I'd forgotten about it but..

[caitaro]

...but sitting/laying in my room in the dark with other people is amazing...

ugh.

its so amazing you have no idea..

no not the dirty kind of laying in the dark either..



It's like.. we sit/lay and.. tickle and play with hair and talk about random things.. and static... and just random...


and i layed in shanes lap and..
ugh its so awkward..


Like.. everything tells me to resist.. I dont wanna feel as if i WANT to do it, but.... i dont want to.. HURT him.. cuz i know im large and in charge, lol

or make him uncomfortable..

but once i got comfortable, i was like Ahhhhhhhhhh...


heh, more than likely.. well. im pretty sure he was just.. pretending i was seth~

but either way, I think it benefits both of us..

Perhaps i would feel less awkward in a situation like that..

and he gets practice..... XD or just pretend i am him.

Even if it means nothing between me and him..

I mean.. I do love him, and he loves me.. just not in an intimate type of way XD

I know this is a stretch from.. in the past few awhile when.. im like shanes blarg blarg blarg mean blarg. XD
but sometimes hes SO EFFIGN AMAZING THAT I COULD JUST KISS HIM. XD!!!

(I did in meh dream)

but not really..

but hes amazing~ <3

sometimes.
XD

also travis was over.. but he left after like 3.14 seconds XD