Okayyy today was interesting?
Aug. 13th, 2004 03:05 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
caitaro[10:59:05 PM] J00r MOM sez: i dont.
[10:59:06 PM] J00r MOM sez: they do
[10:59:11 PM] J00r MOM sez: i like this one book..
[10:59:12 PM] J00r MOM sez: called
[10:59:17 PM] J00r MOM sez: blood and chocolate
[10:59:20 PM] J00r MOM sez: cuz it has
[10:59:26 PM] J00r MOM sez: animals, paranormal, AND love
[10:59:27 PM] J00r MOM sez: XD
[10:59:32 PM] Sp00ny <3: UMMY
[10:59:43 PM] J00r MOM sez: they cuddle O_O
[10:59:44 PM] Sp00ny <3: *eats blood and chocolate, NOT THE BOOD*
[10:59:45 PM] J00r MOM sez: and stuff
[10:59:46 PM] Sp00ny <3: *BOOK
[10:59:48 PM] J00r MOM sez: but she dumps him..
[10:59:50 PM] J00r MOM sez: cuz..
[10:59:52 PM] J00r MOM sez: shes a wolf
[10:59:55 PM] J00r MOM sez: or something
[11:00:03 PM] Sp00ny <3: GASP
[11:00:07 PM] Sp00ny <3: PARANOIA
[11:00:10 PM] Sp00ny <3: *eats the word*
[11:00:12 PM] J00r MOM sez: huh
[11:00:13 PM] J00r MOM sez: XD'
[11:00:17 PM] Sp00ny <3: O_OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO*p0p*
[11:00:23 PM] J00r MOM sez: wha?
[11:00:24 PM] Sp00ny <3: o_
[11:00:29 PM] Sp00ny <3: -_
[11:00:31 PM] Sp00ny <3: @_
[11:00:33 PM] J00r MOM sez: im lost
[11:00:47 PM] Sp00ny <3: @_ <--- eye popped
[11:00:57 PM] J00r MOM sez: but why?
[11:01:13 PM] Sp00ny <3: shown that something is messed up in his mind--->@_ <--- eye popped because of paranoia
[11:01:31 PM] J00r MOM sez: WHATparanoia?
[11:01:43 PM] Sp00ny <3: *the paranoia he ate*
[11:01:51 PM] J00r MOM sez: -_-
[11:01:57 PM] J00r MOM sez: which was paranoia about what
[11:02:21 PM] Sp00ny <3: what?
[11:02:45 PM] J00r MOM sez: -______________x
[11:02:50 PM] J00r MOM sez: whats NOT to understand? XD
[11:03:08 PM] Sp00ny <3: I DONO
[11:03:10 PM] J00r MOM sez: what are you paranoid ABOUT?
[11:03:18 PM] Sp00ny <3: O_O EVERYTHING
[11:03:22 PM] J00r MOM sez: o_O
[11:03:22 PM] Sp00ny <3: *POP POP*
[11:03:24 PM] Sp00ny <3: brb
[11:03:24 PM] J00r MOM sez: O_o
[11:03:25 PM] J00r MOM sez: uh
[11:03:29 PM] J00r MOM sez: Right
[11:03:31 PM] J00r MOM sez: *Backs away*
[11:30:34 PM] J00r MOM sez: wtf did u go?
[11:59:32 PM] J00r MOM sez: ...
[12:00:20 AM] J00r MOM sez: okkkk well
[12:00:44 AM] J00r MOM sez: since it seemmmmms to be ignore cait day ONCE AGAIN
[12:00:50 AM] J00r MOM sez: im gunna go play hey you pikachu
[12:01:03 AM] J00r MOM sez: or something the least bit more entertaining then starting at an empty screen.
[12:01:08 AM] J00r MOM sez: Ill see you tomarrow.
[12:49:40 AM] Sp00ny <3: ok
[12:49:40 AM] *** Auto-response sent to Sp00ny <3: Lets see... I am leaving now due to the noncooperation in specific sections of the broncial tube in the left hemisphere of my brain.
AND the fact sp00ny AND alex ditched me. woooo..
[12:50:12 AM] Sp00ny <3: :\
[12:50:16 AM] Sp00ny <3: *hugs cait*
[12:57:08 AM] Sp00ny <3: im sorry
[12:57:27 AM] Sp00ny <3: I had lost track of time by watching tv...
[12:57:34 AM] Sp00ny <3: :\ my brother invited me to watch case closed
[12:57:43 AM] Sp00ny <3: thats all i thought i was gonna view
[12:58:11 AM] Sp00ny <3: but then i viewed a lot more than i was thinking about doing...
[01:13:24 AM] J00r MOM sez: ok
Ok so hes ramblign on about something taht I DUNNO WHAT ABOUT O_O and then hes like 'brb' like he says brb randomly during the day and is away for like. 32 seconds.. and i thought ok hes gunna be back in like 32 seconds..
cuz like when ppl go away for 32 seconds its not neccisary to say 'brb'. 'brb' is neccisary for like.. more then 2 mins. bbl is for like.. be back in a few hours.... like up to 3.... and bbl is like be back from 3-6 hourss..
and
"i gotta go *PLACE* and do *THING* ill be back in like *TIMEFRAME*" is neccisary for more then 6 hours
or
'g2g to bed ' is for when u are goin to bed.
but the point is this, ppl.. BRB = NOT a 3 hour thing.
ok soooooo from 12-1 i played pokemon stadium.. and i beat brock and misty..
and i got back on...
and sp00ny was on
(WTF HIS BEDTIME IS LIKE 3 HOURS AGO MAN) andd so im like "hi wasnt ur bedtime like 3 hours ago" and hes like "meh. skrew bedtime'
and he made me this poemey thing which i wiill now paste.
***i love you cait.txt***
I Love You
---
One bored day I sat on my computer
Looking at my buddylist on trillian.
I found an old friend
that i wanted to talk to again
and this old friend was named Cait
I talked to her
Asked what she was doing
and she responded that she was working on her site.
She told me about the fourms
and how they were up
and I knew I had to visit once again.
I signed on
with that messed up screename
but then that screename was fixxed!
Thanks to Cait
Who was being very friendly
Fixxed my careless error for me.
One day I logged on
and visited a topic long ago
and shinobu said she loved me...
Not knowing what to do
I decded to go through
and go out with this girl...
Eventually Cait jumped in
and loved me as well
and boy was Alex jealous...
He never knew why Cait wanted me
But then if he knew what he had done
then he would realize that he could of treated cait better...
But then... I shouldnt be talking...
But besides that
with in a day
Shinobu wasnt very pleased with how I was treating her...
She posted on the forms, that it seemed after a day
that this sp00ny guy wasnt spending enough time...
What was I suppost to do?
I didnt have her aim adress...
I didnt wanna go out on the fourms...
I wanted our dates to be private...
I thought I loved her, but yet, no emotion fell over me
But now one problem was off my back.
It seemed now all I had to worry about was Cait...
My mind rushed...
Could she be a stalker??
How? She has alex's full name and picture...
She could of easyly went to his house...
But this game I played,
the game of love
which this game was played online...
So not knowing who she actually was... I played...
It seemed slow at first...
Not knowing what to do...
But then... It came on me...
suddenly...
like how you wake up from a dream
that never happened...
I was struck...
By an emotion...
That I never knew existed...
My sences were disorted...
I didnt know what to do...
everything was out of controll...
... Then... Like an addiction...
I needed her...
I needed her to survive...
I wanted her near me allways...
I wanted to hug her...
To tell her how I felt...
...
But the words never came...
I cant tell her how I feel...
I love you cannot do...
Nor can I really love you...
But thats all I can say to you...
***end***
ok when i frsit started readin it.. i was smiling insanely w/ shiney eyes.. i thought it was gunna be .. ya know one of them magical moment..
but i came across this line.. 'Could she be a stalker??'
and i started LMAOING
i mean
i had to hold my mouth shut cuz i was gunna wake dad up XD
oh GOD was it funny.
ME. a STALKER. he always said "u might be a stalker" but i didnt think he was SERIOUS. but XD ROFL its STILL Funny but god.. woooo ok.. that was hillarious.. anyways.
after i calmed down a bit i read the rest.... tearey eyedddd again,...
and i got to this part
"I was struck...
By an emotion...
That I never knew existed...
My sences were disorted...
I didnt know what to do...
everything was out of controll...
... Then... Like an addiction...
I needed her...
I needed her to survive...
I wanted her near me allways...
I wanted to hug her..."
^_^ and.. it made me feel happy.. knowing.. i taught him love... adn that.. hes addicted to me ^_^ i love it when people love me because IRL im not loved at all and it makes me so happy!! ^_^
Sadly, most people online hate me..
I know though
alex, sp00ny, and max all supposidly 'love me' i dunno about max lol.. but eh,
and alex, sp00ny, and max are the only ppl i talk to ....
when i talk to alex its like this
Alex: WOO IM HORNEY SEX ME UP
Cait: no.
Alex: WWWWWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO IM HORNEY PLZ SEX ME Up
Cait: no >_>
Alex: PLZZZZZZ SEXXXXX ME UP NOWWWWWW
Cait: *secks*
ALEX: WOOOOOOOOOO THAT WAS GOOD... OMG I HAVE~ A BIG BONER WOOOO OMG UR SO HAWT``~~~
Cait: uhhh huh -_-
When i talk to sp00ny its like this:
Cait: hai
sp00ny: hai.
Cait: <3
sp00ny: <3 *huggle*
Cait: *huggle*
*LAS*
Sp00ny: <=) *huggleee* ^^
Cait: ^__^ *snuggle huggle luvvle nuzzle muzzle fuzzle*
Sp00ny:! ^_^
*LAS*
*random game playing*
*random loveying*
Which isnt bad... but.. eh.. it makes me feel special XD... i spoze it could be better but i dunno.
When i talk to max its like this:
Max: Pie
Cait: Nachos
Max: Pie
Cait: eiP
Max: MONKEYS
Cait: Pie
Max: BONER :O
Cait: ............kkkk
Max: secxie
Cait sez: fexie
and thats alll who i talk to
sometimes i talk to abu and its like this
Abu: *RANDOM PROBLEM*
Cait: =( *hugs* itll get better
Abu: ^^ THANKIES
Cait: Panties
Abu: WOOOOOOOO PANTIES
Cait: PAAAAAAAANTTTTIES
ABU: PAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNTTTTEEEEEEEZ
sometimes when i talk to jace its like this:
jace: *RANDOM 2 HOUR RAMBLINGS / STORY / COMICS*
Cait: k cool
Hmm lets do a rundown on all the ppl on my 'i dont hate list'
Alex - already explained
Sp00ny - already explained
SmarterChild - hes a bot
Mr. Aol offline man - dont talk to o_O
Max - already explained
Josh - Hes on RARELY
Sp00ny again - already explained
@ob - ehh hes on rarely and doesnt talk about ... normal things
Alex again - already explained
Alex again - already explained
Alex again - already explained
Danielle - She lives down the street o_O
Chris - Is on rarely and prolly is a religious freak -_-
Sp00ny agaaain - already explained
Jace - explainedd
Josh again -explained
Kitsu - I dont talk to girls
Kitsu again - "
Lord megabite - i dunno who this is even..
Maxxy (the ham) - hes not on and wont answer my emails. maybe ill take him off this list..
Josh yet again - explained
Tiffy - She ditched me after 9th grade...
Moki - not on
Oxy - not on
Oxy again - not on
Oxy AGAIN - not on
Tiffy again - ditched
Omni - RARELY on but he is SO PWN.
Xero - rarely on and kinda sk8erb0i crazy
and thats all the ppl in the world that i dont hate.
Probably theres some more ppl that i DONT hate that arent on this list that dont have aim / whatever.
anyways
*yawns* alex ditched meee.. and sp00ny went to bed.
*takes a swig of her Mt.D*
If hes not back at 2:30 then im gunna play poke me mom again...
uh
my ass just fell asleep
lol.
um..
i get paid tomarrow...
whooo...
uhmm,..
my arm hurtsss XD
UHHHHHHH... ch33s3..
>_O..
hmmm.
*yawns* i feel like rambling on about something right now
hmm
politics?
wtf is politics anyways? isnt it like the president? well i think the president sucks.i think bush and kery suck. I think /I/ should be president.
Beacuse i hate america. I hate how its run. I hate the spoiled ass people that live in it.
Hmm...
I dont like myself.. ok? i dont like.. who i am.. or how i look..
My genetics are messed up soo.. i overproduce somee... THING which makes me gain weight -_-.. so i dont care what ANY Of you think its NOT because i 'dont eat right' ok?
as far as eating.. i eat what we have for supper and thats it. and no its not like 4 pounds of potatoes either. its like 2-3 pieces of pizza.. some chikan nuggets and fries.. stuff like that ..
as far as exercise.. i run around outside for 4 hours chasing the ducks, catching them and climbing up into this treehouse thing and throwing them off and doing it all over again.
in addition to that i have to keep track of corndog and danielle while they;re chasingducks too to make sure they dun get hurt.
and likee.. random parts of my body randomly hurt alllll the time like my heart randomly hurts like to the point where in hunched over clutching it in pain.
that randomly happens with random parts of my body also.. alsoo soemtimes my stomache hurts so bad i cant stand up.. this really sucks when im at skool and its the end of the hour.. and the bell rings.. im like... in AGONIZING PAIN trying to walk to next class.. i mean.. its like "OMG IM GUNNA PASS OUT PAIN" not "oh man it stings" pain... so yeah...
and like >_> as far as being girly goes.... My mom has sucked so far about telling me how to be a girl. ok? she never told me about secks or /that time of the month/ at all.. she never told me about hormones or all teh stress and changes girls go through.. i mean GOD. she didnt even take me bra shopping till EIGHTH GRADE.. and im wasnt exactly flat either -_-....
lemme guess 1/2 of u are going "EWWWWWWWWW" at this point. well .. see that little X button up there? press it. Right now. Or press alt + F4.. or CTRL + ALT + DEL 3 times fast.. cuz it'll only get worse..
and as farr asss.. SHAVING ... goes -_-
mom has never told me about that either.. therefor i do not have.. a shaver.. but dont think i dont shave -_- because i do.. BUT i only do it when i either: am desperatly wanting to wear shorts outside my home or: going swimming.. and to do THAT i have to steal the disposable ones from mom.... and anyhow.. shaving is a pain in the ass.. it takes a long time and its horrible and time consuuming.. and to me, udderly pointless. OK? i dont CARE how i look. i could be a MONKEY and wouldnt care. i mean. guys dont shave! why do girls have to? Yeah and i didnt even start the shaving thing till late 8th grade.. SOOOoo in like early 8th grade.. when i DID wear shorts... people teased me like there was no tomarrow. -_-. If THEY ONLY KNEW HOW GAY MY MOM WAS. -______- ... anyways..
Makeup? No. i dont do it. at all.. i put the occasional sparkles in my hair because i am attracted to sparkles O_O btu other then that.. not lipgloss.. no mascara.. no blush no eyeliner no ANY of that junk.. as i said before i dont give a shit how i look..
eyebrows? they're natural. Girls who SHAPE their eyebrows to look like little tiny lines on their heads are ON CRACK. theres TOTALLY no point to doing that. AT ALL.
Clothes? i wear the baggiest clothes i can find. because tight clothes are not my thing. I hate kids at skool who wear XXXS clothes man. their stomaches all hangin out.. and thier shorts and skirts are so short that their ASSSES ARe hanging out.. and shirt necks so low their boobs are practicly OUT of their shirts.. it DISGUSTS Me. also the boys who wear the shirts that are like "WOO BIG JOHNSON" "WOO EAT BEAVERR" "WOO DRINK BEER CONSERVE WATER" "WOO GET LAID iSLAND STYLE" i HATE THEM. its SICKENING. makes me wanna BARF. and also guys who like. wear their pants down to their knees.. with no belts. holy shit man. someone was in gym once and their pants AND Boxxors fell down. THANK GOD his back was to me and all i saw was his ass. which . was nasty enough but anyways O_o.
Sex? I dont like it.... Well ive never HAD it. im a virgin. yes thats right. I bet im the only 15 year old virgin in the state. But anyways. I dont get 'turned on' sort to say. I dont get horney i dont get EXCITED.. no specific thing MAKES me wanna go fuck someone.. -__- in fact. P3n15 well looks nasty and scary and disterbing and stuff. and nnooo people i am no lezbo. -_-..
Porn? No. not normally.. on the RARE event i do get 'minorly excited' i go for the occasional animated gif -_-. which doesnt excite me. i dont knoe why i even look at em.. prolly cuz alex tells me to. PEER PRESSURE ANYONE?
talking? nah. i dont talk.. you can barely get me to talk on voice chat. but god when i get talking i TALK . ALOT. Esp on phone o-o (ask alex lmao) wooo that was one expensive phone bill. BUT ANYWAYS.. at school i cant stand the girls who talk CONSTANTLY. during WORK Time they whisper LOUDLY to their gay ass friends.. making gay noises and junk. -_- its like. HELLO. IM TRYING TO WORK. SHUT THE FUCK UP PLEASE. NOONE CARE ABOUT YOUR THONG! and another thing. Girls who have their thongs sticking out.... NOTICABLY out of their pants. i mean.. ya know rikku's costume from FFX-2? on her ass? them thong strings? thats where the girls their THEIR thong strings. -_- .. *yawns* woo this is the longest journal ever lol.. I LIKE RAMBLING >_>
as far as who i am.. i dont like being shy.. antisocial.. depressed all the time.. I cant talk to people at school.. i cant do anythign I LIKE TO DO at skool.. like for ex: i bring shonen and read it during reading class ok? people come up to me and they're like "OMG DAT IZ POKE E MAN ISNT IT :OOO :OOOO D00D POKE E MAN IS LAIKE FOR LIL 12 YEAR OLDS OMG :OOO"
The ironic thing.. is.. A.) this isnt pokemon o_O .. B.) when i did bring pokemon to school when i was 12, they said "OMG DAT IZ POKE E MAN ISNT IT :OOO D00D POKE E MAN IS LAIKE FOR LIL 6 YEAR OLDS! OMG :OOO"
So yeah.. also.. they like things like.. they have blues clues backpacks -_- and. pencils.. and sponge bob notebooks.. as far as im conserned Shonen > Sponge bob + Blues clues.
Sooo yeah.. *sighs* uhm........
tey also make fun of me cuz i have hamtaro + neopet stickers on my agenda... they also make fun of me because im the only person in the school who has their agenda at the end of the year.. Hell im the only one who has their agenda 1/2 way through the year.
but oh man.. one time i brang pokemon red to skool cuz i wanted to show taryn missing no. and did THEY EVER FREAK OUT. they stole my backpack, gameboy, pokemon red, blue, and they were wanting me to chase them. Insted i sat by the pillar and tryed not to cry....
they're so mean..
some of em think they're so cool cuz htey play magic.
dude.. magic was ok till i found out about mana burn..
plus
Yugioh > magic.
Yeah.
well anyways.. theres only one sane person at school. his name = Shane bearden. and yeah i asked him out. He likes video games. he likes anime. so i thought. why wouldnt he like to be loved? i was wrong.. during skool i was WAY too shy to ask him.. so i had taryn do it. and i dunno. so i asked him over the internet after sk00l got out and yeh knwo what he said
"i might get to like you within the next 2 years."
HELLO? 2 YEARS?! U REALLY THINK IM GUNNA WAIT THAT LONG!!> O_O
*sigh* o wel, his cute hair wont seduce ME anymore XD..
wellll hmmm...that about covers all the people at school...
and me.. hmmmmmm
Lets see..
lets go over what i like. in a guy.
What i like in a guy:
I like guys who are nice and sweet and romantic and dont get mad.. I like squishy people PREFERABLLY.... beacuse.. im a squishy person and squishy ppl cant sit on unsquishy ppl x_X but anyways.. i like long hair.. i like.. people who dont like themselves o_O i likee... people who are willing to sacrifice EVERYTHING they've ever liked.. for me. (lol tehres not many of them ppl around..) anddd.. i like people who do little things for me.. like the I <3 Cait thing that sp00ny did on notepad.. and the i love you cait.txt.. adn the bllog thing.... Alex never did any little stuff like that for me lol..
I like roleplaying.. loveyle.. like.. not hardcore makeout scenes neccisarily butt.. like.. at a beachh cuddling by a palm treee then swimming thennnn laying on the beach maybe making out but not hardcore. XD ya know stuff like that .. but eh.. yeah.. im not a good RP'er myself.. i usually like people doing stuff to me while i just watch and do occasional things... also.. i dont like to be dominent. at all. (not even in SECKS ROFL.. like id KNOW) but anyways... i like people cuddling me.. and me being the cuddle-ee.. not me doing the cuddling.. welll i like cuddling abck but not MAKING hte move get it? I like to cling to people. but i dont like people clinging to me. well i DO but just not in RP's or whatever... um.. I like guys who dont have asshole parents (HHAHAHAH like thatd HAPPEN) but i cant hve everything iwant can i? :P~ anyways.. I like it when guys tell me everything. and i mean. EVERYTHING. like.. when they feel intense love for me. when their pissed at me. WHY they;re pissed at me. when they're horney ( i like to tease them) when they are pr0n crazy..(woo teaing is fun)... when they are sad and depressed.. when they need a hug.. what they think about me.. how much they love me.. how much they care for me.. stuff like that..
lezze... ithink thats all i care to ramble on about now ^_~
well now you all know my life story and prolly hate me about 5392349x more now...
but eh,
i duno
stuff
lol i said id go at 2:30 and its 3:10 now.. alex still aint on.. he went to bed i spoze
so i shall goo and pokemonize my life ^_~
im gunna set my alarm for 8 again >_> I better get UP this time or im-a gunna be pissed..
Ummmmmmmm........... i dunnnnnnnnnnnooooooooooooooooooooooooo ok im gunna go now ^_^
BYE AND THANKS FOR READING THE LONGEST JOURNAL ENTRY EVER AND NOT GETTING DISTERBED AND CLICKING X 1/2 WAY THROUUUUUUUUUGHHHHHHHHHHHH
<3 cait.
[10:59:06 PM] J00r MOM sez: they do
[10:59:11 PM] J00r MOM sez: i like this one book..
[10:59:12 PM] J00r MOM sez: called
[10:59:17 PM] J00r MOM sez: blood and chocolate
[10:59:20 PM] J00r MOM sez: cuz it has
[10:59:26 PM] J00r MOM sez: animals, paranormal, AND love
[10:59:27 PM] J00r MOM sez: XD
[10:59:32 PM] Sp00ny <3: UMMY
[10:59:43 PM] J00r MOM sez: they cuddle O_O
[10:59:44 PM] Sp00ny <3: *eats blood and chocolate, NOT THE BOOD*
[10:59:45 PM] J00r MOM sez: and stuff
[10:59:46 PM] Sp00ny <3: *BOOK
[10:59:48 PM] J00r MOM sez: but she dumps him..
[10:59:50 PM] J00r MOM sez: cuz..
[10:59:52 PM] J00r MOM sez: shes a wolf
[10:59:55 PM] J00r MOM sez: or something
[11:00:03 PM] Sp00ny <3: GASP
[11:00:07 PM] Sp00ny <3: PARANOIA
[11:00:10 PM] Sp00ny <3: *eats the word*
[11:00:12 PM] J00r MOM sez: huh
[11:00:13 PM] J00r MOM sez: XD'
[11:00:17 PM] Sp00ny <3: O_OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO*p0p*
[11:00:23 PM] J00r MOM sez: wha?
[11:00:24 PM] Sp00ny <3: o_
[11:00:29 PM] Sp00ny <3: -_
[11:00:31 PM] Sp00ny <3: @_
[11:00:33 PM] J00r MOM sez: im lost
[11:00:47 PM] Sp00ny <3: @_ <--- eye popped
[11:00:57 PM] J00r MOM sez: but why?
[11:01:13 PM] Sp00ny <3: shown that something is messed up in his mind--->@_ <--- eye popped because of paranoia
[11:01:31 PM] J00r MOM sez: WHATparanoia?
[11:01:43 PM] Sp00ny <3: *the paranoia he ate*
[11:01:51 PM] J00r MOM sez: -_-
[11:01:57 PM] J00r MOM sez: which was paranoia about what
[11:02:21 PM] Sp00ny <3: what?
[11:02:45 PM] J00r MOM sez: -______________x
[11:02:50 PM] J00r MOM sez: whats NOT to understand? XD
[11:03:08 PM] Sp00ny <3: I DONO
[11:03:10 PM] J00r MOM sez: what are you paranoid ABOUT?
[11:03:18 PM] Sp00ny <3: O_O EVERYTHING
[11:03:22 PM] J00r MOM sez: o_O
[11:03:22 PM] Sp00ny <3: *POP POP*
[11:03:24 PM] Sp00ny <3: brb
[11:03:24 PM] J00r MOM sez: O_o
[11:03:25 PM] J00r MOM sez: uh
[11:03:29 PM] J00r MOM sez: Right
[11:03:31 PM] J00r MOM sez: *Backs away*
[11:30:34 PM] J00r MOM sez: wtf did u go?
[11:59:32 PM] J00r MOM sez: ...
[12:00:20 AM] J00r MOM sez: okkkk well
[12:00:44 AM] J00r MOM sez: since it seemmmmms to be ignore cait day ONCE AGAIN
[12:00:50 AM] J00r MOM sez: im gunna go play hey you pikachu
[12:01:03 AM] J00r MOM sez: or something the least bit more entertaining then starting at an empty screen.
[12:01:08 AM] J00r MOM sez: Ill see you tomarrow.
[12:49:40 AM] Sp00ny <3: ok
[12:49:40 AM] *** Auto-response sent to Sp00ny <3: Lets see... I am leaving now due to the noncooperation in specific sections of the broncial tube in the left hemisphere of my brain.
AND the fact sp00ny AND alex ditched me. woooo..
[12:50:12 AM] Sp00ny <3: :\
[12:50:16 AM] Sp00ny <3: *hugs cait*
[12:57:08 AM] Sp00ny <3: im sorry
[12:57:27 AM] Sp00ny <3: I had lost track of time by watching tv...
[12:57:34 AM] Sp00ny <3: :\ my brother invited me to watch case closed
[12:57:43 AM] Sp00ny <3: thats all i thought i was gonna view
[12:58:11 AM] Sp00ny <3: but then i viewed a lot more than i was thinking about doing...
[01:13:24 AM] J00r MOM sez: ok
Ok so hes ramblign on about something taht I DUNNO WHAT ABOUT O_O and then hes like 'brb' like he says brb randomly during the day and is away for like. 32 seconds.. and i thought ok hes gunna be back in like 32 seconds..
cuz like when ppl go away for 32 seconds its not neccisary to say 'brb'. 'brb' is neccisary for like.. more then 2 mins. bbl is for like.. be back in a few hours.... like up to 3.... and bbl is like be back from 3-6 hourss..
and
"i gotta go *PLACE* and do *THING* ill be back in like *TIMEFRAME*" is neccisary for more then 6 hours
or
'g2g to bed ' is for when u are goin to bed.
but the point is this, ppl.. BRB = NOT a 3 hour thing.
ok soooooo from 12-1 i played pokemon stadium.. and i beat brock and misty..
and i got back on...
and sp00ny was on
(WTF HIS BEDTIME IS LIKE 3 HOURS AGO MAN) andd so im like "hi wasnt ur bedtime like 3 hours ago" and hes like "meh. skrew bedtime'
and he made me this poemey thing which i wiill now paste.
***i love you cait.txt***
I Love You
---
One bored day I sat on my computer
Looking at my buddylist on trillian.
I found an old friend
that i wanted to talk to again
and this old friend was named Cait
I talked to her
Asked what she was doing
and she responded that she was working on her site.
She told me about the fourms
and how they were up
and I knew I had to visit once again.
I signed on
with that messed up screename
but then that screename was fixxed!
Thanks to Cait
Who was being very friendly
Fixxed my careless error for me.
One day I logged on
and visited a topic long ago
and shinobu said she loved me...
Not knowing what to do
I decded to go through
and go out with this girl...
Eventually Cait jumped in
and loved me as well
and boy was Alex jealous...
He never knew why Cait wanted me
But then if he knew what he had done
then he would realize that he could of treated cait better...
But then... I shouldnt be talking...
But besides that
with in a day
Shinobu wasnt very pleased with how I was treating her...
She posted on the forms, that it seemed after a day
that this sp00ny guy wasnt spending enough time...
What was I suppost to do?
I didnt have her aim adress...
I didnt wanna go out on the fourms...
I wanted our dates to be private...
I thought I loved her, but yet, no emotion fell over me
But now one problem was off my back.
It seemed now all I had to worry about was Cait...
My mind rushed...
Could she be a stalker??
How? She has alex's full name and picture...
She could of easyly went to his house...
But this game I played,
the game of love
which this game was played online...
So not knowing who she actually was... I played...
It seemed slow at first...
Not knowing what to do...
But then... It came on me...
suddenly...
like how you wake up from a dream
that never happened...
I was struck...
By an emotion...
That I never knew existed...
My sences were disorted...
I didnt know what to do...
everything was out of controll...
... Then... Like an addiction...
I needed her...
I needed her to survive...
I wanted her near me allways...
I wanted to hug her...
To tell her how I felt...
...
But the words never came...
I cant tell her how I feel...
I love you cannot do...
Nor can I really love you...
But thats all I can say to you...
***end***
ok when i frsit started readin it.. i was smiling insanely w/ shiney eyes.. i thought it was gunna be .. ya know one of them magical moment..
but i came across this line.. 'Could she be a stalker??'
and i started LMAOING
i mean
i had to hold my mouth shut cuz i was gunna wake dad up XD
oh GOD was it funny.
ME. a STALKER. he always said "u might be a stalker" but i didnt think he was SERIOUS. but XD ROFL its STILL Funny but god.. woooo ok.. that was hillarious.. anyways.
after i calmed down a bit i read the rest.... tearey eyedddd again,...
and i got to this part
"I was struck...
By an emotion...
That I never knew existed...
My sences were disorted...
I didnt know what to do...
everything was out of controll...
... Then... Like an addiction...
I needed her...
I needed her to survive...
I wanted her near me allways...
I wanted to hug her..."
^_^ and.. it made me feel happy.. knowing.. i taught him love... adn that.. hes addicted to me ^_^ i love it when people love me because IRL im not loved at all and it makes me so happy!! ^_^
Sadly, most people online hate me..
I know though
alex, sp00ny, and max all supposidly 'love me' i dunno about max lol.. but eh,
and alex, sp00ny, and max are the only ppl i talk to ....
when i talk to alex its like this
Alex: WOO IM HORNEY SEX ME UP
Cait: no.
Alex: WWWWWOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO IM HORNEY PLZ SEX ME Up
Cait: no >_>
Alex: PLZZZZZZ SEXXXXX ME UP NOWWWWWW
Cait: *secks*
ALEX: WOOOOOOOOOO THAT WAS GOOD... OMG I HAVE~ A BIG BONER WOOOO OMG UR SO HAWT``~~~
Cait: uhhh huh -_-
When i talk to sp00ny its like this:
Cait: hai
sp00ny: hai.
Cait: <3
sp00ny: <3 *huggle*
Cait: *huggle*
*LAS*
Sp00ny: <=) *huggleee* ^^
Cait: ^__^ *snuggle huggle luvvle nuzzle muzzle fuzzle*
Sp00ny:! ^_^
*LAS*
*random game playing*
*random loveying*
Which isnt bad... but.. eh.. it makes me feel special XD... i spoze it could be better but i dunno.
When i talk to max its like this:
Max: Pie
Cait: Nachos
Max: Pie
Cait: eiP
Max: MONKEYS
Cait: Pie
Max: BONER :O
Cait: ............kkkk
Max: secxie
Cait sez: fexie
and thats alll who i talk to
sometimes i talk to abu and its like this
Abu: *RANDOM PROBLEM*
Cait: =( *hugs* itll get better
Abu: ^^ THANKIES
Cait: Panties
Abu: WOOOOOOOO PANTIES
Cait: PAAAAAAAANTTTTIES
ABU: PAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNTTTTEEEEEEEZ
sometimes when i talk to jace its like this:
jace: *RANDOM 2 HOUR RAMBLINGS / STORY / COMICS*
Cait: k cool
Hmm lets do a rundown on all the ppl on my 'i dont hate list'
Alex - already explained
Sp00ny - already explained
SmarterChild - hes a bot
Mr. Aol offline man - dont talk to o_O
Max - already explained
Josh - Hes on RARELY
Sp00ny again - already explained
@ob - ehh hes on rarely and doesnt talk about ... normal things
Alex again - already explained
Alex again - already explained
Alex again - already explained
Danielle - She lives down the street o_O
Chris - Is on rarely and prolly is a religious freak -_-
Sp00ny agaaain - already explained
Jace - explainedd
Josh again -explained
Kitsu - I dont talk to girls
Kitsu again - "
Lord megabite - i dunno who this is even..
Maxxy (the ham) - hes not on and wont answer my emails. maybe ill take him off this list..
Josh yet again - explained
Tiffy - She ditched me after 9th grade...
Moki - not on
Oxy - not on
Oxy again - not on
Oxy AGAIN - not on
Tiffy again - ditched
Omni - RARELY on but he is SO PWN.
Xero - rarely on and kinda sk8erb0i crazy
and thats all the ppl in the world that i dont hate.
Probably theres some more ppl that i DONT hate that arent on this list that dont have aim / whatever.
anyways
*yawns* alex ditched meee.. and sp00ny went to bed.
*takes a swig of her Mt.D*
If hes not back at 2:30 then im gunna play poke me mom again...
uh
my ass just fell asleep
lol.
um..
i get paid tomarrow...
whooo...
uhmm,..
my arm hurtsss XD
UHHHHHHH... ch33s3..
>_O..
hmmm.
*yawns* i feel like rambling on about something right now
hmm
politics?
wtf is politics anyways? isnt it like the president? well i think the president sucks.i think bush and kery suck. I think /I/ should be president.
Beacuse i hate america. I hate how its run. I hate the spoiled ass people that live in it.
Hmm...
I dont like myself.. ok? i dont like.. who i am.. or how i look..
My genetics are messed up soo.. i overproduce somee... THING which makes me gain weight -_-.. so i dont care what ANY Of you think its NOT because i 'dont eat right' ok?
as far as eating.. i eat what we have for supper and thats it. and no its not like 4 pounds of potatoes either. its like 2-3 pieces of pizza.. some chikan nuggets and fries.. stuff like that ..
as far as exercise.. i run around outside for 4 hours chasing the ducks, catching them and climbing up into this treehouse thing and throwing them off and doing it all over again.
in addition to that i have to keep track of corndog and danielle while they;re chasingducks too to make sure they dun get hurt.
and likee.. random parts of my body randomly hurt alllll the time like my heart randomly hurts like to the point where in hunched over clutching it in pain.
that randomly happens with random parts of my body also.. alsoo soemtimes my stomache hurts so bad i cant stand up.. this really sucks when im at skool and its the end of the hour.. and the bell rings.. im like... in AGONIZING PAIN trying to walk to next class.. i mean.. its like "OMG IM GUNNA PASS OUT PAIN" not "oh man it stings" pain... so yeah...
and like >_> as far as being girly goes.... My mom has sucked so far about telling me how to be a girl. ok? she never told me about secks or /that time of the month/ at all.. she never told me about hormones or all teh stress and changes girls go through.. i mean GOD. she didnt even take me bra shopping till EIGHTH GRADE.. and im wasnt exactly flat either -_-....
lemme guess 1/2 of u are going "EWWWWWWWWW" at this point. well .. see that little X button up there? press it. Right now. Or press alt + F4.. or CTRL + ALT + DEL 3 times fast.. cuz it'll only get worse..
and as farr asss.. SHAVING ... goes -_-
mom has never told me about that either.. therefor i do not have.. a shaver.. but dont think i dont shave -_- because i do.. BUT i only do it when i either: am desperatly wanting to wear shorts outside my home or: going swimming.. and to do THAT i have to steal the disposable ones from mom.... and anyhow.. shaving is a pain in the ass.. it takes a long time and its horrible and time consuuming.. and to me, udderly pointless. OK? i dont CARE how i look. i could be a MONKEY and wouldnt care. i mean. guys dont shave! why do girls have to? Yeah and i didnt even start the shaving thing till late 8th grade.. SOOOoo in like early 8th grade.. when i DID wear shorts... people teased me like there was no tomarrow. -_-. If THEY ONLY KNEW HOW GAY MY MOM WAS. -______- ... anyways..
Makeup? No. i dont do it. at all.. i put the occasional sparkles in my hair because i am attracted to sparkles O_O btu other then that.. not lipgloss.. no mascara.. no blush no eyeliner no ANY of that junk.. as i said before i dont give a shit how i look..
eyebrows? they're natural. Girls who SHAPE their eyebrows to look like little tiny lines on their heads are ON CRACK. theres TOTALLY no point to doing that. AT ALL.
Clothes? i wear the baggiest clothes i can find. because tight clothes are not my thing. I hate kids at skool who wear XXXS clothes man. their stomaches all hangin out.. and thier shorts and skirts are so short that their ASSSES ARe hanging out.. and shirt necks so low their boobs are practicly OUT of their shirts.. it DISGUSTS Me. also the boys who wear the shirts that are like "WOO BIG JOHNSON" "WOO EAT BEAVERR" "WOO DRINK BEER CONSERVE WATER" "WOO GET LAID iSLAND STYLE" i HATE THEM. its SICKENING. makes me wanna BARF. and also guys who like. wear their pants down to their knees.. with no belts. holy shit man. someone was in gym once and their pants AND Boxxors fell down. THANK GOD his back was to me and all i saw was his ass. which . was nasty enough but anyways O_o.
Sex? I dont like it.... Well ive never HAD it. im a virgin. yes thats right. I bet im the only 15 year old virgin in the state. But anyways. I dont get 'turned on' sort to say. I dont get horney i dont get EXCITED.. no specific thing MAKES me wanna go fuck someone.. -__- in fact. P3n15 well looks nasty and scary and disterbing and stuff. and nnooo people i am no lezbo. -_-..
Porn? No. not normally.. on the RARE event i do get 'minorly excited' i go for the occasional animated gif -_-. which doesnt excite me. i dont knoe why i even look at em.. prolly cuz alex tells me to. PEER PRESSURE ANYONE?
talking? nah. i dont talk.. you can barely get me to talk on voice chat. but god when i get talking i TALK . ALOT. Esp on phone o-o (ask alex lmao) wooo that was one expensive phone bill. BUT ANYWAYS.. at school i cant stand the girls who talk CONSTANTLY. during WORK Time they whisper LOUDLY to their gay ass friends.. making gay noises and junk. -_- its like. HELLO. IM TRYING TO WORK. SHUT THE FUCK UP PLEASE. NOONE CARE ABOUT YOUR THONG! and another thing. Girls who have their thongs sticking out.... NOTICABLY out of their pants. i mean.. ya know rikku's costume from FFX-2? on her ass? them thong strings? thats where the girls their THEIR thong strings. -_- .. *yawns* woo this is the longest journal ever lol.. I LIKE RAMBLING >_>
as far as who i am.. i dont like being shy.. antisocial.. depressed all the time.. I cant talk to people at school.. i cant do anythign I LIKE TO DO at skool.. like for ex: i bring shonen and read it during reading class ok? people come up to me and they're like "OMG DAT IZ POKE E MAN ISNT IT :OOO :OOOO D00D POKE E MAN IS LAIKE FOR LIL 12 YEAR OLDS OMG :OOO"
The ironic thing.. is.. A.) this isnt pokemon o_O .. B.) when i did bring pokemon to school when i was 12, they said "OMG DAT IZ POKE E MAN ISNT IT :OOO D00D POKE E MAN IS LAIKE FOR LIL 6 YEAR OLDS! OMG :OOO"
So yeah.. also.. they like things like.. they have blues clues backpacks -_- and. pencils.. and sponge bob notebooks.. as far as im conserned Shonen > Sponge bob + Blues clues.
Sooo yeah.. *sighs* uhm........
tey also make fun of me cuz i have hamtaro + neopet stickers on my agenda... they also make fun of me because im the only person in the school who has their agenda at the end of the year.. Hell im the only one who has their agenda 1/2 way through the year.
but oh man.. one time i brang pokemon red to skool cuz i wanted to show taryn missing no. and did THEY EVER FREAK OUT. they stole my backpack, gameboy, pokemon red, blue, and they were wanting me to chase them. Insted i sat by the pillar and tryed not to cry....
they're so mean..
some of em think they're so cool cuz htey play magic.
dude.. magic was ok till i found out about mana burn..
plus
Yugioh > magic.
Yeah.
well anyways.. theres only one sane person at school. his name = Shane bearden. and yeah i asked him out. He likes video games. he likes anime. so i thought. why wouldnt he like to be loved? i was wrong.. during skool i was WAY too shy to ask him.. so i had taryn do it. and i dunno. so i asked him over the internet after sk00l got out and yeh knwo what he said
"i might get to like you within the next 2 years."
HELLO? 2 YEARS?! U REALLY THINK IM GUNNA WAIT THAT LONG!!> O_O
*sigh* o wel, his cute hair wont seduce ME anymore XD..
wellll hmmm...that about covers all the people at school...
and me.. hmmmmmm
Lets see..
lets go over what i like. in a guy.
What i like in a guy:
I like guys who are nice and sweet and romantic and dont get mad.. I like squishy people PREFERABLLY.... beacuse.. im a squishy person and squishy ppl cant sit on unsquishy ppl x_X but anyways.. i like long hair.. i like.. people who dont like themselves o_O i likee... people who are willing to sacrifice EVERYTHING they've ever liked.. for me. (lol tehres not many of them ppl around..) anddd.. i like people who do little things for me.. like the I <3 Cait thing that sp00ny did on notepad.. and the i love you cait.txt.. adn the bllog thing.... Alex never did any little stuff like that for me lol..
I like roleplaying.. loveyle.. like.. not hardcore makeout scenes neccisarily butt.. like.. at a beachh cuddling by a palm treee then swimming thennnn laying on the beach maybe making out but not hardcore. XD ya know stuff like that .. but eh.. yeah.. im not a good RP'er myself.. i usually like people doing stuff to me while i just watch and do occasional things... also.. i dont like to be dominent. at all. (not even in SECKS ROFL.. like id KNOW) but anyways... i like people cuddling me.. and me being the cuddle-ee.. not me doing the cuddling.. welll i like cuddling abck but not MAKING hte move get it? I like to cling to people. but i dont like people clinging to me. well i DO but just not in RP's or whatever... um.. I like guys who dont have asshole parents (HHAHAHAH like thatd HAPPEN) but i cant hve everything iwant can i? :P~ anyways.. I like it when guys tell me everything. and i mean. EVERYTHING. like.. when they feel intense love for me. when their pissed at me. WHY they;re pissed at me. when they're horney ( i like to tease them) when they are pr0n crazy..(woo teaing is fun)... when they are sad and depressed.. when they need a hug.. what they think about me.. how much they love me.. how much they care for me.. stuff like that..
lezze... ithink thats all i care to ramble on about now ^_~
well now you all know my life story and prolly hate me about 5392349x more now...
but eh,
i duno
stuff
lol i said id go at 2:30 and its 3:10 now.. alex still aint on.. he went to bed i spoze
so i shall goo and pokemonize my life ^_~
im gunna set my alarm for 8 again >_> I better get UP this time or im-a gunna be pissed..
Ummmmmmmm........... i dunnnnnnnnnnnooooooooooooooooooooooooo ok im gunna go now ^_^
BYE AND THANKS FOR READING THE LONGEST JOURNAL ENTRY EVER AND NOT GETTING DISTERBED AND CLICKING X 1/2 WAY THROUUUUUUUUUGHHHHHHHHHHHH
<3 cait.
