:X Happiness = ?
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caitaroI can't live without people.
So im laying in bed... waiting... I gotta go to work in 4hrs.. not tired.. well i am, but sleep won't come...
and im thinking..
about work.
about how happy the customers make me
about how happy carol makes me.
Today i was just gleaming.> i dont know why, carol wasnt even there.
I just.. keep watching the fabrics counter, hopeing to help someone..
when i cut fabric for someone, or answer a question...
adn theyre just so gratefull.. and it makes me so happy.. and i smile, and sometimes talk with the customer..
as antisocial as I am..
People are what make me truely happy.
IRONY!!!!!!!!!1
Really, as long as they dont make me people greet or cashier.. right now, my life.. i am happy =3/
even though I dont have any specific person to myself, i can make many people happy.. which makes me happy.
Hell i dont even need the pay.. even if i wasnt being paid, i'd still go.
Because I like it.. I like to orgnaize, i like the exposure to people.
God i like the people.
Too much.
everything i do is for other people, i dont ever do anything for myself :X
and thats bad.. ive heard a lot..
Why was i so emo in high school???
"do something for yourself that makes you happy"
What makes me happy? Making others happy. and when im too shy to talk to others........... then its impossible for me to be happy.. which is why i was so emo D:!
heh, its funny.. I figure id be happiest alone.. quite the opposite.. quite turn of events..
I think this is part of growing up. =X
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In other news..
Apparently, I'm all the rage at work.. The associates i work with call me "the mouse" becuase im quick to work and quiet... too quiet.
The managers + coaches + stuff.. adore me. One said "I wish I could clone her! ><" (their words not mine!)
I dont even know why.
IMO i do a crappy job..
a lot of the time because, heh, well. I dont know what to do. Like i dont know anything about shelfing and whatnot.. what im allowed to change, what im not.. or anything.. So i just leave it crappy cuz i duno!
if im scheduled to work for 5 hrs.. i'll work 2- 3 hours on my dept.. then wander off into other departments cuz my dept is boring cuz i finish..
One day, i think i was with carol 3 of those hours! helping her <3....
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I told them i refuse to people greet. That i have a hard enough time talking with people regularly, much less trying to accuse them of stealing something.
The personelle person ssaid that thats fine because they dont want anyone to feel bad working..
and she sent out an email to the coaches informing them of this..
I also told her id rather not cashier :P
She said that there was this one girl who was cashier, and it was too much pressure for her... So one day she just didnt show up.. and continued to not show up.. then sometime later, her dad called into walmart yelling at them for putting too much pressure on her, lol.. But they couldnt do anything cuz the girl never informed anyone of this pressure..
But yes.. as long as i am in domestics / maybe fabrics / maybe hardware.. and I have the freedom to go about as i wish.. I'm good.
and while i was laying in bed thinking of all this.. i got teary eyed.. cuz for once Im not happy cuz i feel like i belong to someone else... But because i feel usefull, i feel wanted, i feel like i somewhat.. Belong.
and really, I think that this is the first time that ive felt this.. variety of happiness. It's different. I like it.
Because of this, well.. I do it just for that. even if i wasnt being paid.. cuz its worth it........
='3
*tries to go back to sleep* XD
So im laying in bed... waiting... I gotta go to work in 4hrs.. not tired.. well i am, but sleep won't come...
and im thinking..
about work.
about how happy the customers make me
about how happy carol makes me.
Today i was just gleaming.> i dont know why, carol wasnt even there.
I just.. keep watching the fabrics counter, hopeing to help someone..
when i cut fabric for someone, or answer a question...
adn theyre just so gratefull.. and it makes me so happy.. and i smile, and sometimes talk with the customer..
as antisocial as I am..
People are what make me truely happy.
IRONY!!!!!!!!!1
Really, as long as they dont make me people greet or cashier.. right now, my life.. i am happy =3/
even though I dont have any specific person to myself, i can make many people happy.. which makes me happy.
Hell i dont even need the pay.. even if i wasnt being paid, i'd still go.
Because I like it.. I like to orgnaize, i like the exposure to people.
God i like the people.
Too much.
everything i do is for other people, i dont ever do anything for myself :X
and thats bad.. ive heard a lot..
Why was i so emo in high school???
"do something for yourself that makes you happy"
What makes me happy? Making others happy. and when im too shy to talk to others........... then its impossible for me to be happy.. which is why i was so emo D:!
heh, its funny.. I figure id be happiest alone.. quite the opposite.. quite turn of events..
I think this is part of growing up. =X
-----------
In other news..
Apparently, I'm all the rage at work.. The associates i work with call me "the mouse" becuase im quick to work and quiet... too quiet.
The managers + coaches + stuff.. adore me. One said "I wish I could clone her! ><" (their words not mine!)
I dont even know why.
IMO i do a crappy job..
a lot of the time because, heh, well. I dont know what to do. Like i dont know anything about shelfing and whatnot.. what im allowed to change, what im not.. or anything.. So i just leave it crappy cuz i duno!
if im scheduled to work for 5 hrs.. i'll work 2- 3 hours on my dept.. then wander off into other departments cuz my dept is boring cuz i finish..
One day, i think i was with carol 3 of those hours! helping her <3....
----------------------
I told them i refuse to people greet. That i have a hard enough time talking with people regularly, much less trying to accuse them of stealing something.
The personelle person ssaid that thats fine because they dont want anyone to feel bad working..
and she sent out an email to the coaches informing them of this..
I also told her id rather not cashier :P
She said that there was this one girl who was cashier, and it was too much pressure for her... So one day she just didnt show up.. and continued to not show up.. then sometime later, her dad called into walmart yelling at them for putting too much pressure on her, lol.. But they couldnt do anything cuz the girl never informed anyone of this pressure..
But yes.. as long as i am in domestics / maybe fabrics / maybe hardware.. and I have the freedom to go about as i wish.. I'm good.
and while i was laying in bed thinking of all this.. i got teary eyed.. cuz for once Im not happy cuz i feel like i belong to someone else... But because i feel usefull, i feel wanted, i feel like i somewhat.. Belong.
and really, I think that this is the first time that ive felt this.. variety of happiness. It's different. I like it.
Because of this, well.. I do it just for that. even if i wasnt being paid.. cuz its worth it........
='3
*tries to go back to sleep* XD
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Date: Saturday, August 8th, 2009 06:14 am (UTC)Have a good day at work
See you at the fair :P
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Date: Saturday, August 8th, 2009 09:45 am (UTC)Re: ^_^
Date: Saturday, August 8th, 2009 09:48 am (UTC)Im too cool to log in ;)
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Wow im surprised i guess you do have a very warm touching place in your heart im proud of you
ME:
caitaro
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