Something missing?

[caitaro]

I just finished a chapter in my book

its about a girl who gets amnesia...

and she feels lost ...

at schoool.. with her family

her supposid best friend seems odd... caring.. but od..

her boyfriend seems like nooone shed wanna be around, much less with.


and i feel... oddily.. the same.

i feel like something is missing

like a big hunk of my life that was important is just.. gone..

and i think

maybe its cuz of salam?

cuz i miss him.

But i think..

what do i know about salam?

not much

I know specific things like

his favorite color is dark yellow..

his sister wants to go to alaska..

his mom kissed him everyday before school his senior year..

But who is salam?


....I dont remember....

But either way..


It feels like someone whos very important to me, i have forgotten about..


and whoever it is.. I miss them.. a lot..


I laid in my bed after i turned the light off..

trying to remember who it is im looking for..

and i dont remember o.o


and i think.. and think..

where have i been the past few years...

Trickster o.o
and

But who have i BEEN with?

who has been my friend?

well shane was gone for over a year.. and travis as well..

online?

there was nick for awhile.. segageek for awhile...


In my guild...

bunz.. friskie.. saber.. mal.. fuzee.. salam.. dave.


But it feels like someones missing..

someone who is above and beyong everyone..

Someone who ive been friends with a long time, and i care deeply about..

Right now i think fuzee and dave are mybest friends.

but what do i feel for them?

nothing very strong..

it feels like the person i feel very strong for is missing, and i cant remember who it is..


I long to feel that strength for someone...


for as it is right now, i feel uncaring about everyone

:|.

Wish i had a best friend or something.

Wish i didnt have to go to work in 7 hours so i could sit in my room and be emo and try and remember whos missing from my life...

blarg.

*hopes stripey is in her room so she can hug her*