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[caitaro]

So i get up at 6:30 to wish salam a good day at school, usually.. and for the past.. week or so, he hasnt been on.. Due to his school trip, and then being sick...


so im stupid and get up anyway, hopeing he will get on..


Then other people demand me do things..


..and im hella tired..



So i pm'd salam earlier today..


had some massive guts

asked him to hang out at maint today

i wanted to talk to him.. just me and him.


No paranoia, no anxiety.. just.. regular stuff.



He said sure.

so....

maint came.. and.. he got on.. and.. he wouldnt respond.

then Jared got on.. he says hi to jared...


and they play trivia..

and i play for 1 round, cuz im a bit disapointed.


so then i sit here for a whole hour....


..and he decides to talk a bit for about 7 minutes.. about his dream last night


Then says bye.


...and im really sad, because i had this hawt date planned, and i pretty much get blowed off..



and i duno if hes too sick to talk, or if hes too busy.. or if hes sick of ME!~

but i feel uber sad..

becausei -keep- getting rejected..

and he SAYS he doesnt mind me hanging out..

but meh <=/

if i didnt have a job, i would totally be all emo for a few days and not go around him...

but since i do, i want to be around him more than ever.. he makes me happy whereas my job does not!



*facepalm*

i suck at life so bad x3