<='\ mind or body?

[caitaro]

Ive been up all night again...


...feeding my lack of a life with other lives.

I neeed to not do that at bedtime...

I watched .hack till i ran out of eps (up to 19)

then i stayed up..

when dad left I went into the couch and layed there with whitey...

Took cory to the bus... in MY car.. its fixed now, i guess.. but omg its so NOISY!!!!!!!

erm.

so i came back. made sure my tape was in... recording waterworld at 9:30..

and made the mistake of flipping though the guide...


...and I saw Serenity..


...and made the even bigger mistake of turning it on....

but ugh..

To see my old friends.. simon, mal, kaylee... i havent seen em in so long...

To ESCAPE.. into their world... where bad things dont happen to /me/...... It was a relief..

i couldnt stop watching..

it's like an addictive subliminal fruity oaty bar commercial XD




Im sad if im not in another persons world.... Cuz My emotions suffer...

But if im in another persons world... My body suffers..

because of being up all night, I will be all emo-tated all day long... grumpy.. and sick. wore out.... I more than likely wont leave the table only to go to the bathroom...


H8.

I guess ultimately I have to pick which will suffer..

Unfortunately, until I have responsibilities, my emotions will be the ones fulfilled.
*sob*