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The Butterfly Effect...
amazing.. movie...

beautifully done...

so sad... so unexpected...

yes it had it's disterbing sex scenes...

but oh, god...

it has permanently impacted my life..
I can relate to evan.. on so many levels..
and i feel as if... i could do it too...

as if..

as if...

i can do it too..
as if... it's something i have done..

its.... its weird..

Because... I have blackouts like that too... i think... but.. i dont remember them.. or anything..


after the movie was done..

i started crying.. uncontrolablly.. and.. i questioned.. weird things... that.. i have never questioned before..
i... i dont know.. .i...

ohh man...

when i... went to go clean my face off.. i was.. just shaking so bad.. now.. im.. still shaking... this was.. about.... an hour... ago.. uhm..

alex seems..... different.. my life seems... different.. everything seems different...

i.. i dont know...

...

..........

[08:48:04 PM] Sp00ny <3: man *huggles*
[08:48:30 PM] J00r MOM sez: ...
[08:48:41 PM] J00r MOM sez: o_o
[08:48:45 PM] Sp00ny <3: That show claled the butterfly effect is one strange show
[08:48:46 PM] Sp00ny <3: err movie
[08:48:58 PM] Sp00ny <3: XD
[08:49:00 PM] J00r MOM sez: Itt...
[08:49:08 PM] J00r MOM sez: impacted me greatly...
[08:50:00 PM] Sp00ny <3: for somereason
[08:50:07 PM] Sp00ny <3: the girl when she was like a teen
[08:50:11 PM] Sp00ny <3: reminded me of you
[08:50:19 PM] J00r MOM sez: When did you see it?..
[08:50:31 PM] Sp00ny <3: today
[08:50:34 PM] Sp00ny <3: and im not done
[08:50:40 PM] Sp00ny <3: and i dono when its gonna end
[08:50:45 PM] J00r MOM sez: ...
[08:50:50 PM] J00r MOM sez: why did you decide to watch it today?.
[08:51:06 PM] Sp00ny <3: my parents wanted to watch it
[08:51:11 PM] J00r MOM sez: ...
[08:51:14 PM] J00r MOM sez: what the fucking hell.
[08:51:15 PM] Sp00ny <3: something wrong?
[08:51:21 PM] J00r MOM sez: My mom decided to watch it today.
[08:51:25 PM] J00r MOM sez: at 5:30...
[08:51:33 PM] J00r MOM sez: and it got over at 7:30..
[08:51:41 PM] Sp00ny <3: ok just a sec...
[08:52:03 PM] J00r MOM sez: there is no fucking way man..
[08:52:21 PM] Sp00ny <3: we watched it at 6:15
[08:52:25 PM] Sp00ny <3: well started
[08:52:33 PM] Sp00ny <3: around 6:15 i mean
[08:52:40 PM] Sp00ny <3: I gotta brb for dinner
[08:53:21 PM] J00r MOM sez: ...
[08:53:30 PM] J00r MOM sez: Something is very.. very.. wrong here..
[08:54:29 PM] Sp00ny <3: What is wrong?
[08:54:30 PM] J00r MOM sez: This movie came out in january some time.. why.. today of all days.. tonight of all nights... BOTH our parents decide to watch it..
[08:54:46 PM] J00r MOM sez: theres no fucking way thats a coincidence..
[08:54:49 PM] Sp00ny <3: . . .
[08:55:06 PM] Sp00ny <3: ok im scared
[08:55:18 PM] Sp00ny <3: brb officially now
[08:55:20 PM] J00r MOM sez: the same thing happened a few months ago
[08:55:49 PM] J00r MOM sez: My mom had been looking for a new car for a few years now..
[08:55:54 PM] J00r MOM sez: and..
[08:56:02 PM] J00r MOM sez: alex had been wanting to get one too.
[08:56:15 PM] J00r MOM sez: My mom bought a car finally on that day..
[08:56:19 PM] J00r MOM sez: hours later...
[08:56:22 PM] J00r MOM sez: Alex had to go.
[08:56:26 PM] J00r MOM sez: he came back with a car too.
[08:56:31 PM] J00r MOM sez: hers was black.
[08:56:33 PM] J00r MOM sez: His was black.
[08:56:34 PM] J00r MOM sez: i thought
[08:56:38 PM] J00r MOM sez: Okay.. weird.. coincidence..
[08:56:45 PM] J00r MOM sez: but dude.
[08:56:46 PM] J00r MOM sez: 2 times
[08:56:52 PM] J00r MOM sez: no fucking way..



WHAT THE FUCK.

THERES NO WAY....

no FUCKIGN ass way..

somethings fucking with us.... with ME...

and..
..
thers no way...

whatever the FUCK it is i want it to STOP.