noooo sleeeeppppiesss

[caitaro]

blarg, keep thinking about that email and stuff and i SUCKKKK ARSEE

and 2 more ghost shrimp are pregnant. 1 had the babies and is carrying them around the ohter one is still in her belly.. which is secretly behind her brain o_O. weirdness


annnnnnnnyway. . . .

so i watched a few episode of "the lucy show" for some reason.. and came out here to tell my LJ that i am sad and emo and noone knows whyy..

and im also talking to Saito Forte.. and im not sure who he is, but he's nice so i'll talk to him.


OH yeah, the other thing.. I was looking in my drawing book.. and came across a picture of a hamster saying "Kevvy~~ welcome to the group"

and im like.. "Who the holy hell is Kevvy?"

i rememberd he was someone I liked.. I remembered.. he was important to me.. but i dont remember WHEN i knew him.. or who he was..

I had to look at my LJ tag in order to figure out.. he was the hawaiian from ragnarok.

I also.. cant remember what year I dyed my hair.. the first time it was 10th grade, cuz i told taryn about it..

And i dont remember the second time though....

I THOUGHT it was spring of '06... because i THOUGHt it was almost exactly 2 years since i had the other one done..

but then i thought.. Hmm.. didnt i had it done for senior pictures??? so it'd have to be summer of '05..

and im like.. "Umm but my mom died in summer of '05.. so we wouldnt have spent the money on that..."

i remember my mom wasnt there, so it was sometime AFTER august 05.

Not being able to remember that stuff really REALLY depresses me BAD..

because i can remember other things so well.. other INSIGNIFICANT things..

For ex: tonight i was thinking about tiffy and that email..

and i remembered..

she told me she liked "Drew" in early 9th grade.... and i figured she told other people.. So i told other people.. and she was mad at me.

I remember.. in 9th grade she thought she was going to loose me as a friend because of something stupid like someone told her i didnt like her anymore or something! wtf!?

I remember that cold winter morning when she told me she was going to switch schools because she couldnt take the assholes of jonesville.. and i bawled.. and she walked me up to my class that day.. and danielle was pissed because she didnt know what was going on..

That started the "youre a bitch!" war between them.. wth?

I remember she told me she would come back for our senior year... She never did.

I remember how danielle said she wanted me to move in with her in 12th grade, and i told her i would.

I remember how in 12 grade she said shes like "Ohhhhh im guna find some amazing guy and im gunna marry him, then later divorce him, and have an amazing life~"

I asked her why she thought about divorce before she even found the guy. She said "because EEEEEEEEEEEEveryone gets divorced nowadays, lolololol"

I remember how in 8th grade, I met chris.. he was pretty cool.. and we went out.. then i was dumped.. soon after, we were still friends, yaknow, and I met this amazing guy named Steve Pelcovits.. he was 14... who lived in providence, rhode island.. we talked with chris and mike and omni on webchat IRC... and i lurved him ;3 he was a jew... He loved brownies.. my nickname for my bot was "minibot" cuz my nickname was "sailorminimoon" he used to say "ahhhh minibot and a brownie, then life would be perfect"

On my 13th birthday, he got on irc saying his bus got shot by some anti-jew guy.... and he never signed on again :(.

I spent years tracking him down.. YEARS! I knew he wasnt dead because i found a website where he was nominated for a really good essay of some sort at his school.

Last year, i finally found him... on livejournal.

But what is this??

It says he's only 16!??! how can this be? 6 years ago he was 14.. But its steve pelcovits.. providince, RI... it was my steve..

Must be he lied about his age. I.was.not.happy. :/. but i secretly was because i found Steeeeve!!! :3

So i got the guts up to message him on AIM... I said "Heeyyyy its been... about 6 years.. remember meee? Heres a clue "Minibot and a brownie!!"

and he replies with "umm i dont remember sorry."

i proceed with "your nick.. Crystal_ToedWrath.. Chris, mike, omni and me (sailorminimoon) on webchat.. in #sailorminimoon.. rememberr??"

I didnt want to bring up the fact that he said me and a brownie was all he needed if he doesnt even remember me.

He said "the name sounds familiar"...

..he doesnt remember me.. at all.

*as i fall down*

I tell him "oh, sorry for bothering you then"

never to message him or be messeged again.


HOWWWWWWWWWWWWWW do i rememebr these things SO CLEARLY.. like they were last week.. with such detail.. specific conversations word for word..

yet i cant remember the general time I effing died my hair!?!?!?! >_<<<

HOOOOWWWWW... Can these people.. who i used to be SOO CLOSE TO.. mysteriously not even remember who i am.. when i can remember CONVERSATIONS!!! ;_;

its depressing. and dont say it's not cuz it is. XD

not that, y'know.. anyone besides. *looks at the top posters on the people who post, post* them would say anything anyway :O :P