~_~

[caitaro]

I wish i could hate everyone equally.. and not feel so affectionate twords certain people..


...Because it distracts me really bad....


... and it makes me wanna just be with them all the time..

but i dont wanna annoy them..

and they say it doesnt annoy them..

but they never specifically ask -ME- to hang out..


so i dunno if either

a.) they dont wann hang out with me, because im annoying or they dont wanna hurt my feelings OR humor me...

or

b.) they are too shy to ask themselves?

or

c.) they dont even think about it..


im leaning twords a or c..



but yes

I wish it was like pre-april.

when i still hated love... ~_~

wayy wayy too distracting...


and it sucks, because i dont even know what it is.. maybe it isnt love.. but thats just the word im assigning to it.

I wanna just make them happy, and talk to them, and learn more about them.. I help them out.. a LOT.. they ask me for questies things, i give it to them.. for free. I've prolly given out 10-20mil worth of free crap to them..

PLUS the lv7 tenter spear!! so thats like flippin..

180mil!!!!!!



so i could have 260mil now, if i didnt care about them >_>