooo he layed down on teh ground and looked at me and so....... hes like "come on cait you know wanna CPR me" im like 'o_o what do i do?!?!?" and so i just didnt do anything... cory said "come on cait go give him cpr!" and sp00nys like "thats too embarasing for you" and corys like "fine ill bury my head in this blanket" and so he did it and im like "sp00ny lets leave!" so we start to leave and corys like "HEY" and sp00nys lkie 'hehehehe" ;\ i missed my chance to kiss him!!! ;_; oh well..
Edit: i kind of wished he'd talk more about needing CPR the 2nd day... because i would have kissed him the 2nd day.. i kept mentioning it to him XD but hes like "la la *not taking hnts*" so yeah.. *end edit*
okay then we turned off the lights and had a 'glow in the dark star party' and we listened to hamtaro songs.. then naruto songs.. then um.. but um.. lesee.. then i think we watched alone in the darkk.. in my room which we didnt even WATCH it.. sp00ny was laying on the inside portion of my bed.. and cory was laying on the outside portion of it.. and sp00ny took the black squishy pillow and he curled his legs up and put the pillow on it and and hes like "loook cait. pillow.. " and so i was reluctant to lay down because i was afraid id smish him.. but uhm... i didnt.. so i layed there for awhile.. then i was like "hey i got an idea.. lets lie sideways.. that way they'res more room.." so we layed like | Cait| Sp00ny | Cory | pillows | and i curled up next to him... and he hugged.. and cuddled.. and we nose kissed.. and i put my face against his.. that was one of my favorite parts.. my face against his.. =3.. i was like 'aahhhh...' but anyways.. so they watched the movie... and i stared at sp00ny.. God... hes so cute.. and then we switched spots so it was liek | Sp00ny | Cait | Cory | pillows | and um.. i stared at him some more.. and yeah.. cory fell asleep... and sp00nys like.. "well corys asleep.. guess we better do this now.. and he kissed me.. on the lips.... sure our lips were dry and it was a quick kiss.. but still it was my first kiss =3... and yeah.. i liked it.. i wanted to do it againn SOO bad O_O.. its like all i thougth about all that night and all the 2nd day.. and he put his arm out and i layed my neck on his arm and we hugged and stuff.. but anyways.. eventually sp00ny fell asleep.. and so was cory.. so i watched payed programmings.. and i slid out of bed and layed down...because dad wanted sp00ny to sleep on the couch cuz he DUN TRUST US WTFLOLBBQ111ONe. and yeah.. but thennn um.. so i layed down on the DDR mat with squish pillow and sp00nys coat covering me... i tried sp00nys coat on lol.. it fit fine aruond my back but it wouldnt zip up in a zillion years XD.. but anyways.. his coat is sorta like leather.. its got a funny feel to it... yeah... so then i layed there lkie that from 2:00-4:30... watching paid programmings..and this on pizza show and this one compy work at home thing.. and this critter saver show.. which was disterbing o_O.. but anyways,. so at 4:30 i thought 'Hey we got only 1/2 hr left till we gotta wake up. so.. i might as well lay down with sp00ny and see if i can fall asleep in his armmmss wooo..' but he had rolled over in his sleep.. and
so it went | empy spot | sp00ny | cory | pillows |.. so yeah... i climbed into the empty spot.. and sp00ny was on his side.. i wanted to hold onto him.. put my arm around him SOO bad but i didnt.. so i just layed there..
and at 5 he got up and sat up and he started leaving the room and im like "where ya goin?" and hes like "gotta get a drink".. minutes later.. he came back "wheres the cups? XD" and so he used his old cup and um,.... yeah.. he played Need for speed underground.. with cory.. and test drive.. we custom painted cars like the green conspiracy and the chooby chan and the converged potato head man.. XD and yeah.. and so then and then they played intellivision lives for a ZILLION hours and it was so boring and i was so tired so i just layed there.. 1/2 asleep.. XD.. anyways.. we hugged and stuff alot... inbetween events and during them.. so yeah.... and then i went out to get somethign to drink and dads like.. "were you up all night?" and im like "yeah..".. so hes lkie "What about nath and cory?" and im like "i duno i wasnt payin attention" and hes like "o-O wtf" so yeah and um.. i went back in there and told sp00ny that and hes lkie "the plan is we just all stayed up all night" so im like "ahhh.." so yeah and pie...
ok anyways.. geez i forgot man.. we played karaoke revolution... and we layed down on my bed and cuddled alot... i really liked that... but his arm kept getting numb :\ oh well.. anyways... so hes like "woo lets play footsie" XD so we did i guess o-O but um..
umm. we played foozball and hockey and we messed around with the stuff for awhile.. it was remotely.. boring...
so we went for a walk... down the driveway... around the driveway.. adn through part of the woods... and we held hands most of the way.... our hands were really sweaty though... we talked about how we cant believe the other was there... .. and every time i looked over to stare at him.. i said to myself "holy shit.. sp00ny is here.. MY sp00ny.. and hes holding MY hand.. wtfomgbbqyay" and um.. yeah i cut my foot on some plant... it was bleeding and stuff... so we went back and mom was in the bathroom and so yeah.. then um.. sp00ny was messing around on the compy trying to fix raggy.. but he couldntt.. so pie.. and so then mom got out of the bathroom and i washed my foot off and put bandaids on them...
and theeenn..... uhms.. we played intellivision lives some more.. ... mom kept comming in when we were like hugging so im like 'grrness' and yeah.. we werent allowed to have the door closed when we were in there alone....
we kept ssinging the intellivison song.. ' i really miss my intellivison and so im bleeding from this incision.. i really want my.. intellivision" that one..
Cory kept wanting to play retarded games and sp00ny wanted to play frog bog hehehehhe..
Edit: and sp00ny kept washing his hands o_O like every other friggin hour he'd go wash his hands XD it was weird.. *end edit*
soo then we threw snorlax and bulbasaur around... i was by the window cory by the dresser and sp00ny on my bed.. i wanted to cuddle some more so i scooted forward and corys freaking out going "OMG SK00T BACK CAITYS~ OMGGG..." and im like 'noo!'
so eventually i climed back into bed with sp00ny and im like 'aahh *hugagee* " ^_^ and yeah.. when we were alone i was like.. "sp00ny.. if you want to... i mean.. like before you go.. um.. if we could do some more irc stuffles" (which meant kissing) and hes like "kissy?" and im like "yeah" and he didnt do anything so i was sorta sad but hes like rar and we hugged and pie and <3
and we took pictures of us.. (talk to sp00ny if you wanna see em...) um.. yeah.. its my background image now <3...
so um..
me and sp00ny were in my room along and hes like.. "im gunna miss you cait..." and im like "im gunna miss you too" *HUGGAGE* so yeah :\ and then we went outside and played badminton again and im like.. "ok we need to go in at 5:20 so that we can have time to 'pack up' so we played badminton till 5:20 and we packed up and we hugged and told eachother how much we were gunna miss eachother.. it was quite sad... sp00ny almost started crying.. he had one tear fall down.. he said.. "I just realized.. your the person behind the monitor..." i was like "oh my god.." and so i hugged him... i really didnt want him to cry <=|
so um.. it was time to go.. and im like "sp00ny if you want you can hold my hand or lean on me in the car because i dont care what mom thinks.." and so hes like "yeah thats good..." so.. i got a drink and then we go into the car.. adn sp00ny was like *siiiigghh* alot.. and we didnt hold hands at first.. but then we got to about moscow.. (not RUSSIA) and hes like *puts his hand out* so i put my hand into his,.. it was really a SHITTY job of holding hands cuz my thumb kept slipping off his fingers.. so tehn eventually his mom called and we switched hand positions to a better position... and sp00nys all *siiigh*.. and im like.. tryin to fight back the tears cuz i didnt want him to leave me!! ;-;.
so then we got there.. and sp00nys like "OMG freaking out" and so we got there and the door was locked.. and we're like 'wtfomgbbq' so we went aroundd and we started to hug and mom came around.. and sp00nys like "o_o *stop hugging* " so im like *look up* "shit. i hope mom didnt see" and moms like "its on tiiimee.. rar" andd we sat on the doorstep of this one place.. and we talked about life.. and religion and god.. and open minded ness.. and peoples minds being veryy questionable.. and i almost started bawling when we were talking about that stuff... we were talking about.. our lives.. our careers and junk and i told him.. "even if i do find someone else.. ill still be with you and ill love you.." and i really mean it.. i dont care if mr. perfect comes along and is like 'rawr i love you cait' i dont CARE i want sp00ny and sp00ny ONLY.. and we talked about wheither or not the train was comming or not.. and i swear i heard the train and sp00nys like "well gotta do this.." so he leans over and kisses me.. our lips were very very dry..
anyways.. so we talked a little bit more.. and then i heard the train and im like.. "its here" and he started to get upset.. omg i hate seeing him upset its so sad.. but anyways i followed him up there to make sure it was the right train. and i THINK it was o_o;;; and um. so i left.. i had to fight back tears again.. as me and mom left the parking lot.. we took pictures of the stupid vans on the way back...
so then we got home.. i got a drink.. i checked msn.. sp00nys brother was on msn and hes all freaking out.. but anyways.. i went into my room and started bawling.. and hugging my black squish pillow.. and i was bawling.. it was about 8:21..then.. hmm.. so i got on compy.. and started typing this.... dad came out here.. and hes like "did you kiss him bye?" and im like "did YOU?" and hes like "noo.." and hes like "did your mom kiss her future son in law bye?" and im like "o_o...no?" and dads like "hah that'll never happen.. he lives too far away"... im gunna show him.. im gunna show him that i love sp00ny no matter what and im gunna be with him no matter what.. when i grow up....
the end..
time now: 9:42 PM EST.. took me 61 minutes to type all this..
it was worth it.. this is something im going too look back on and smile.. because i love sp00ny so much.. and im gunna be with him forever i hope...
*done revising.. 9:46PM EST*
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Editness: i put EDIT: next to um.. all the stuff i added today (monday) yeah. nothing TOO major.. and i added the part about sp00ny saying im the person behind the montor...
but um.. in addition to all this.. last night after i went to bed after i got doen typing this.. i set my alarm clock.. for 11:00 which is 10 his time... aaand on the doorway by the train station i promised id talk to him at 10.. and um.. <=\ my GAY ASS ALARM CLOCK DIDNT GO FUGGING OFF>E$!@$()QWUIRF(ASEFU(SDAFU (#TJU(IJFSIOAFJIOSJ so... i woke up at 4:00 and i was like "something is wrong.." so i looked at the clock.. and.. it waws 4:00.. and im like 'Oh FUCKING SHIT. i missed sp00ny" so i ran out to the computer.. yes at 4:42 AM
and turned the monitor on.. it was still connected.. and sp00ny had said nothing.. but he was ON. so im like "sp00ny?"... and no response so he must be sleeping.. so i went in my room.. and my aim thing was flashing. so i looked at it.. and hes said..
"cait my train was late and stuff so rar.. and.. PLEASE HEAR THE BEEPS CAIT.. well ill see you tomarrow " and stuff like that
so.. i started to cry again when i realized he wasnt there.. when he wasnt laying beside me... like he was the night before.. so i hugged my black squish pillow and apprently cryed myself to sleep.. it took awhile too....
i hope thats all the story.. if i remember mroe ill put in more EDIT:'s
-Caity
