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caitaroit was so bad ;_; ok it started out good though..
Sp00ny was at meh house and we were all <3ing and so we went to my school again only i had gym or something... so that was forked i duno so we went home and we <3d some more... And i looked through his school bag i guess... and i found notes..... Him and some girl writing back and forth.... but they were... love notes... and stuff.. and sp00nys like "umm i can explain..." and im like "NO!!!!" so on one ofthe notes it had a livejournal link on it.. It was like cheeseburgersomething.livejournal.com.... So i went there and It was his journal.. Only.. he wrote in it EVERY day... and he THOUGHARLY explained all his problems.. and stuff.... so im like "NOOO!!!" and hes likeee... "weell.. Its not a REAL relationship we JUST SAY THAT cuz its FUNNY..." so im all depresseder than shizzle.... and so i thought about it and i said "well i guess its kinda like how i always say i love shane but i really dont.. not that way.." and he said "Yeah kinda like that.." so im depressed uberly.. so then eventually it was time for him to go home.. Um... But then it started hailing....... Just small hail.. Then eventually it staretd hailing alot... and it was huge.... like.. softball..... then perhaps even basketball sized... and sp00ny wanted to go home BAD... and im like "NO YOU CANT GO IN THIS!!" so we turned the tv on and we were under a flood/tornado watch.. Um.. so th hail melted and we were gunna leave but it hailed some more... Um.. then the skylight cracked and water was seeping onto the floor.. and im like "i dun wanna die ;_; not now... not yet.." and sp00ny held me and hes like "Yeah.." and i said "...you havent even got to see meh ninnea yet" and hes like "yeah :O" but .. GOD.. even in dreams i have a senes of humor... but not like.. in the most appropriate times x_XXXXX and..so then everyone but me and him was just gone.. Then so he called his dad to tell him he cant make the train home.. and then hes like "yeahhh yeah" So we got in OUR black car... and we like drove around the little circle.. and then these people in black suits and ablack car came up and i said "..do you know them?" and he said "Yeah" but im thinking "but those are H1Os from our school!!!!!!!!!!!!!" and they tried to take him away.. and im like "WHY!?! YOUR NOT HIS DAD!!! YOU DONT EVEN KNOW HIM!!!!!" and sp00ny even kept trying to get away........ and i tried to stop him.. but all my clothes and like everything had CRAP in them.. and then a space ship i guess came up and theyre like "SP00NY IS NOT A HUMAN. LOOK. SEE THIS REGULAR PEN? THAT IS HIM.. THE OTEHR PENS ARE US!! HES DIFFERENT!!" and i kept trying to explain to them how hes MY LOVER and i DONT CARE if hes human oR NOT.... So then i was magically at school.. and mr. loveless was going to show us a video thing... and im like "MR. LOVELES!1!!! WHY!!!? DOES EVERYTHING HAVE CRAP IN IT?!? EVEN THIS PAINTING DOES!!!"" and he said "well before every mans big game... everything they and their freinds own has crap in them.." so like ALL my clothes had crap in them.. so i like.. went home.. and took them all off o_O but somehow magically i still had some on o_O i duno but.. so my dad took me to "sp00nys big baseball game" and this little kid was like "why does my underwear have crap in it?" and i explained to him and hes like "oh.." At this point.. i was so... FLIPPIN OUT.. and i couldnt take it anymore.. and i forced myself to get up..
Loosing sp00ny..... (or even my clothes X_X).... Is too much for me to handle... Real or not.. I suppose this dream is biopsychological.. because we were talking about hail yesterday... Um.. Sp00ny is the thing i most desire.. so thats the freudian view.. Um.. but the rest.. Him going away.... and leaving me... and everything else is TOTALLY random...
but.. this was so bad.. Its very rarely i have a dream so UNDESCRIBABLY HORRIBLE that i FORCE myself to wake up from it.. :\ but.. yeah.. It's only a dream..... and i shouldnt flip out over it..... but.. The feelings it produces in me are SO REAL... and SOO OVERWHELMING that it hurts........
But that's only what it was.. a dream.. and not real... So i'm safe... For now :\
Sp00ny was at meh house and we were all <3ing and so we went to my school again only i had gym or something... so that was forked i duno so we went home and we <3d some more... And i looked through his school bag i guess... and i found notes..... Him and some girl writing back and forth.... but they were... love notes... and stuff.. and sp00nys like "umm i can explain..." and im like "NO!!!!" so on one ofthe notes it had a livejournal link on it.. It was like cheeseburgersomething.livejournal.com.... So i went there and It was his journal.. Only.. he wrote in it EVERY day... and he THOUGHARLY explained all his problems.. and stuff.... so im like "NOOO!!!" and hes likeee... "weell.. Its not a REAL relationship we JUST SAY THAT cuz its FUNNY..." so im all depresseder than shizzle.... and so i thought about it and i said "well i guess its kinda like how i always say i love shane but i really dont.. not that way.." and he said "Yeah kinda like that.." so im depressed uberly.. so then eventually it was time for him to go home.. Um... But then it started hailing....... Just small hail.. Then eventually it staretd hailing alot... and it was huge.... like.. softball..... then perhaps even basketball sized... and sp00ny wanted to go home BAD... and im like "NO YOU CANT GO IN THIS!!" so we turned the tv on and we were under a flood/tornado watch.. Um.. so th hail melted and we were gunna leave but it hailed some more... Um.. then the skylight cracked and water was seeping onto the floor.. and im like "i dun wanna die ;_; not now... not yet.." and sp00ny held me and hes like "Yeah.." and i said "...you havent even got to see meh ninnea yet" and hes like "yeah :O" but .. GOD.. even in dreams i have a senes of humor... but not like.. in the most appropriate times x_XXXXX and..so then everyone but me and him was just gone.. Then so he called his dad to tell him he cant make the train home.. and then hes like "yeahhh yeah" So we got in OUR black car... and we like drove around the little circle.. and then these people in black suits and ablack car came up and i said "..do you know them?" and he said "Yeah" but im thinking "but those are H1Os from our school!!!!!!!!!!!!!" and they tried to take him away.. and im like "WHY!?! YOUR NOT HIS DAD!!! YOU DONT EVEN KNOW HIM!!!!!" and sp00ny even kept trying to get away........ and i tried to stop him.. but all my clothes and like everything had CRAP in them.. and then a space ship i guess came up and theyre like "SP00NY IS NOT A HUMAN. LOOK. SEE THIS REGULAR PEN? THAT IS HIM.. THE OTEHR PENS ARE US!! HES DIFFERENT!!" and i kept trying to explain to them how hes MY LOVER and i DONT CARE if hes human oR NOT.... So then i was magically at school.. and mr. loveless was going to show us a video thing... and im like "MR. LOVELES!1!!! WHY!!!? DOES EVERYTHING HAVE CRAP IN IT?!? EVEN THIS PAINTING DOES!!!"" and he said "well before every mans big game... everything they and their freinds own has crap in them.." so like ALL my clothes had crap in them.. so i like.. went home.. and took them all off o_O but somehow magically i still had some on o_O i duno but.. so my dad took me to "sp00nys big baseball game" and this little kid was like "why does my underwear have crap in it?" and i explained to him and hes like "oh.." At this point.. i was so... FLIPPIN OUT.. and i couldnt take it anymore.. and i forced myself to get up..
Loosing sp00ny..... (or even my clothes X_X).... Is too much for me to handle... Real or not.. I suppose this dream is biopsychological.. because we were talking about hail yesterday... Um.. Sp00ny is the thing i most desire.. so thats the freudian view.. Um.. but the rest.. Him going away.... and leaving me... and everything else is TOTALLY random...
but.. this was so bad.. Its very rarely i have a dream so UNDESCRIBABLY HORRIBLE that i FORCE myself to wake up from it.. :\ but.. yeah.. It's only a dream..... and i shouldnt flip out over it..... but.. The feelings it produces in me are SO REAL... and SOO OVERWHELMING that it hurts........
But that's only what it was.. a dream.. and not real... So i'm safe... For now :\
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Date: Saturday, April 8th, 2006 08:51 pm (UTC)I don't wanna be mean, but the stuff about a "man's big game = everything is covered in crap" was kinda funny
But Sp00ny leaving you = not a good dream :/ *hugs more*
LOL
Date: Saturday, April 8th, 2006 09:07 pm (UTC)