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caitaroBecuase i didnt do it yesterday, I do it today.
but im guna make it short because i dont care anymore.
to put it short...
I DONT.. care anymore
about anything
becuase i suck..
and all dads like is "GET A SELF HELP BOOK"
nothing any asshole says could ever make me feel different ;-;.
I play trickster to escape the real world, cuz i hate it.
But lately even trickster seems to...... I duno, make me sad.
Ive contemplating quitting..
...but i do have a few people on there that ARE really nice to me...
...but i duno why it matters.. or why anything matters >.>
I duno why i play, what motivates me.. I'm level 80, but i dont know what, if anything, I am going for..
maybe cuz there's nothing else... to do..
Maybe it's because i secretly subliminally crave any sort of human contact at all..
I went outside today for the first time in weeks... to feed the bunnies.
Meh........................
...and me and dad are fighting again.. over *GASP* job s
and its like
he keeps saying "GET OFF UR ASS AND GO FIND ONE!!!!"
WHAT am I SUPPOSED TO DO? go door to door and ASK FOR ONE??!?!! NO!!!
He wont accept there ARE no jobs here.
Im never going to get a job..
That i suck at life
and i never will amopunt to anyhting
Hes like "ITS PART OF LIFE, GET USE TO IT"
I just say
"there is ONE easy way out of it"
hes like "O SO YOU JUST WANNA FOLLOW YOUR MOM NOW, HUH?"
-__-
It would be easy though...
I Wouldnt have to deal with anything.. or anyone.... ever again.. that's how i'd like it ;_;
...now i dont want anyone gettin upset or emo over this.
Even though I would like to cease to exist, I would never ever do it, not in a million years.
..but that is what i want. >.>
..seein as it goes against my philosophy of instant gratification....
I dont care much for the future.... at all.. So i do things that benefit me NOW...
If i were, for example, to get a knife and start i duno, cutting my hands and/or feet off.. It would kinda hurt...
So i wouldnt do it.. as i dont LIKE hurt.
>.>
but im guna make it short because i dont care anymore.
to put it short...
I DONT.. care anymore
about anything
becuase i suck..
and all dads like is "GET A SELF HELP BOOK"
nothing any asshole says could ever make me feel different ;-;.
I play trickster to escape the real world, cuz i hate it.
But lately even trickster seems to...... I duno, make me sad.
Ive contemplating quitting..
...but i do have a few people on there that ARE really nice to me...
...but i duno why it matters.. or why anything matters >.>
I duno why i play, what motivates me.. I'm level 80, but i dont know what, if anything, I am going for..
maybe cuz there's nothing else... to do..
Maybe it's because i secretly subliminally crave any sort of human contact at all..
I went outside today for the first time in weeks... to feed the bunnies.
Meh........................
...and me and dad are fighting again.. over *GASP* job s
and its like
he keeps saying "GET OFF UR ASS AND GO FIND ONE!!!!"
WHAT am I SUPPOSED TO DO? go door to door and ASK FOR ONE??!?!! NO!!!
He wont accept there ARE no jobs here.
Im never going to get a job..
That i suck at life
and i never will amopunt to anyhting
Hes like "ITS PART OF LIFE, GET USE TO IT"
I just say
"there is ONE easy way out of it"
hes like "O SO YOU JUST WANNA FOLLOW YOUR MOM NOW, HUH?"
-__-
It would be easy though...
I Wouldnt have to deal with anything.. or anyone.... ever again.. that's how i'd like it ;_;
...now i dont want anyone gettin upset or emo over this.
Even though I would like to cease to exist, I would never ever do it, not in a million years.
..but that is what i want. >.>
..seein as it goes against my philosophy of instant gratification....
I dont care much for the future.... at all.. So i do things that benefit me NOW...
If i were, for example, to get a knife and start i duno, cutting my hands and/or feet off.. It would kinda hurt...
So i wouldnt do it.. as i dont LIKE hurt.
>.>
