omg ;----;;;;;;;; not again.. not now..

[caitaro]

i was watching the last effing episode of sailormoon and whitey wanted in and i let her in....

and she was walking real slow so i figured she was stalking stuff..


sailor mooon got over (the ending SUXED >_>) and i turned light on...

whitey was still walking real slow.. i pet her and she was twitchin her tail a LOT>. i felt her ribs then down.. she hissed.. i got down and shes bleeding on her stomache inbetween her legs... she wants up on my bed but she cant jump so she tried her hardest and layed down on the floor ;--;;


omgi dont know whats wrong with her but i dont want her to die ;_;;;;;

ive had so many damn cats die on me in the past 2 goddamned months.. i really dont need whitey to diee either.. she.. she just started to be less shy.. she lays with me in bed each night... and doesnt leave till morning..

i frigging.. hate my damned cursed life...

its like i was meant to never ever be happy. Ever.


im sick of it.

sick of all of it..

getting attatched to something/someone only to be snatched right from under my nose.............

it happens with EVERYTHING!!

its not just coincidential anymore.. the surpreme being of whatever the hell likes to see me tortured. Im the prototype.. lets make her happy then fork things up.

sick of this shyt.

Its like Nikt is the GM of my life XD..

speaking of Nikt.. he wiped over 4300 accounts for abusing the 'respawn bug'

none of mine or corys got wiped...

2 of kevvys got wiped...

a lot of people are leaving.. like.. a LOT...

but yeah.. im uberly depressed and worried about whitey.. cuz i know shes gunna die.. sooner or later... ;-;...