Trickster, Spirit Tales
Jan. 25th, 2013 10:13 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
caitaroHow i feek about trickster, cuz someone asked.
ive experienced a few emotions. sadness and anger. yesterday mostly sadness. today mostly anger. It's completely natural.
However it's for a good cause. I always in the back of my mind could not wait till the servers went down because i get to do more IRL stuff, instead of feeling obligated to babysit the guilds, and help out the community.
The re...ason behind the bipolarness of emotions is because i'm addicted to chatting. Like. legit. If im not talking to someone, I'm flipping out. I'm a very shy person, if you can believe it. Moreso IRL than online. I'm terrible at 1:1 conversation, unless theres a specific topic that is brought up by the opposite person.. so thats why i work better in a group (Ie, a guild, or forum)... SO i can sit back, read everyone else,and chime in when I have something to say.
I'll have to learn to get over that, after all.. people in the past didnt have the 'net at all, and were completley alone all day long.
It doesnt help that i have chest pains and random numbness and crap, that scares me, and it helps when i talk to people about it... (DRs have no idea what it is)..
I'm really just terrified of being alone, and trickster closing feels like im being forced to be alone.
I know a ton of people on skype and facebook, the skype group today alone has over 50 people, and on facebook, 100 on my profile, and over 430 on the group... But i dunno, Its addiction. I've played daily since oct 1st 2007. I've bought 4 new comps/laptops just for trickster... I've played for nearly 1/3 of my life.. and its the fear of not having it anymore that is the worst. I dont know how to NOT have trickster.... how to NOT be in a community. I've always led SOME sort of community since 2001.. at first, my hamtaro community, then an IRC room, and a gaming news website... then acebook, a social networking site.. and then trickster.... which has been the longest. Longer than the rest combined.
I'm really weird, lol
ive experienced a few emotions. sadness and anger. yesterday mostly sadness. today mostly anger. It's completely natural.
However it's for a good cause. I always in the back of my mind could not wait till the servers went down because i get to do more IRL stuff, instead of feeling obligated to babysit the guilds, and help out the community.
The re...ason behind the bipolarness of emotions is because i'm addicted to chatting. Like. legit. If im not talking to someone, I'm flipping out. I'm a very shy person, if you can believe it. Moreso IRL than online. I'm terrible at 1:1 conversation, unless theres a specific topic that is brought up by the opposite person.. so thats why i work better in a group (Ie, a guild, or forum)... SO i can sit back, read everyone else,and chime in when I have something to say.
I'll have to learn to get over that, after all.. people in the past didnt have the 'net at all, and were completley alone all day long.
It doesnt help that i have chest pains and random numbness and crap, that scares me, and it helps when i talk to people about it... (DRs have no idea what it is)..
I'm really just terrified of being alone, and trickster closing feels like im being forced to be alone.
I know a ton of people on skype and facebook, the skype group today alone has over 50 people, and on facebook, 100 on my profile, and over 430 on the group... But i dunno, Its addiction. I've played daily since oct 1st 2007. I've bought 4 new comps/laptops just for trickster... I've played for nearly 1/3 of my life.. and its the fear of not having it anymore that is the worst. I dont know how to NOT have trickster.... how to NOT be in a community. I've always led SOME sort of community since 2001.. at first, my hamtaro community, then an IRC room, and a gaming news website... then acebook, a social networking site.. and then trickster.... which has been the longest. Longer than the rest combined.
I'm really weird, lol
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Um spirit tales is up right now. I like this customization.
Um spirit tales is up right now. I like this customization.
