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*looks at last post*
Jesus christ i am psycho.
anyway
"Following a period of sympathetic nervous system hyperactivity, crying is part of a parasympathetic rebound effect in which tears serve to discharge arousal. "
Perhaps that is why... i am asexual. XD
...also..
A question on yahooo answers: Why is it we hurt the ones we are close to the most?
this person answered..
"he answer to this lies in the abstract entity within us called our ego.
Our ego is our sense of identity, of who we are. It is the sum of all our beliefs, thoughts and self perceptions.
The ego derives its strength from attachement to the external world - people, status, respect, possesions, money, achievements. This is actually an insane and dysfunctional way to live as the external world is in a constant state of change and fluctuation and when one of these external entites changes or is lost then great pain accompanies this. That is what spirituality is essentially about - dissolving the ego and not depending on the external for your strength. You will realise that a person who has dissolved their ego is infinitely stronger and more at peace then an egotistically driven person who has everything because that egotistical person will be constantly disturbed by the fear of loss. Great happiness or ego happiness is always accompanied by fear.
So for your example, you meet a person, you attach your ego to them and temporarily they fill the void and make you feel special, they strenghthen your ego and makes it feel significant. But eventually the other person will behave in a way that does not coincide with how your ego believes they should act and fear of loss becomes acute. So you will act out your pain onto this person and the ego will try and control them and fit them back into the niche that the ego is happy with. This will cause the other person to either rebel or submit out fear depending on the aggresion of the ego.
True love can only happen beyond ego. Complete acceptance of a person regardless of their actions/ behaviour. Conventional or ego love is really just need. Instead of saying "I love you" they really mean "I need you" to fill my void and make me feel like I exist.
This is why we hurt the people who are close. Because we are egotistically attached to them. We have no reason to hurt strangers or more distant people (although this does happen with inferior/insane egos which need to be recognised) as we are not egotistically dependant on them."
I hate my ego and wish it would die.
Jesus christ i am psycho.
anyway
"Following a period of sympathetic nervous system hyperactivity, crying is part of a parasympathetic rebound effect in which tears serve to discharge arousal. "
Perhaps that is why... i am asexual. XD
...also..
A question on yahooo answers: Why is it we hurt the ones we are close to the most?
this person answered..
"he answer to this lies in the abstract entity within us called our ego.
Our ego is our sense of identity, of who we are. It is the sum of all our beliefs, thoughts and self perceptions.
The ego derives its strength from attachement to the external world - people, status, respect, possesions, money, achievements. This is actually an insane and dysfunctional way to live as the external world is in a constant state of change and fluctuation and when one of these external entites changes or is lost then great pain accompanies this. That is what spirituality is essentially about - dissolving the ego and not depending on the external for your strength. You will realise that a person who has dissolved their ego is infinitely stronger and more at peace then an egotistically driven person who has everything because that egotistical person will be constantly disturbed by the fear of loss. Great happiness or ego happiness is always accompanied by fear.
So for your example, you meet a person, you attach your ego to them and temporarily they fill the void and make you feel special, they strenghthen your ego and makes it feel significant. But eventually the other person will behave in a way that does not coincide with how your ego believes they should act and fear of loss becomes acute. So you will act out your pain onto this person and the ego will try and control them and fit them back into the niche that the ego is happy with. This will cause the other person to either rebel or submit out fear depending on the aggresion of the ego.
True love can only happen beyond ego. Complete acceptance of a person regardless of their actions/ behaviour. Conventional or ego love is really just need. Instead of saying "I love you" they really mean "I need you" to fill my void and make me feel like I exist.
This is why we hurt the people who are close. Because we are egotistically attached to them. We have no reason to hurt strangers or more distant people (although this does happen with inferior/insane egos which need to be recognised) as we are not egotistically dependant on them."
I hate my ego and wish it would die.
