This is what im about.

MINOR THREAT LYRICS

"Straight Edge"

I'm a person just like you
But I've got better things to do
Than sit around and fuck my head
Hang out with the living dead
Snort white shit up my nose
Pass out at the shows
I don't even think about speed
That's something I just don't need

I've got the straight edge

I'm a person just like you
But I've got better things to do
Than sit around and smoke dope
'Cause I know I can cope
Laugh at the thought of eating ludes
Laugh at the thought of sniffing glue
Always gonna keep in touch
Never want to use a crutch

I've got the straight edge
I've got the straight edge
I've got the straight edge
I've got the straight edge



This is the song that inspired the whole "straight edge" thing.

the no alcohol, drugs, and sex.

Jebus I <3 it.

ohhhh... >_

Snoop is juicing out blood now.. i can feel her ribs and backbone.. and the huge lump in her stomache..
she is going to die soon.. perhaps tomarrow even.. all i can do is sit in the laundry room with her and bawl.

shanes going to come over tomarrow.. I hope she lasts um.. well forever >_> but for 2 days at least.. i dont want shane to see me like this...

AHHHHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA

omg i am so effing.. drunk right now...

drunk on..

sleepiness
xD

ok ok

look at these 2 emails i got

?My boyfriend's tool keeps slipping out. ?My new guy's prick is enormous, and my mouth is tiny.

XXXXXXDDDD

omfg

its so funny

i just read it and laugh and laugh

its like
ok

WHY DO I CARE

WHAT CAN I DO ABOUT YOUR BF'S TOOLS?!?!

dont buy him any and none of them will get lost.


so bored i msg'd smartercild about his tools.



8/6/2007 6:33:01 AM -=~*Sir Cait*~=-: tell me about your tool
8/6/2007 6:33:12 AM - SmarterChild: I have the following *tools* for you to use:

1 Dictionary
2 Thesaurus
3 Encyclopedia
4 Spell Check
5 Planner
6 Reminders
7 Notepad
8 Calculator
9 Conversions
10 Zip & Area Code Lookup
11 International Date & Time

Which would you like?
8/6/2007 6:33:38 AM -=~*Sir Cait*~=-: wow you have.. 11 tools.


hahha

AHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAAH

*dies laughing*


ok ok.. so right now im kinda angred at mariane cuz.. i told her to emial me when she canceled my thinger.. and she didnt.

so now i guess i must stay up till 8............ and call and make sure..
holy jebusss.....


yeah so im listenin to the black mages - the skies above

cuz i can



8/6/2007 6:36:16 AM -=~*Sir Cait*~=-: shane tell me about your tool XD
8/6/2007 6:36:41 AM Shane: my tool of choice is a hammer :3
8/6/2007 6:36:50 AM Shane: simple yet effective
8/6/2007 6:36:51 AM -=~*Sir Cait*~=-: an electric hammer?
8/6/2007 6:37:04 AM -=~*Sir Cait*~=-: does it play luna's boat song when it's plugged in????
8/6/2007 6:37:08 AM Shane: lol no
8/6/2007 6:37:14 AM -=~*Sir Cait*~=-: oh :(
8/6/2007 6:37:16 AM Shane: lol
8/6/2007 6:37:17 AM -=~*Sir Cait*~=-: must have been someone else then


hahah

hammers.


lesse
lesse
cuz i have noone to randomly ramble to..


journaley getsd it.

alrg blarg..

i had spicy chikan a few hours ago.. like .. 3 hrs ago..

it was.. spicy,,

..it tasted weird though.. stuff tastes weird when you're upset o_O


o ya we went to ponderosa today and we were served undercooked chicken..

uh... and dad complained.

and i said i needed to go to the hospital + get treated for samilnilina

jesus cant spell that right niow. salmonila
salmon.

i hate fish o_O


corys malt shop memories will be done in like..

2 hrs.


*yawns8

i watched spirited away.... in japanese.. it makes a lot more sense than the english version

BUT NO JASON MARSDEN WHYYYYY ;-;;;;;


but
okay
um
oh yheah

Im guna make a cuuuute anime guys thinger..

so far i have pix of

Haku
Howl
Darien
Bakura
Yukito


i cant find a pic of Trunks (short hair) smiling.. so none of him yet..

any other suggestions?????

thx

kthx
kthxbi
..sexual
ahahahahahahha

ahah

smily potato SMILE
SMIIIIILLLLEEEEEEEe

KITTAH FAAAAAACEEe

*implodes*

gah

note to self..

do not under any circumstances, EVER talk to people when...


-experiencing lack of sleep
-negative anticipation of death
-frustrated
-sobby mcemo pants



*slits ankles and drowns*

o_O

*looks at last post*

Jesus christ i am psycho.

anyway


"Following a period of sympathetic nervous system hyperactivity, crying is part of a parasympathetic rebound effect in which tears serve to discharge arousal. "


Perhaps that is why... i am asexual. XD



...also..


A question on yahooo answers: Why is it we hurt the ones we are close to the most?

this person answered..

"he answer to this lies in the abstract entity within us called our ego.

Our ego is our sense of identity, of who we are. It is the sum of all our beliefs, thoughts and self perceptions.

The ego derives its strength from attachement to the external world - people, status, respect, possesions, money, achievements. This is actually an insane and dysfunctional way to live as the external world is in a constant state of change and fluctuation and when one of these external entites changes or is lost then great pain accompanies this. That is what spirituality is essentially about - dissolving the ego and not depending on the external for your strength. You will realise that a person who has dissolved their ego is infinitely stronger and more at peace then an egotistically driven person who has everything because that egotistical person will be constantly disturbed by the fear of loss. Great happiness or ego happiness is always accompanied by fear.

So for your example, you meet a person, you attach your ego to them and temporarily they fill the void and make you feel special, they strenghthen your ego and makes it feel significant. But eventually the other person will behave in a way that does not coincide with how your ego believes they should act and fear of loss becomes acute. So you will act out your pain onto this person and the ego will try and control them and fit them back into the niche that the ego is happy with. This will cause the other person to either rebel or submit out fear depending on the aggresion of the ego.

True love can only happen beyond ego. Complete acceptance of a person regardless of their actions/ behaviour. Conventional or ego love is really just need. Instead of saying "I love you" they really mean "I need you" to fill my void and make me feel like I exist.

This is why we hurt the people who are close. Because we are egotistically attached to them. We have no reason to hurt strangers or more distant people (although this does happen with inferior/insane egos which need to be recognised) as we are not egotistically dependant on them."



I hate my ego and wish it would die.

new comic

yeah.

it stars will + me

and shane makes a guest appearance

http://cait.netdojo.com/comix.html

i am pissed

So im up all night and stuff.. which isnt really that bad.. playin on the computer.. crying over snoop >_>...

she came out here.. and tried jumping up on my lap.. but she couldnt.. and fell.. so i got a towel and she sat on my lap and purred for awhile..

because im effing psycho, i recorded her purring..

http://cait.netdojo.com/compression.wav

it sounds really relaxing to me.. probably becuase she used to sleep with me.. purr and massage my back for the longest time.....


i remember the last time she massaged my back... .. she ummm..... came out into the living room and i was laying on my stomache.. i was talking to karl..

she hopped up and did it... i was soo happy she haddnt done it in a long time.. then karl smacked her and told her to get off..
*sob*

8/6/2007 5:24:53 PM -=~*Sir Cait*~=-: well
8/6/2007 5:25:28 PM -=~*Sir Cait*~=-: i went to sleep at 12:30.. my brothers friend howard was guna go home at 1:30 so i figured.. well.. go to sleep for a bit bfore my dad gets home (at 3:30)
8/6/2007 5:25:41 PM -=~*Sir Cait*~=-: then danielle came over and howard didnt leave
8/6/2007 5:25:54 PM -=~*Sir Cait*~=-: my dad came home EARLY at like 1:30 or 2 i guess...
8/6/2007 5:26:05 PM -=~*Sir Cait*~=-: and was honking on his trombone
8/6/2007 5:26:14 PM -=~*Sir Cait*~=-: i guess he thinks its funny to see me pissed off. XD
8/6/2007 5:26:17 PM jewish-fish.viliamu.: XD
8/6/2007 5:26:21 PM -=~*Sir Cait*~=-: I asked him
8/6/2007 5:26:29 PM -=~*Sir Cait*~=-: "Did you not ever think to be considerate of me????"
8/6/2007 5:26:38 PM -=~*Sir Cait*~=-: he said "WHAT you stayed up till like 6am or somethin?"
8/6/2007 5:26:56 PM -=~*Sir Cait*~=-: when 2 nights ago cory stayed up all night and was even on the COMPUTER>. and dad didnt do anything to HIM.
8/6/2007 5:27:13 PM -=~*Sir Cait*~=-: if iw as up all night AND on the computer my dad would like... be very pissed XD
8/6/2007 5:27:54 PM -=~*Sir Cait*~=-: so i rolled over and went to sleep again for a bit.. only to howard running in the room screaming or something.. then eventually he took corys inflatable guitar and started beating me with it.. then he beat me in the face.. i got up and.. ugh.. yelled at him. XD





so now the house is a mess...... my face hurts.. my brain hurts..

i will have to clean up this mess later..

and i cant get a shower becuase cory has mountains of wet clothes in my bathtub..

Yes i know im very well capable of taking them out.. but..

Id have to go in the laundry room.. corrall snoop into not esaping.. clean up the floor.. fold up whatevers in the laundry basket.. make sure theres nothing in the washer.. go back.. get all the soaking wet clothes.. put them in the laudnry room.. and clean up the floor agani..


too much work for me at the moment >_>


yea.......


i am so effing tired right now..

im just talking to will.

Will is amazing,


he's the only one who randomly talks to me about STUFF!

we've only talked on 1 on1 IM about 15 times.. since janurary.. but.

hes super nice..

calls me kittycait.. lol.

toooo bad he' gay :(

o wel.

if he wasnt i'd end up being obsessd for months/years.. then horridly depressed again when it was all over.



*shrug*



At the time of writing this i was going to put "i dont care! Im pissed and dont care if i die ATM"


but now i feel a bit better..

but it still feels as if cory is sitting on my nose :(