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caitaroFirst off.. I only was awake for 2 hours yesterday...
...I slept till 4pm... ate supper.. played orphen a bit... fell asleep on the couch at 6pm.. got up at 8pm to go to my room... So i slept in there till 11pm.. got up.. had milk and oreos XD went back to bed.. got up at 3.. watched howl's moving castle..
...read howls moving castle fanfics.. then i was going to go to sleep some more... when um.. Jerrie called...
She was suprised i answered because i am NEVER up at 8:30!!!!
she needed help so..
i made a chicken sandwhcih and hopped in the shower... while i was in the shower... I was watching a spider that was at the other end of the shower... it had made a web in the bathtub... it was trying to escape from the water up the wall... but then for some reason it climbed back down to its web.. near the water.. I was like "???" Why did he go back???
and i realized that the only thing protecting that spider from death was my body in front of the water... so i turned the shower head down so that he wouldnt die... and i went on with my shower.. The spider eventually climbed out of the bathtub...
But it got me thinking.. and it brought up a repressed memory...
in case you dont know what that means, its a memory of something that happened a long time ago that was forgotten for some reason (usually traumatic)
WHen i was in about third grade, my mom likeed walking out into the forest ... just on walks..
So one day I took a walk by myself... while my mom was at work... during the summer time..
I found a frog on my walk..
I brought it home.. and i Killed it.
..I dont know why..
...and i had forgotten about this till now...
>_<
It mades me sad because... today I went out of my way to save that spider in my bathtub.. yet in 3rd grade i purposly killed a more complicated organism.. a FROG..
I feel so horrible
:|
...I slept till 4pm... ate supper.. played orphen a bit... fell asleep on the couch at 6pm.. got up at 8pm to go to my room... So i slept in there till 11pm.. got up.. had milk and oreos XD went back to bed.. got up at 3.. watched howl's moving castle..
...read howls moving castle fanfics.. then i was going to go to sleep some more... when um.. Jerrie called...
She was suprised i answered because i am NEVER up at 8:30!!!!
she needed help so..
i made a chicken sandwhcih and hopped in the shower... while i was in the shower... I was watching a spider that was at the other end of the shower... it had made a web in the bathtub... it was trying to escape from the water up the wall... but then for some reason it climbed back down to its web.. near the water.. I was like "???" Why did he go back???
and i realized that the only thing protecting that spider from death was my body in front of the water... so i turned the shower head down so that he wouldnt die... and i went on with my shower.. The spider eventually climbed out of the bathtub...
But it got me thinking.. and it brought up a repressed memory...
in case you dont know what that means, its a memory of something that happened a long time ago that was forgotten for some reason (usually traumatic)
WHen i was in about third grade, my mom likeed walking out into the forest ... just on walks..
So one day I took a walk by myself... while my mom was at work... during the summer time..
I found a frog on my walk..
I brought it home.. and i Killed it.
..I dont know why..
...and i had forgotten about this till now...
>_<
It mades me sad because... today I went out of my way to save that spider in my bathtub.. yet in 3rd grade i purposly killed a more complicated organism.. a FROG..
I feel so horrible
:|
