.... mom died....
Aug. 10th, 2005 12:10 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
caitaro*sigh*
you heard me right..
mom died today.. it still hasnt sunk in.. i keep thinking.. its all a dream.. it sthe same feeling i get when sp00nys here.. its so unreal..
today at about 11:00 i got up.. asked her if the mail was here yet or not... at 12:00 she went into her rooom and did her breathing treatment... while i started lunch.. i got lunch on the table, took 2 bites and she hollered for me.. i went in there and she was on the floor.. and shes like "I CANT BREATH CALL YOUR DAD" so i got the phonoe and cory called... and so he was on the way home.. and then she went on the floor and she woke up and said call your dad and and i said i already did and so she said call 911.. so i did.... and the police dude came here and did the AED thing BEFORE trying cpr!!! WTF!!!! and i should have did CPR right after i called 911... i SHOULD HAVE.. she might be okay now if i did omg im such an idiotttt omgggg... but.. anyways.. then dad came and the police dude told me to wait at the end of the road for the ambulence.. so i did but it came in the OTHER drive so i came back and dad said it didnt look good and the ambulence lady said "should we call the morgue before we go?" and i cried soooooo much when she said that.. i was like wailing.. lol.. um.. then so they took her away.. she looked awful blue and pale... and dad took us to grandpas and we hung out there for awhile... and.. then linda came and got us subway .. even though we didnt feel like eating.. mine had lettice on it ewww.. so i picked it off lol.. but anyways.. then george came.. and.. grandpa asked him how my mom was doing.. and he didnt answer... then i knew... she died.. i didnt say anything though.. then dad came and he told us and we all crieddd and cried and hugged and cried some more.. then we went home and we cried and hugged.. and i went online nad told sp00ny and got offline.. and then he called me awhile later.. and so we talked a bit.. and he called again later.. and then called again YET later.. we talked for a total of about an hour and 5 minutes.. and dad made phone calls inbetweeen there.. and lynne (dads freind) came over and she hugged and cried.. and dad bawled.. then cory had a bloody nose TWICE.. there were blood clotss ewwwwww... it looekd like jello XD.. but anyways..thats about all that happened.. i played PSo with sp00ny and it kept messing up.. i told alex.. he said "holy shit" lol.. i took my medicien at 12.. so yeah... a cat peed on my runescape map again.. dad talked about alll the things we wont have anymore... like we cant go to walmart.. we'll have to go to save a lot.. we wont have HBO or Showtime or WB.. we have to turn the lights off.. we have to turn compy off at night.. we might have to turn internet off :|... dad said.. "Illl try to keep it on.. because you need sp00ny..." and i do.. but jebus.. pie ;_;..
anyways.. thats about all.. for now..
and if your wondering why my entry sounds so 'happy'.. im not happy.. im sad beyond comprehension.. it hasnt set in yet.. i dont REALIZE that shes not there.. i thinki.. ill wake up and she'll be there.. i think.. hey shes just at work.. she'll come home.. but she wont.. and i cry when i think about it but i dont realize it......
anyways..
any thoughts are appreciated..
Cait over and out
you heard me right..
mom died today.. it still hasnt sunk in.. i keep thinking.. its all a dream.. it sthe same feeling i get when sp00nys here.. its so unreal..
today at about 11:00 i got up.. asked her if the mail was here yet or not... at 12:00 she went into her rooom and did her breathing treatment... while i started lunch.. i got lunch on the table, took 2 bites and she hollered for me.. i went in there and she was on the floor.. and shes like "I CANT BREATH CALL YOUR DAD" so i got the phonoe and cory called... and so he was on the way home.. and then she went on the floor and she woke up and said call your dad and and i said i already did and so she said call 911.. so i did.... and the police dude came here and did the AED thing BEFORE trying cpr!!! WTF!!!! and i should have did CPR right after i called 911... i SHOULD HAVE.. she might be okay now if i did omg im such an idiotttt omgggg... but.. anyways.. then dad came and the police dude told me to wait at the end of the road for the ambulence.. so i did but it came in the OTHER drive so i came back and dad said it didnt look good and the ambulence lady said "should we call the morgue before we go?" and i cried soooooo much when she said that.. i was like wailing.. lol.. um.. then so they took her away.. she looked awful blue and pale... and dad took us to grandpas and we hung out there for awhile... and.. then linda came and got us subway .. even though we didnt feel like eating.. mine had lettice on it ewww.. so i picked it off lol.. but anyways.. then george came.. and.. grandpa asked him how my mom was doing.. and he didnt answer... then i knew... she died.. i didnt say anything though.. then dad came and he told us and we all crieddd and cried and hugged and cried some more.. then we went home and we cried and hugged.. and i went online nad told sp00ny and got offline.. and then he called me awhile later.. and so we talked a bit.. and he called again later.. and then called again YET later.. we talked for a total of about an hour and 5 minutes.. and dad made phone calls inbetweeen there.. and lynne (dads freind) came over and she hugged and cried.. and dad bawled.. then cory had a bloody nose TWICE.. there were blood clotss ewwwwww... it looekd like jello XD.. but anyways..thats about all that happened.. i played PSo with sp00ny and it kept messing up.. i told alex.. he said "holy shit" lol.. i took my medicien at 12.. so yeah... a cat peed on my runescape map again.. dad talked about alll the things we wont have anymore... like we cant go to walmart.. we'll have to go to save a lot.. we wont have HBO or Showtime or WB.. we have to turn the lights off.. we have to turn compy off at night.. we might have to turn internet off :|... dad said.. "Illl try to keep it on.. because you need sp00ny..." and i do.. but jebus.. pie ;_;..
anyways.. thats about all.. for now..
and if your wondering why my entry sounds so 'happy'.. im not happy.. im sad beyond comprehension.. it hasnt set in yet.. i dont REALIZE that shes not there.. i thinki.. ill wake up and she'll be there.. i think.. hey shes just at work.. she'll come home.. but she wont.. and i cry when i think about it but i dont realize it......
anyways..
any thoughts are appreciated..
Cait over and out
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Date: Thursday, August 11th, 2005 02:41 pm (UTC)I'm so sorry for you... oh my God... ;;
I'd hug you so much if I were like there right now so you'll have to settle with a bunch of virtual ones... I dunno what to say...
*hugs*
its cait
Date: Friday, August 12th, 2005 03:23 am (UTC)