:(

Ive felt really really good since i talked with lisa.. what was it? a week ago..

now i feel horrid.. again..

probably due to a book.

memoirs of a geisha. I'm finishe with it.. the ending is so sad..

SUPER SPECIAL HUGE MEGA ULTRA SPOILERS

the whole book in a nutshelll is a girl.. Sayuri who is ripped from her home and parents sold to a house.. she finds a glimmer of happiness in the world when the Chairmen notices her. to try to get close to him, she tries to become a Geisha.. She does and spends many years trying to get him to noticer her.. when his friend Nobu DOES notice her and is obsessed.. then later she plots to make nobu hate her, but the chairmen got the effect insted, she was depressed.. btu then the chairmen said it was a setup and he always liked her but didnt wanna spoil nobu cuz nothing makes him happy but her.. and then.. Then they get together.. and they are happy.. and stuff... and then they move to america and... then she ponders what will happen when the chairmen dies (cuz hes like~ 30 yrs older than her) .... then a few months after that he dies.. and she lives on...


END SUPER SPECIAL HUGE MEGA ULTRA SPOILERS



and omg its so saddddd ;-;;;;;

I feel as if the chairmen has become the person /I/ long for.. and he's gone.. and.. the books over and i just feel so empty and defeated...

its almost 6 am.. i dont think ill be able to sleep.. i feel sick.. and i hurt all over XD..

its pretty pathetic to get all worked up over a bunch of words.. but words are my life...







edit: 6:09.. oh.. god.. I must enforce the insane cuteness of Howl from Howl's moving castle.





the only question now.. which is hawter? black hair? or blonde?

;_;

JUst in case

If for some.. perverse reason you wanna know what blanket i sleep with here it is


http://trendsrus.biz/images/blankets/300/unicorn300.jpg

Its very soft.
I love it.

I need to wash it though.

The bottom of it smells of cat pee :(