He said yes.

[caitaro]

The Speech


ALRIGHT SHUT UP EVERYONE IMPORTANT SPEECH TIME FROM CAIT. Then possibly from salam. o//o
In the past I've told you about how i feel somewhat, but not as directly as this.
And you've told me how you felt too, as if we were family.... And really I dont know
why I want this title so bad, or why it even matters at all.. No bloody idea......
I was afraid to go out and say it like this, but meow + others brought up a good point.
"If mix mix rejects you theres millions of other guys, besides why waste time hiding
your feelings, or doubting yourself or him?... JUST ASK HIM!" I thought "good point."
"Its better to get this over sooner than later, youre doing the right thing, because
if this isnt meant to be, you can move on, and not always just gunna keep you wondering"

and im embarrased too ^_^ you know i am. You always know.. Just what im thinking.. Or
what the best advice is.. Even when you dont go and say it directly, youre always teaching me.

People ask me "What is it about salam that makes you like him so much?" Really i Think and think
We have different interests, you like sports + being quiet. I like to read... and lead...
and to be abnoxiously noticeable (well online anyway).. But we make -such- a good team. Like
in Luna. We Date SO WELL there, because we just KNOW what to do. Theres no "BLARG WHY DIDNT
YOU DO THIS AND THIS OR THAT!??" We just.. succeed. Whereas with others, its a  total disaster,
and we both end up dying.......... In this situation..... People tell me, "Follow your heart"
and that was true with what people said about manic. Hes funny and nice, sure. A good friend.
But say I did go with him. That wont take away my feelings for you, I know it for sure.
Why Do i like salam? ?? I dont know. I dont think about it, i just -feel- it. I've never wanted
to make someone as happy as i try to make you. I do so much for you, because it makes me happy.

To see you happy, is what makes my day. Like i said before, when i first started out working
and it was hard, i got through the day thinking to myself "doing this well will please salam!"
and i know that that may sound creepy, but you give me -SO- much modivation to go out and
do my best, and really live, and try new things i normally wouldnt do. Its so weird, I know...

I do all my studies on relationships and even all these creepy 14 year olds, and I still dont
know what love is, at the core. Maybe its impossible to know. Hell, maybe it doesnt exist and
its all just a chemical overload in our brains. I often find myself thinking and thinking and
end up googling "define love" only to come to the conclusion of something like "Love is a
strong positive emotion of regard and affection". And regardless of if this is only online or
even only ingame.. or everywhere.  I have to get this all out.... Or i'll go crazy with
rambling on about you forever and ever to random people for hours on end XD and really only
dreaming, and not acting is a huge waste of time.........

I have to let my soul sing without a doubt!!!! No regrets! cuz otherwise id never know, right!
I think by now, I've shown it throughout the various situations we've been in in the past few
months, but I really just feel the need to vocalize it. Er.. type.. er.. something... :X!

In some way, shape, or form, Salam, I love you.
And it goes against every bit of logic and thought process the more I think about this next part
And the more I think about it, the more stupid it seems on my end... And it seems so silly, but
maybe being/feeling silly is what this is about! ^___^

Someone brought up a good point last night, actually. Which makes me understand why i feel the
way i do a *BIT* better. "Real love comes from not what you say, but what you do. The fact that
he is around you a ton re-enforces the fact he cares about you a lot as well. Whereas some of
the other guys you mention may flirt with you, sure, but they dont put the effort into SHOWING
they care on a day-to-day basis. And I know all too well that girls are suckers for attention
from a guy, but its the ones that don't show it directly are the ones who mean it the most."

and BAH I know this is different from what we talked about yesterday, but i thought it meant the
same thing cuz im a huge nub and stuff :3 blehhh ima feel bad about this tomarroowww >_<~~ xD

I cant think of any amusing or tactfully quirky way of asking this, especially since it doesnt
even make the least bit of sense to me in the first place. Either way this goes, as noted when
we first started talking... nothing will change our friendship we have now, regardless what
happens after im done with this :3 Maybe thats all this is, is a huge outlet of feelings.
(and ohhhhh god it is......) And it's okay if the answer is no, really it is. Because maybe the
answer -should- be no. But I dont know, uh anything at this point. *FLYYYYYS THROUGH WINDOW*

Salam, will you be my girlfriend?

*hides under popcorn machine in emo corner while heart beats incredibly fast* >////<~


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The Aftermath

 

The AFTER aftermath

This one will be longer than 2 weeks, i swear :/

Comments

[dazed871.livejournal.com]

That was just too cute ^^
I'm really happy for you, from what I gathered it seems like you guys are great together :)

I'd wish you good luck, but I doub't you'll need it!

:P

[caitaro.livejournal.com]

well you see salam is a very unique individual...

In that he doesn't talk much..
He listens..


Its hard to have a good conversation with him...

but when he does talk, its powerfull..

and we have similar personalities, but different interests.

we're both random as hell and very open minded. which is awesome.

TOASTERRRRRRRRR
XD