Cait's Ramblings

Hi

My names *insert my name here* Im going to make this to the point..

Im sending this to emails on the NWLB website that may, you know, have a little impact or something...

..soo..


My mom died in 2005, completely random.. noone was expecting it. (divide our income by half)

Im 19, ive been living without health insurance for a year and a half.. and it sucks.

I got top 10 in my high school, and a couple of scholarships through.. SO i could go to college, even though i dont want to.

My art teacher was amazing, he helped me get my drivers lisence, where my parents wouldnt, and pushed me to go to college.

So i went the first year.. (For graphic design).. My dad helped pay.. but because of rising gas prices, a mortgage over 1,100$ a month, and insane hospital bills, Thats all he could help me with.

Since i graduated (2006) i have put job applications in every place under the sun.. even obsquere places.. Like the Manor, a school for mentally challenged kids. if you want me to list them all, I can.

Ive got nothing, NOTHING.

So the second year of college, I had 1 class per semester.. because that's all the money i inherited from my moms stock market thingy.

So this no worker left behind thing rolls around.. and im thinking "OH hell yes, i can actually go!!! i can finish my 2 year program in less than 6!!! I can actually get a job, and be rid of this horrible lifestyle!"

I go to michigan works.. fill out the talent bank thing..

..and keep going..... fill out some applications..

......and keep going....... fill out some more applications....

They keep making me appointments with people i dont even need to see.

wasting what to get in to there? LOTS OF GAS MONEY.

Eventually i got to one person who said i need to wait until EXACTLY 2 years after i graduate (June 2008) before i can even do the paperwork.

..so i waited..

I went back..

they made more appointments with the wrong people.... i then proceed to ask them if they were going to pay for the gas money i use to get in here for them making the wrong appointments.. They say no.

..and then finally a right one..

I take this STUPID test to see if i know english.. and they need my SS# and all this junk.. I fill it out.. it takes 2 hours, because they wont let you go ahead..


They call me today.. and say I cant get the no worker left behind money because we go $416 over the 40,000$ limit.

Now.. if you look at my dads past income.. NO YEARS HAVE EVER WENT OVER THIS LIMIT BEFORE.

...but because my dad got a .10 cent raise.. It does now..

THE ONE YEAR... we can get this no worker left behind.. I cant... because of a 10 cent raise.

My luck sucks, okay.

We did fill out the fasfa.. and we only got 200$ IF i go full time.

L O L, thats enough for like. OMG, 1 book!!!!!!


You guys need to take more in consideration when choosing how the HELL you give people this money.

Know what my dad drove last year? a 1986 mini van.. that was so rusted out at the bottom, it was technically illegal to drive... The frame was nearly gone. It was dangerous.

But we cant afford CLOTHES, much less a new vehicle.

If you's like I can go through ALL of our expenses and show you.. without my brothers social security, we couldnt even pay the house bill.


So you can take your 40,000$ a year, and please.. DO some thing with it.

Dont draw the line at 40,000$ a year..

It SHOULD be based on income-spending money ratio.

This way is just ridiculous.

I should move to canada. at least then i'll be able to go to the doctor.

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~Cait


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caiterz@gmail.com


I yelled at the lady on the phone.... who told me i didnt get it..

I held myself together until she told me to get a loan.

Then i started screaming at her and told her just not to even worry about it.. Then hung up.

Ive never yelled at someone like that before..... -_--


Think my email'll make an impact?

FUCK NO.

noone gives a shit about me!


so i just want

EVERYONE.

EVERYONE, to leave me alone about ALL THIS FUCKING SHIT

EVER>
and NEVER EVER TALK TO ME,

becuase i hate humanity, not just "you," whoever you are, as in individual

but humanity.

and im sick if its SICK AND TWISTED WAYS.

So here i am

*CUT*

that was me.. and from the rest of humanity.

its better this way, trust me
-_--\

talkin to this guy.. about other guys XD...

9/10/2007 3:03:18 PM Stupidity is the one Great universal crime, punishment is often swift and merciless.: No problem with a guy being rich though?
9/10/2007 3:03:25 PM -=~*Mr. Sir Cait Pants*~=-: nah
9/10/2007 3:03:25 PM -=~*Mr. Sir Cait Pants*~=-: XD
9/10/2007 3:03:37 PM -=~*Mr. Sir Cait Pants*~=-: I cant ever afford anything so being able to would be nice, lol
9/10/2007 3:04:00 PM Stupidity is the one Great universal crime, punishment is often swift and merciless.: Would it be ok If I bought YOU an "Amazing" Car?
9/10/2007 3:04:04 PM -=~*Mr. Sir Cait Pants*~=-: NOpe.
9/10/2007 3:04:08 PM -=~*Mr. Sir Cait Pants*~=-: ill tell you why in a sec
9/10/2007 3:04:08 PM -=~*Mr. Sir Cait Pants*~=-: XD
9/10/2007 3:05:45 PM -=~*Mr. Sir Cait Pants*~=-: If a guy thinks hes hawt.. than more than likely hes self absorbed.. and he thinks hes hawt to other slutty girls.. My opinion of hawt and guys opinions of hawt are totally diferent..... if he had an AMAZING car it would more than likely mean that he blows his money on stupid crap like that.. My dad drives a 1986 minivan with the frame rotting out.. and bumper almost disinigrated.. Its technicly illegal to drive.. But we dont have credit cards maxed out.. or nothin.. (a guy having better than this would be okay - LOL.. even MY car is better than that) I think theres more important things out there to buy than expensive cars...
9/10/2007 3:05:53 PM -=~*Mr. Sir Cait Pants*~=-: as for someone buying ME an amazing car...
9/10/2007 3:06:35 PM -=~*Mr. Sir Cait Pants*~=-: I really dont like people buynig me anything.. period.. (which is why i think i am low maintinence.. money wise XP ) i just.. feel really crappy.. and not worthy.. and XD I never know what to get anyone else....
9/10/2007 3:06:51 PM -=~*Mr. Sir Cait Pants*~=-: and for someone to get me an AMAZING car.. i wouldnt accept it.. i'd give it back, lol...
9/10/2007 3:07:11 PM -=~*Mr. Sir Cait Pants*~=-: as long as ive got a car that still gets down the road and isnt a huge safety hazard, im happy. XP
9/10/2007 3:08:24 PM Stupidity is the one Great universal crime, punishment is often swift and merciless.: You've made great points
9/10/2007 3:09:35 PM -=~*Mr. Sir Cait Pants*~=-: Yeah
9/10/2007 3:10:04 PM Stupidity is the one Great universal crime, punishment is often swift and merciless.: I see money as a thing to be spent... now spent on stupid stuff, that's a judgement thing. I guess what the defination of AMAZING does it for me for cars. I think a new car of any price with nothing wrong with it is Amazing
9/10/2007 3:10:18 PM -=~*Mr. Sir Cait Pants*~=-: heh.
9/10/2007 3:10:28 PM -=~*Mr. Sir Cait Pants*~=-: If i had a lot of money.. I might spend it on stupid things like that..
9/10/2007 3:11:15 PM -=~*Mr. Sir Cait Pants*~=-: If i got a million $ right now.. Sure i might go get a new car.. But only cuz mines rusty and whatnot.. Heck i might even just pay to get mine touched up and cleaned.. I like how it looks.. its different from most cars..
9/10/2007 3:11:22 PM -=~*Mr. Sir Cait Pants*~=-: and id get my CB Fixed >_>
9/10/2007 3:11:45 PM -=~*Mr. Sir Cait Pants*~=-: and my gas cap -thing reattatched XD
9/10/2007 3:12:01 PM Stupidity is the one Great universal crime, punishment is often swift and merciless.: I'd make sure I was secure finacially so I would never have to work again, then I could blow the rest on anything
9/10/2007 3:12:22 PM -=~*Mr. Sir Cait Pants*~=-: i dont think i'd blow it
9/10/2007 3:12:26 PM -=~*Mr. Sir Cait Pants*~=-: id just get some things
9/10/2007 3:12:30 PM -=~*Mr. Sir Cait Pants*~=-: Like a DS and wii >_> XD
9/10/2007 3:12:47 PM -=~*Mr. Sir Cait Pants*~=-: Maybe some decent clothes..
9/10/2007 3:12:49 PM -=~*Mr. Sir Cait Pants*~=-: new computer
9/10/2007 3:12:56 PM -=~*Mr. Sir Cait Pants*~=-: i wouldnt go out and spend like thousands at a time or anything O_O
9/10/2007 3:13:04 PM Stupidity is the one Great universal crime, punishment is often swift and merciless.: It's hard to say what I'd do with the money
9/10/2007 3:13:15 PM -=~*Mr. Sir Cait Pants*~=-: ohh and id get a bunch of cats >_> lol
9/10/2007 3:13:20 PM -=~*Mr. Sir Cait Pants*~=-: cuz i <3 thm :(
9/10/2007 3:13:26 PM Stupidity is the one Great universal crime, punishment is often swift and merciless.: I think it's a waste to have money and not use it, might as well not have it
9/10/2007 3:13:35 PM -=~*Mr. Sir Cait Pants*~=-: hm..
9/10/2007 3:13:46 PM -=~*Mr. Sir Cait Pants*~=-: Well id like to save it so... incase of emergencies..
9/10/2007 3:13:49 PM -=~*Mr. Sir Cait Pants*~=-: and stuff..
9/10/2007 3:13:55 PM -=~*Mr. Sir Cait Pants*~=-: I guess i dont think like that lol
9/10/2007 3:13:56 PM Stupidity is the one Great universal crime, punishment is often swift and merciless.: Oh sure
9/10/2007 3:14:19 PM Stupidity is the one Great universal crime, punishment is often swift and merciless.: an emergency fund is different
9/10/2007 3:14:26 PM -=~*Mr. Sir Cait Pants*~=-: The govt nailed us for 3,000$ because my mom bought cigarettes off the internet..
9/10/2007 3:14:33 PM -=~*Mr. Sir Cait Pants*~=-: Uh.. stuff like that too lol
9/10/2007 3:14:34 PM Stupidity is the one Great universal crime, punishment is often swift and merciless.: It's like an insurance policy with yourself



In particular lookin at 9/10/2007 3:13:26 PM Stupidity is the one Great universal crime, punishment is often swift and merciless.: I think it's a waste to have money and not use it, might as well not have it

wow.. that's..

pretty much the opposite way i think.

Cait: HEYYYY KIDS!!!!! GUESS WHAT TIME OF THE WEEK IT IS?!!?
276 little kids: ITS CAITARANT TIME!!
Cait: GOOD JOB!!!! now.. listen carefully.. when you hear the secret phrase... scream as LOUD AS YOU CAN!!
276 little kids: OKAY CAIT!!! :DD!!

So... Mrs. H wants to take me shopping after school tomarrow for clothes for graduation o_O.. and i have no idea why she cares so much..... She said she wanted to reward me for helping tutor DJ... but i dont know why she thinks that because he has an F right now... :\... Im TRYING my best to make that F into a C though....

Um...
So i get home.. and dads like "So we need to send out invitations next week.."
Cait "what for?"
Dad: "for your graduation..."
Cait: "um.. who would want to come to that?"
Dad: "Ummm... probably mo and ron and george and brenda and grandpa.. I suppose after wards Ill just give you some money.."
Cait: "Uh what for?"
Dad: "for graduation.."
Cait: "and what wuold i do with this moneY??"
Dad: "Buy a hot dog."
Cait: "...Why dont we have a party so everyone can bring me money? llolollool"
Dad: "You should have told me that 2 months ago when i ASKED you!!!"
Cait: "Well!!"
Dad: "Well we cant reserve a space now because nothing is left.. you have to do that 6 months in advance..."
Cait: "Cant we just like throw some tents up over by my garden and have hot dogs and talk about stuff?"
Dad: "Umm.. no you need tables and chairs and whatnot.."
Cait: "o_O... we can put the picnic table out there.. and set out some lawn chairs.."
Dad: "we'd have to rent tables and chairs.. and a tent.. and you have to have food.. some people have a caterer bring in fried chikan and stuff.."
Cait: "....This kinda isnt any FORMAL thing..... noone's going to care... we can just throw somethin together.."
Dad: "Uh noo you can get a lot of money wrapped up into these things... But if you want one ill do it for you... I'm not worried about money for this"
Cait: "But you're ALWAYS worried about money and you're lYING because you're worried about money for THIS TOO!!"
DAd: "well you're right but this is for you and.."
Cait: "BUT IM NOT WORTH IT!!"
Dad: "Yes you aree...."
Cait: "We cant even afford to pay FOR OUR HOUSE!! MUch less spend crap on me!!! We dont even HAVE ENOUGH MONEY FOR THAT"
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276 little kids: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
Cait: YEs thats right kids!! you found the secret phrase!! "DONT hAVE ENOUGH MONEY"
This is what i hate.. All this crap about money... I hate money i hope it burns.. Im going to be a hobo when i grow up and live on a deserted island by myself with no money. Hopefully i will catch SIDS and die..
*
Dad: "well you only do this oncee blahh.."
Cait: "*furiated* *walks out to comptuer to type this..*


SO yes...

The last 2 months of your 12th grade career will be HELL.

If you're me i GUARANTEE IT.