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caitaronormally.. i wouldnt write this dream here.. as the content is.. well.. questionable. but.. *shrug* not like i.. or anyone will ever care.
ok but first off. dispite some of the content.. in this dream i experienced the ABSOLUTE amount of happiness ever.. and now that im woke up.. slightly depressed.. ill explain later.
OK so it sstarted off i was in this hotelish type place but it was public and it had couches and magazines and people were sitting around talking. I was there and these 2 guys come up to me and they aer talking to me.. and so i am friends with them.. then eventually one guy leaves and im left with the other guy...
and so now... im apparently /in love/ with this guy.. and he is in love with me.. awesome. i think. :D.
So we were talking some more.. and we picked up a magazine.. and this magazine was talking about sex. And how to have it. Yes this is where the questionable content comes in.
And so the guy was reading some of it to me.. about "how to". And this was different than real life sex by the way..
You have to have either a black or blue 'crayon' like object.. and with this if you use it (mark on yourself.. then BELIIIEVEE) then you will 'evolve' sort of.. and then only when you've evolved enough you can have sex.. and the more you evolve.. um.. the better it is? (i think?)
Ok so me and him went back to my house.. (which is where i live right now) and him and me and my dad talked.. and my dad was going on abouit
"OMG NO SECKS!"
and we were like "yeah yeah okay."
and so my dad was following us around as we walked around outside and in the woods.. and omg.. the woods in this world was sooooo beautiful.. i remember it had clear streams flowing down smooth stream rocks.. and omg awesome..
and the guy i was with apparently lived in the middle of a pond whcih was connected to one of these streams.. He kind of had a house built up on 'stilts' so you could swim under it... etc. so we were swimming and stuff and i swimmed under his house and we were playing hide and seek sort of for a while.. only.. i kept hiding and he had to find me.. and stuff.. and afterward.. we got out of the pond/stream.. but we werent wet.. SO.. we went into his house.. and we were kinda tired from playing hide and seek and walkin around all day... so.. then we went into his rooom.. and layed on his bed...
and cuddled ^_^.. omg it was AWESOME... i felt so warm.. happy.. and wanted.. and this feeling was lasting from about... when we went outside in the woods.. till the end of my dream...
(and i swear to effing whiteface it is the best feeling i can ever experience. period. I get this feeling a lot when um.. i have dreams about relationships with guys.. and we go do stuff..
the 'guys' in the dreams used to actually be people.. like.. Shane.. or sp00ny.. but now when i have this kind of dream.. the guy is some anonymous guy who i cant put a name or face to. )
anyway.. so now that my brain was overloaded with seratonin.. the guy i was with was like.. "Cait.. lets upgrade.... just once.. okay?" and im like "okay" so we got a black crayon stick thing.. which at this time was worth 2 upgrades.. and we used it.. I upgraded once.. and he upgraded once.. Then we cuddled some more and whatnot and then we left back for my house.. when we got here my dad was like.. sleeping.. and anyway.. so we were out in the kitchen and hes like
"lets have SECKS" and im like "o.o.......... ............. okay" so he like... started to? and im like "o.0 weirdness" so then my dad like walked in and hes like "BLARGITY BLARG BLARG" and so hes like "BLARG back" and we left.. so we walked down my driveway and we met up with the guy from before at the hotelish place..
and we told him that we upgraded once.. (and the other guy was with a friend) and he said "oh man.. thats nothing.. im upgraded all the way.. from playing everquest.." and im like "wow" so me.. and my "lover"guy.. the guy from the hotel and his friend were all walkin. and we made it to US12 and we walked down US12.. and then it turned into some woods.. and we were like 'riding a bus' or something and the guy from the hotel's friend... who actually turned out to be /CORY/ was like ":( I want an upgrade...." so we obtained black, blue, and orange crayon upgrade sticks.. and now, black was worth 3 upgrades, blue 2, and orange 1.. and we gave him an orange one and then he upgraded and left.. so it was just the 3 of us..
and heres where it gets fuzzy.. i cant remember what exactly happened much.. but we were in the bus talking and whatever and talking about upgrades... and so we eventually went back to the forest with the pond.. and we were sitting by the stream up against a tree and he just.. was holding me.. and again i felt the RUSH Of incredible happiness and seratonin.. and i felt so......... so.. peacefull.. and calm.. and that my future was going to be alright.. and i dont have to worry about anything at all...
and thats basicallly all i remember...
and it makes me sad when i have these dreams kinda.
cuz i wake up from INCREDIBLE UNGODLY HAPPINESS (that doesnt exist in real life) to... trying to figure out WHO it was.. giving me this insane happines.. and... the guy is anonymous now.. so.. I get depressed...... beacuse i realize.. he doesnt exist... that happiness was all in my head.. this was just a dream.. and it will never happen.. and i will never get to experience that kind of happiness and security in real life.. and its so incredibly depressing because that is one of my goals in life.. to FIND... some guy.. who will just.. be there for me.. and love me.... and
and id experience that intense rush of happiness like in my dreams..
unfortunately.. reality check cait. The world sucks.. people in this world suck.. i will never find anyone CLOSE to that..
it doesnt particularly help that i've decided to put my status of 'single' in stone... But it is.. *folds arms* Yeah im not gunna fall for some guy anyone.. whos just gunnna.. ditch me in the end.. or the middle or whateverr...
but if by some UNHOLY UNGODLY reason that my dreams become reality and that guy exists.. than i will.. just.. explode XD.. but i highly doubt technology is ever going to get to the point where they can 'enhance' dreams or whatever.. or make you life in a 'dream world' your whole life.
but *sigh*
it is so nice to dream.
edit: HOLD UP, HOLD UP. I think i know why i may have had this dream last night.. beacuse right before i went to bed i was watching sailor moon and one of the last episodes was "Usagi and Mamoru, the perfect couple".. perhaps i was manifesting usagi and mamoru's love in that episode into a dream that i could actually live in.. I remember last night upon watching that episode.. wishing that i had a guy like mamoru @_@
nother edit: ahh speaking so much of guys today..
my math teacher.. is awesome.. not a math.. (well at math) but.. ahh he is cute XP
ALSO theres this guy at walmart O.O.. who stocks the meat on weekends when we are there.. and omg he is soooo cuuuteee.. :D when we go there i watch him >_> stock the meat.. while dads looking at.. whatevers across from the meat.. :P
so then when we go to get meat.. he always asks us if we found everything okay.. :O~~ dad always says yes.. but then he smiles and OMG CUTENESS XD
but yeah..
>_> single 4evr >:3
ok but first off. dispite some of the content.. in this dream i experienced the ABSOLUTE amount of happiness ever.. and now that im woke up.. slightly depressed.. ill explain later.
OK so it sstarted off i was in this hotelish type place but it was public and it had couches and magazines and people were sitting around talking. I was there and these 2 guys come up to me and they aer talking to me.. and so i am friends with them.. then eventually one guy leaves and im left with the other guy...
and so now... im apparently /in love/ with this guy.. and he is in love with me.. awesome. i think. :D.
So we were talking some more.. and we picked up a magazine.. and this magazine was talking about sex. And how to have it. Yes this is where the questionable content comes in.
And so the guy was reading some of it to me.. about "how to". And this was different than real life sex by the way..
You have to have either a black or blue 'crayon' like object.. and with this if you use it (mark on yourself.. then BELIIIEVEE) then you will 'evolve' sort of.. and then only when you've evolved enough you can have sex.. and the more you evolve.. um.. the better it is? (i think?)
Ok so me and him went back to my house.. (which is where i live right now) and him and me and my dad talked.. and my dad was going on abouit
"OMG NO SECKS!"
and we were like "yeah yeah okay."
and so my dad was following us around as we walked around outside and in the woods.. and omg.. the woods in this world was sooooo beautiful.. i remember it had clear streams flowing down smooth stream rocks.. and omg awesome..
and the guy i was with apparently lived in the middle of a pond whcih was connected to one of these streams.. He kind of had a house built up on 'stilts' so you could swim under it... etc. so we were swimming and stuff and i swimmed under his house and we were playing hide and seek sort of for a while.. only.. i kept hiding and he had to find me.. and stuff.. and afterward.. we got out of the pond/stream.. but we werent wet.. SO.. we went into his house.. and we were kinda tired from playing hide and seek and walkin around all day... so.. then we went into his rooom.. and layed on his bed...
and cuddled ^_^.. omg it was AWESOME... i felt so warm.. happy.. and wanted.. and this feeling was lasting from about... when we went outside in the woods.. till the end of my dream...
(and i swear to effing whiteface it is the best feeling i can ever experience. period. I get this feeling a lot when um.. i have dreams about relationships with guys.. and we go do stuff..
the 'guys' in the dreams used to actually be people.. like.. Shane.. or sp00ny.. but now when i have this kind of dream.. the guy is some anonymous guy who i cant put a name or face to. )
anyway.. so now that my brain was overloaded with seratonin.. the guy i was with was like.. "Cait.. lets upgrade.... just once.. okay?" and im like "okay" so we got a black crayon stick thing.. which at this time was worth 2 upgrades.. and we used it.. I upgraded once.. and he upgraded once.. Then we cuddled some more and whatnot and then we left back for my house.. when we got here my dad was like.. sleeping.. and anyway.. so we were out in the kitchen and hes like
"lets have SECKS" and im like "o.o.......... ............. okay" so he like... started to? and im like "o.0 weirdness" so then my dad like walked in and hes like "BLARGITY BLARG BLARG" and so hes like "BLARG back" and we left.. so we walked down my driveway and we met up with the guy from before at the hotelish place..
and we told him that we upgraded once.. (and the other guy was with a friend) and he said "oh man.. thats nothing.. im upgraded all the way.. from playing everquest.." and im like "wow" so me.. and my "lover"guy.. the guy from the hotel and his friend were all walkin. and we made it to US12 and we walked down US12.. and then it turned into some woods.. and we were like 'riding a bus' or something and the guy from the hotel's friend... who actually turned out to be /CORY/ was like ":( I want an upgrade...." so we obtained black, blue, and orange crayon upgrade sticks.. and now, black was worth 3 upgrades, blue 2, and orange 1.. and we gave him an orange one and then he upgraded and left.. so it was just the 3 of us..
and heres where it gets fuzzy.. i cant remember what exactly happened much.. but we were in the bus talking and whatever and talking about upgrades... and so we eventually went back to the forest with the pond.. and we were sitting by the stream up against a tree and he just.. was holding me.. and again i felt the RUSH Of incredible happiness and seratonin.. and i felt so......... so.. peacefull.. and calm.. and that my future was going to be alright.. and i dont have to worry about anything at all...
and thats basicallly all i remember...
and it makes me sad when i have these dreams kinda.
cuz i wake up from INCREDIBLE UNGODLY HAPPINESS (that doesnt exist in real life) to... trying to figure out WHO it was.. giving me this insane happines.. and... the guy is anonymous now.. so.. I get depressed...... beacuse i realize.. he doesnt exist... that happiness was all in my head.. this was just a dream.. and it will never happen.. and i will never get to experience that kind of happiness and security in real life.. and its so incredibly depressing because that is one of my goals in life.. to FIND... some guy.. who will just.. be there for me.. and love me.... and
and id experience that intense rush of happiness like in my dreams..
unfortunately.. reality check cait. The world sucks.. people in this world suck.. i will never find anyone CLOSE to that..
it doesnt particularly help that i've decided to put my status of 'single' in stone... But it is.. *folds arms* Yeah im not gunna fall for some guy anyone.. whos just gunnna.. ditch me in the end.. or the middle or whateverr...
but if by some UNHOLY UNGODLY reason that my dreams become reality and that guy exists.. than i will.. just.. explode XD.. but i highly doubt technology is ever going to get to the point where they can 'enhance' dreams or whatever.. or make you life in a 'dream world' your whole life.
but *sigh*
it is so nice to dream.
edit: HOLD UP, HOLD UP. I think i know why i may have had this dream last night.. beacuse right before i went to bed i was watching sailor moon and one of the last episodes was "Usagi and Mamoru, the perfect couple".. perhaps i was manifesting usagi and mamoru's love in that episode into a dream that i could actually live in.. I remember last night upon watching that episode.. wishing that i had a guy like mamoru @_@
nother edit: ahh speaking so much of guys today..
my math teacher.. is awesome.. not a math.. (well at math) but.. ahh he is cute XP
ALSO theres this guy at walmart O.O.. who stocks the meat on weekends when we are there.. and omg he is soooo cuuuteee.. :D when we go there i watch him >_> stock the meat.. while dads looking at.. whatevers across from the meat.. :P
so then when we go to get meat.. he always asks us if we found everything okay.. :O~~ dad always says yes.. but then he smiles and OMG CUTENESS XD
but yeah..
>_> single 4evr >:3
