caitaro | Today = hecktik

I feel like shit.

And that's an understatement.

It seems every time i fall asleep in the middle of the day i wake up.. everyone goes to bed.. and i get super depressed..

So last night.. i got to bed about 4:30ish.. woke up at 6:45 to take cory to bus.. Then i stayed up till about.. 11ish.. um.. reading those end of the world scenario things..

then i suddenly felt super tired...

and i went to sleep on the love seat..

Woke up at about 2:00.. played pokemon master trainer with cory... surfed the internet a bit.. then i put hitchhikers guide to the galaxy on my movie player.. went in my room. watched an hour of it.. and i declared myself too tired to go on.. and fell asleep.. with it playin lol.. i woke up after it ended for the 2nd time (it repeats itself) at about 10:20...

talked to cory and dad a little bit.. then they went to bed.. then i watched mystery diagnoses.. medical incredible.. those kind of shows... then i watched like 10 mins of animal cops.. and realized how much my dad sucks.. (for various reasons) watched the weather channel... got some chef boy r De.. and now here i am.

and i feel like not existing anymore..

Tomarrow after i get my shower im going to go outside.. if i remember :.... and do.. something.. I dont know.. i need out of this house.. or i am going to go scitzo on myself..

It sucks ASS that this is spring break for me.. because i need out more than ever.. and i have nowhere to go...

I was looking forward to going to see marianne this month.. because i need to discuss all this crap.. and it gets cancelled. Why? cuz my dads insurance only approves for 8 visits a year... and we got a letter today saying they are approveing 0 visits a year.. Ive already went 3 times this year.. and if they arent gunna pay for it.. it will cost us about 400$ Money we dont have.

also.. here's this cool... thing..

if youve ever wondered about some weird things i think about..

http://www.exitmundi.nl/Dreamsend.htm

right there baby. That is. amazing.. ive never seen the matrix but i think i should..... sometime..

anyway.. after backdating all my journal entries... dad got up at 2.. and hes goin to bed right now..

and i feel...

so much better than when i started this... oh man..
gettin everything off meh chest can do wonders...

also forgot to backdate this but ill put it here.. - i finished my dragon puzzle.. holy crap on a stick that was hard... lots of teh pieces are almost IDENTICLE.. but yeah its done..

also i beat Zelda 2 (for nes) and Final Fantasy 3 for NES...

both had.. remotely ... not very awesome endings.. lol..

BUT IN FF3

*SPOILERZ*

DESH DIDNT DIE!!!!!!!!!!! i was.. enthralled XD because that game was all about.. like MILLIONS of 'friends' you pick up.. and they all like.. die except.. a few XP

*END SPOILERZ*

^_~

and im starting to do a rendition of my dragon puzzle in Paintbrush..

Here's basically what i have colored so far: