Cait's Ramblings

went to bed about 3...

layed there..



...layed there...



....thought about retard...


...and now im still up.

I really miss retard and travis.. and tooter.

I'm lucky to have RO so i can put it out of my mind.. I think i did too good a job though.

as when Travis (person) was over last weekend.. he asked if i was okay... i said ya and had no idea why i wouldnt be okay..

and then he told me.

Yeah...

Sure ive put them out of my mind.. but at night i think of them.. and i cant sleep..

and i really really miss them..

Sure retard was incredibly stupid.. but i loved him..

and Travis.. man.. dont even get me started.. I loved travis more than ive ever loved anything.. and he was tooken away from me.. very slowly..



I dont know why these things happen to me..

Victoria has literally 17 cats and theyve lived forever...

and i cant get another cat.. dad is like blarg.


but sooner or later.. travis and retard and tooter are just gunna end up like tinker.. or my mom.. or my grandma.. I havent thought about tinker in forever..

And im not gunna remember them.. and im not gunna remember how much i loved Travis and that is so depressing...



*sob*

I hate emotions..

sadness and frustration are the only 2 emotions i cant control yet...

Tooters gunna die soon..


yesterday when Travis was over, my dad told him she was prolly gunna die yesterday.

I went in the laundry room to get clothes today and she was still alive..

i petted her head..


....and now im a slobbery mess :\

and i gotta go to sk00l in 9 minutes.


ugh.

I hate emotions.....

i wished she would have died yesterday. Yesterday would have been a stoic day for me..


but NOooo the day i have school im a slobbery mess >_>.



ok but i read emilys myspace post about gas.. and now im enraged insted of sad.

so i'm ok..

...for now X_X


but anyway.. why i am enraged is in the next post.

Well today i had to sit through crappy lectures and it was boring.. yep.. so then i talked to the adviser person and shes like blarg blarg fasfa...


SOOOO...... then i went to wendys..

yum..


THen i got gas and went home...

i got some meds for travis + tooter...

Then we went to Meijers and i got a 10$ pack of cards............well it was a box really.. and i got it hoem.. and it was CARDS not PACKs and it was like all star trek. ew. but it had some cool.. like TMNT and DBZ.. woo.


not worth 10$ thoguh lol..


UM..
So now travis is theoretically coming over XD!!!!
woo.

Well today started out good..

im like YES ENERGY!@@@@

but then..... ... After cory fed el bunnitos....... Dad was being all depressing like "OMG I DUNO WUT TO DO WITH THE HOUSE I KANT KEEP IOT!!!!!"

andim like "well it doesnt matter so blah"
so i went in with corndog and danielle and they were BORING playing conker so i went to my room and sleeped from about 5 till 7:30

Theeeeenn i dinked around for 1/2 hr.. and then at 8 nausicca valley of the wind was on!!!!! so i watched it.. but it was kinda boring cuz stuff :\
then castle in the sky was on but i dun wanna watch that right now..


This is on TCM for some reason o_O theyve been showing alot of anime for some reason hmmmmmmmmmm...

But yeah.. so now im tired and i wanna sleeeeeep XD

so much for my energy.. :|

MAN i love having energy but i have it so RARELY.....

cuz caffine doesnt have any effect on me at all.....

which sux..

but as for my social life.. after i got off the bus i talked to noone important..
cuz noone was on >_>

so yeah..
i talked to travis
and i talked to the bunnies when i went down stairs XD cuz i was so HYPER!

and i found out that tooter has a sore on her tummy =(
Omg i thought for a minute what i'd be like to put her to sleep and i started crying.. lol im crying now from remembering..

Ill never put tooter to sleep.. i dont care.. i love her.


*yaawns*

nothin else to talk abouuuuuuuttttttt

so im a gunna go to bed now~

BYE PPL!!!!!!!!!