Whats going on...
Jul. 15th, 2006 02:07 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
caitaro..well a lot of stupid crap has been going on lately...
and mariane wished that i write mr. loveless an email.. so i did.. and it tells whats going on.. not that he cares.. :\ but hes pressuring me into this and i cant do it right now...
But heres the email it explains things..
Hey..
Well the guy wouldnt let us have the van...
and.. i highly doubt my dad will let us go driving.. like ever.. cuz he's an idiot..
um.. i babysit t,w,th and work on site.. generally m + w.. but stuff is messed at the moment.. so i dont know..
i had an appt at mariannes yesterday... she wanted me to email you.. uh yesterday.. she said the AA art fair is really cool..
but i doubt my dad will let me go to that.. cuz he's still an idiot.. if you still want me to go.. you should prolly /call him/ personally.. If the internets connected, just keep tryin i guess... It's open a lot more than it usually is...
I havent applied to JCC..... I havent driven at all... *IF* we could get a drivers test scheduled before aug. 21st.. id have to pass it the first time.. HAH like that'd happen..
then id have to do a bunch of crap.. like make sure my car works. What if theres an emergency? Go take the placement tests.. Retake them if needed.. wait like forever to get results back.. go up there and scope out JCC again.. make an appt to pick classes.. find out what time schedule to do.. babysit a brat.. do the website.. and make sure my dad doesnt come home DRUNK again..
Sorry. actually. the email sounds rantish.. and it is i spoze..
but im stressed SO bad right now.. it doesnt really help that everyone and their mom is pissed at me for no reason.. but marianne was like "email him TO-DAY!' so. yeah..
I totally dont think this is going to work for august..
I know you're going to say something along the lines of "take responsibility.. do it yourselff... scedule crap and whatever and etc." but its not that simple.. really its not..
and i REALLY... REALLY.. do not what to burden with you tagging along after me.. im not your responsibility.....
I just think it would be in the best interests of my dad.. and my frustration level.. and mr. calander if i started in the spring...
I emailed my dads work + insurance company to see if there is any way at all i can get insurance after november 9th......
Marianne said i should move out on my own then.. that i can get like.. some... Medical/pell grant/free money program thing or whatever and just do it myself.. but its not that simple really either.. theres sooo many factors that come in to play that are unknown...
But yeah... My dad is -100% helping me with all this.. and hes being so hypocritical about it.. He wants me to grow up but yet he doesnt let me... and hes just crazy and worships my brother..
and i have absolutely no time to myself whatsoever.. If im not working, babysitting, keeping my dad out of trouble, or caring for travis.. then im cleaning up EVERYONE ELSES messes that they REFUSE to do.. or sorting out the drama of stupid humans.. and its just soooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo crazy and i duno what to do really..
marianne says "well we need some changes in your life and with your dad and stuff" and i said "yeah the only way thats happening is if someones LIVING with him to sort this out.."
all dad has to say to anything is just "if MARIANNE is so intent on you doing all this why dont you LIVE with HER!?"
and i question WHY hes not helping.. he says "..uh well i havent been through this before.. I DONT KNOW!!" yeah.. like i have.. really..
*sigh*
SO.. yea im really sorry its ranty and blargity but theres so much to do... and no way to do it... and everyone is pissed off at me so i cant TALK to anyone about anything... i almost dont want to send this.. i sound whiney.. but i guess itd make more sense of whats goin on here if you knew the whole story..
erm.... please dont be mad at me.... i guess.. blah ill shut up.. hah..
and mariane wished that i write mr. loveless an email.. so i did.. and it tells whats going on.. not that he cares.. :\ but hes pressuring me into this and i cant do it right now...
But heres the email it explains things..
Hey..
Well the guy wouldnt let us have the van...
and.. i highly doubt my dad will let us go driving.. like ever.. cuz he's an idiot..
um.. i babysit t,w,th and work on site.. generally m + w.. but stuff is messed at the moment.. so i dont know..
i had an appt at mariannes yesterday... she wanted me to email you.. uh yesterday.. she said the AA art fair is really cool..
but i doubt my dad will let me go to that.. cuz he's still an idiot.. if you still want me to go.. you should prolly /call him/ personally.. If the internets connected, just keep tryin i guess... It's open a lot more than it usually is...
I havent applied to JCC..... I havent driven at all... *IF* we could get a drivers test scheduled before aug. 21st.. id have to pass it the first time.. HAH like that'd happen..
then id have to do a bunch of crap.. like make sure my car works. What if theres an emergency? Go take the placement tests.. Retake them if needed.. wait like forever to get results back.. go up there and scope out JCC again.. make an appt to pick classes.. find out what time schedule to do.. babysit a brat.. do the website.. and make sure my dad doesnt come home DRUNK again..
Sorry. actually. the email sounds rantish.. and it is i spoze..
but im stressed SO bad right now.. it doesnt really help that everyone and their mom is pissed at me for no reason.. but marianne was like "email him TO-DAY!' so. yeah..
I totally dont think this is going to work for august..
I know you're going to say something along the lines of "take responsibility.. do it yourselff... scedule crap and whatever and etc." but its not that simple.. really its not..
and i REALLY... REALLY.. do not what to burden with you tagging along after me.. im not your responsibility.....
I just think it would be in the best interests of my dad.. and my frustration level.. and mr. calander if i started in the spring...
I emailed my dads work + insurance company to see if there is any way at all i can get insurance after november 9th......
Marianne said i should move out on my own then.. that i can get like.. some... Medical/pell grant/free money program thing or whatever and just do it myself.. but its not that simple really either.. theres sooo many factors that come in to play that are unknown...
But yeah... My dad is -100% helping me with all this.. and hes being so hypocritical about it.. He wants me to grow up but yet he doesnt let me... and hes just crazy and worships my brother..
and i have absolutely no time to myself whatsoever.. If im not working, babysitting, keeping my dad out of trouble, or caring for travis.. then im cleaning up EVERYONE ELSES messes that they REFUSE to do.. or sorting out the drama of stupid humans.. and its just soooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo crazy and i duno what to do really..
marianne says "well we need some changes in your life and with your dad and stuff" and i said "yeah the only way thats happening is if someones LIVING with him to sort this out.."
all dad has to say to anything is just "if MARIANNE is so intent on you doing all this why dont you LIVE with HER!?"
and i question WHY hes not helping.. he says "..uh well i havent been through this before.. I DONT KNOW!!" yeah.. like i have.. really..
*sigh*
SO.. yea im really sorry its ranty and blargity but theres so much to do... and no way to do it... and everyone is pissed off at me so i cant TALK to anyone about anything... i almost dont want to send this.. i sound whiney.. but i guess itd make more sense of whats goin on here if you knew the whole story..
erm.... please dont be mad at me.... i guess.. blah ill shut up.. hah..
