well

[caitaro]

sp00ny made me cry today.. IRL..

for the first time..

and not intentionally but

he kept talking about..

what if he wasnt there what would i do..

and he suspects taht im just using him as support for the future..

i duno if thats true or not.. ill have to talk to my therapist..

but um..

yeah it made me cry because i try not to think about what happens if i dont haev sp00ny

andhe kept talking about theres a possibility that he'd dump me..

and hes like "but then again theres a possibility for anything" so i duno

i know theres no possibility of me dumping him =|..

lol.. i looked at my journal thing..
and it says
"security level"
and i thought it said
"sexuality level"
lol
im a nerd..

oh and sp00ny says
hes so low charasmatic and low self asteem cuz hes afraid he'd be stuck upp

but its good to be stuck up somtimes about things that are true
ex. maturity level..

sooooo........

sew buttons on your pants and have an ice cream party

*goes to bed*