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[caitaro]

It seems very unreal to me at the moment.. that snoops gone..

I walk to the kitchen and i feel the urge to go close the laundry room door.. as the laundry room door was closed at night...

Generally when i walk up to someone or cant think of something to say.. i say "MYYYYRR" Which was Snoops trademark sound..

now i dont want to say it.. but it slips out..


dad saved her bell collar..

I was thinking of putting it on whiteface.. but she'd just loose it..

I dont know if i'll ever put it on another cat..


snoop was practicly the only living thing left from my childhood... besides my dad.. who never even knew i existed till 2 years ago..

At the moment, i am glad i have fish and my ghost shrimp... Being the only living thing in the house when dad + cory are gone is a very scary concept to me..

But it's also sad..

I no longer have any animals in the house i can hold and hug..

I do have rabbits.. but they are outside.. I have digger.. Digger's getting pretty old too.. He'll be 9 in december..


I guess i just keep thinking she's outside.. and she'll come back in sometime..



.i need to take my drawings of her down off the dart board..