I sat in the breakroom today...
and daniel said
"You can have the title (of his gf) you know, all you have to do is ask"
I just stare at him as he leaves.
Later on I asked him
"I wanna talk about this.. but im working.. I might cry or something.."
then he said "its ok"
then 10 mins before he had to go..
Cait: I have to ask or its going to eat at my SOUL till tomorrow..
Cait: Do i want the title? Yes. But should i?
Daniel: Just ask! You know what the answer is.
Cait: "but think of it like this. Dating is in the stage we're still getting to know eachother, BUT... do you see yourself still being with me in 10 years? rest of your life? the answer should be yes right now, or else its not worth trying. Im not saying you dont, but its just something to think about before we think about this."
Daniel:"I do. and it is something I think about."
Cait: Of course you do, you think about the same things i do. GET OUT OF MY MIND.
Cait: But am I ready? As i said I'm on a high.
Daniel: Indeed..
Cait: but are you? I mean when you said you didnt wanna do things with me, it kinda scared me.. i duno if maybe you dont.. like me the same way or something?
Daniel: Think of it this way. Some people get a chocolate high.. others caffine high. Do you have either of those?
Cait: No...
Daniel: Me either. See everyones chemistry is different. See?
Cait: o.o
Daniel: Whereas you get the high and want to do things with you.. I dont get that high, and in my opinion it makes it more genuine.. because I love and care for you.. I know it is.. Its not the result of some sort of high at all.
Cait: and you think i wont care about you anymore when my high is over?
Daniel: thats kind of the thing i was worried about. Maybe. Maybe not.
Cait: Im sure i will but i will wait. Daniel tell me when I'm ready. Then i will ask.
Daniel: Okay :3
Cait: *Stares lovingly* :3