caitaro | fucking pissed.

Hi

My names *insert my name here* Im going to make this to the point..

Im sending this to emails on the NWLB website that may, you know, have a little impact or something...

..soo..

My mom died in 2005, completely random.. noone was expecting it. (divide our income by half)

Im 19, ive been living without health insurance for a year and a half.. and it sucks.

I got top 10 in my high school, and a couple of scholarships through.. SO i could go to college, even though i dont want to.

My art teacher was amazing, he helped me get my drivers lisence, where my parents wouldnt, and pushed me to go to college.

So i went the first year.. (For graphic design).. My dad helped pay.. but because of rising gas prices, a mortgage over 1,100$ a month, and insane hospital bills, Thats all he could help me with.

Since i graduated (2006) i have put job applications in every place under the sun.. even obsquere places.. Like the Manor, a school for mentally challenged kids. if you want me to list them all, I can.

Ive got nothing, NOTHING.

So the second year of college, I had 1 class per semester.. because that's all the money i inherited from my moms stock market thingy.

So this no worker left behind thing rolls around.. and im thinking "OH hell yes, i can actually go!!! i can finish my 2 year program in less than 6!!! I can actually get a job, and be rid of this horrible lifestyle!"

I go to michigan works.. fill out the talent bank thing..

..and keep going..... fill out some applications..

......and keep going....... fill out some more applications....

They keep making me appointments with people i dont even need to see.

wasting what to get in to there? LOTS OF GAS MONEY.

Eventually i got to one person who said i need to wait until EXACTLY 2 years after i graduate (June 2008) before i can even do the paperwork.

..so i waited..

I went back..

they made more appointments with the wrong people.... i then proceed to ask them if they were going to pay for the gas money i use to get in here for them making the wrong appointments.. They say no.

..and then finally a right one..

I take this STUPID test to see if i know english.. and they need my SS# and all this junk.. I fill it out.. it takes 2 hours, because they wont let you go ahead..

They call me today.. and say I cant get the no worker left behind money because we go $416 over the 40,000$ limit.

Now.. if you look at my dads past income.. NO YEARS HAVE EVER WENT OVER THIS LIMIT BEFORE.

...but because my dad got a .10 cent raise.. It does now..

THE ONE YEAR... we can get this no worker left behind.. I cant... because of a 10 cent raise.

My luck sucks, okay.

We did fill out the fasfa.. and we only got 200$ IF i go full time.

L O L, thats enough for like. OMG, 1 book!!!!!!

You guys need to take more in consideration when choosing how the HELL you give people this money.

Know what my dad drove last year? a 1986 mini van.. that was so rusted out at the bottom, it was technically illegal to drive... The frame was nearly gone. It was dangerous.

But we cant afford CLOTHES, much less a new vehicle.

If you's like I can go through ALL of our expenses and show you.. without my brothers social security, we couldnt even pay the house bill.

So you can take your 40,000$ a year, and please.. DO some thing with it.

Dont draw the line at 40,000$ a year..

It SHOULD be based on income-spending money ratio.

This way is just ridiculous.

I should move to canada. at least then i'll be able to go to the doctor.

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~Cait

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caiterz@gmail.com

I yelled at the lady on the phone.... who told me i didnt get it..

I held myself together until she told me to get a loan.

Then i started screaming at her and told her just not to even worry about it.. Then hung up.

Ive never yelled at someone like that before..... -_--

Think my email'll make an impact?

FUCK NO.

noone gives a shit about me!

so i just want

EVERYONE.

EVERYONE, to leave me alone about ALL THIS FUCKING SHIT

EVER>
and NEVER EVER TALK TO ME,

becuase i hate humanity, not just "you," whoever you are, as in individual

but humanity.

and im sick if its SICK AND TWISTED WAYS.

So here i am

*CUT*

that was me.. and from the rest of humanity.

its better this way, trust me
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