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[caitaro]

The Butterfly Effect...
amazing.. movie...

beautifully done...

so sad... so unexpected...

yes it had it's disterbing sex scenes...

but oh, god...

it has permanently impacted my life..
I can relate to evan.. on so many levels..
and i feel as if... i could do it too...

as if..

as if...

i can do it too..
as if... it's something i have done..

its.... its weird..

Because... I have blackouts like that too... i think... but.. i dont remember them.. or anything..


after the movie was done..

i started crying.. uncontrolablly.. and.. i questioned.. weird things... that.. i have never questioned before..
i... i dont know.. .i...

ohh man...

when i... went to go clean my face off.. i was.. just shaking so bad.. now.. im.. still shaking... this was.. about.... an hour... ago.. uhm..

alex seems..... different.. my life seems... different.. everything seems different...

i.. i dont know...

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