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caitaroum.. we went to the funeral place today..
we picked out the card.. the poem... the card was a pink rose a.. clipart pink rose.. the open is called "away (she)" it talks about.. how mom isnt dead.. shes just away.. its really sad.. me and cory and mel picked it out.
um.. the visitation is... sunday from 2-8 .. we'll be there from 4-8.. um.. the funeral will be monday at 1.. with a banquet thing afterwards..
duno if ill be able to make my appointment with mary anne.. it'll be my last one.. because all it was.... was me and mom .. getting to know eachother better... i wouldnt ever go in there alone.... because it was my time with her.. i learned so much about here in this short year.. im glad i had a chance to get to know her.. and she got to know me...
i still wanted to show her my journal entries with sp00ny but i guess i wont be able to now.. *sob*
ive cried more in these 2 days more than i have in my entire life.. and ive cried alot.... i cant go an hour without crying now... i wonder how long that will last.. what will i do at school??...
i duno...
its tough to know how its gunna feel when dads at work.. theres gunna be noone here... OMG I CANT FRIGGIN ARSE BELIVE THAT SHES GONE AND I NEVER WILL BECUZ I LOVE HER SO MUCH AND I NEVER TOLD HER I LOVED HER AND OMG IM AN IDIOTTTTTT BAAKAKAAAAA CAITTT RARRr..
*sob*
we picked out the card.. the poem... the card was a pink rose a.. clipart pink rose.. the open is called "away (she)" it talks about.. how mom isnt dead.. shes just away.. its really sad.. me and cory and mel picked it out.
um.. the visitation is... sunday from 2-8 .. we'll be there from 4-8.. um.. the funeral will be monday at 1.. with a banquet thing afterwards..
duno if ill be able to make my appointment with mary anne.. it'll be my last one.. because all it was.... was me and mom .. getting to know eachother better... i wouldnt ever go in there alone.... because it was my time with her.. i learned so much about here in this short year.. im glad i had a chance to get to know her.. and she got to know me...
i still wanted to show her my journal entries with sp00ny but i guess i wont be able to now.. *sob*
ive cried more in these 2 days more than i have in my entire life.. and ive cried alot.... i cant go an hour without crying now... i wonder how long that will last.. what will i do at school??...
i duno...
its tough to know how its gunna feel when dads at work.. theres gunna be noone here... OMG I CANT FRIGGIN ARSE BELIVE THAT SHES GONE AND I NEVER WILL BECUZ I LOVE HER SO MUCH AND I NEVER TOLD HER I LOVED HER AND OMG IM AN IDIOTTTTTT BAAKAKAAAAA CAITTT RARRr..
*sob*
