Sunday night: I am excited. Excited as fuck. Because ive had a shitty 2 weeks, and i need the daniel love.
Daniel gets here at 1:30... and im pumped.
I have a chicken in the oven cooking for him.. and i give him huge hugs~
I cook some rice while it finishes cooking.
while rice is cooking we sit on the couch and watch something on TV. Or the TV is off. I dont remember. but we hug.
I get up, rice has cooked dry. so we fix it... get everything out... eat.
scoot on out to bed.. lay there for quite awhile.
snuggle, talk about things...
Eventually sleep.
Wake up around 3-4pm i think?, and i started my period. Great.
It's super heavy. I get a shower.
I tell daniel + my dad.. we decide to find something to fix it.
Look on the 'net and it seems only things that help is
-Transematic Acid (Lysteda) which is OTC in the UK, but prescription here.
-some Cy-IV
-Birth control pills.
We go to Rite aid and i ask the pharmacist what there is OTC for heavy periods
she says "ZOMG go to doctor, RIGHT NOW, JESUS DONT MESS WITH OTC STUFF!"
so i walk out, with tears in my eyes....
daniel buys a 2liter of pop for like 60 cents, LOL
WE go to Walmart......... and i dont remember what we got there...
Came home.. Got supper.. we had chicken alfredo. I ate a ton.
Snuggled.
Spent most of the night in the bathroom.
More snuggling.
I asked him about what he was going to do.. a new lovey thing.. he said i had to wait for my bday. DAMN.
more snuggling.
Cait: im like "D: okay.."
Cait: then at around midnight, hes like "ok its your bday~
Cait: and im like "LOL YAY LOOPHOLES"
Cait: and he said "Alright.. now this will all depend on how forward you think im being..."
Cait: and i was like O___O ?
Cait: so he was kissing my neck like normal.. (which feels amazing) and so the he started going a bit lower...
Cait: around under my chin area
Cait: and kept goin a bit lower...
Cait: and he stopped a bit below where my boobs started
Cait: and the whole time im like "O______________________________O" uhh
Cait: well im thinking of how to describe XD
Cait: he said "how was that?"
Cait: and i said "Erm.. it was.. different"
Cait: "It was... not bad o.o"
Cait: He said to me..
Cait: "Well the plan is to eventually go lower... when you're ready"
Cait: So I thought about it and i was quiet for a little bit..
Cait: and i managed to squeak out...
Cait: "I think thats a 'when YOURE ready...' "
Cait: he goes "OHHHH REALLLY? when -IM- ready?"
Cait: and im like "yea o.o"
Cait: "Okay then" he says...
Cait: Its dark in my room as we do this
Cait: just some ambient light from the small lights on my pc
Cait: He starts rubbing my sides... like he usually does..
Cait: im on my back
Cait: he lifts up my shirt a little..
Cait: rubs my stomache a bit..
Cait: and my eyes are like this O______________O
Cait: and im shaking a bit
Cait: and im thinking "HOLY JESUS I DONT KNOW WHATS GUNNA HAPPEN"
Cait: he lifts up my shirt a little more...
Cait: and a little more...
Cait: and puts it up above my bra
Roberta Cobb Johnson: you are killing me.... ha ha
Cait: I wear a sports bra
Cait: so he slips his fingers under the band..
Cait: and im like "UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH"
Roberta Cobb Johnson: and?
Cait: and he starts rubbing my boob a little bit.. under there.,..
Cait: and im like
Cait: UHHHHHHHHHHHH O_______________________O
Cait: and i say
Cait: well first he then takes the band of my bra..
Cait: and he lifts up up and off
Cait: where my shirt is
Cait: and thats not the most comfortable thing in the world
Cait: as its tight up there
Cait: so i say..
Cait: "did.. you... want me to... take them.. off..?"
Cait: in a tiny squeaky voice
Cait: and hes like "no, its ok"
Cait: so hes on his side next to me, and here i am on my back, feeling quite exposed..
Cait: and he takes his hand and rubs my right boob..
Cait: and rub
Cait: and rub
Cait: and im like.. O____O the whole time
Cait: more because of like "WOAH this is... new.. weird"
Cait: It didn't feel good or anything
Cait: felt the same as if he was rubbing my stomache
Cait: YAY ANTI-CLIMATIC! lol
Cait: so eventually he tries to put my bra back on, and he fails
Cait: so i do it for him
Cait: he says "How was that?"
Cait: and i said "it didn't really feel like anything"
Cait: he said "I didn't think it would"
Cait: I asked him "Did it feel like anything for you?"
Cait: he said "Nope.. felt like rubbing your stoamche actually"
Cait: and i said "I KNOW!!!"
Cait: he said "yeah, well, being asexual.. i didn't figure it would do anything.. i think its more of a sexual people thing.."
Cait: He said "Well, i think we just got to 2nd base" LOL
Cait: well he brushed by then a few times while rubbing,
Cait: and it felt different, but it wasnt really particulary good or anything....
Cait: but then again it might have felt differently if it wasnt a few brushes.
Cait: mhm
Cait: i said to him
Cait: "Tomorrow... we..... should.. try it with.. it off.. and see..."
Cait: was embarrassing to ask..
Cait: >_<
Cait: and apparently he forgot all about it
Cait: and i didnt bring it up, cuz he had to go...
WE did talk about going further though...
Cait: "Well we did hit like, the 1/2 way mark here, getting to 2nd base.."
Cait: "It will probably be a loooong time before we hit 3rd"
Cait: "I figure we'll prolly get engaged in a year or 2... and then we can do that..."
Cait: "then like a year after that we can get married, and then be done with it"
I HAVE TO WAIT SO LONG Q_Q
Oh well.
anyway
Then we went to sleep.
The next day, we got up around 2, i got a shower... called the doctors, made an apt for 4pm.
on the way there, daniel got my present out. It was a DOLPHIN PILLOW PET! WOO!
put it in my car..
Cait: Im weird like this but we gotta name it..
Daniel: "Well.. im naming it caitlin."
Cait: "o-O why?"
Daniel: "You know why"
Cait: o.o no...?
Daniel: You know why!
Cait: Tell me then!
Daniel: In card captors... if you name the stuffed animal after the one you like.. and they accept it.....................
Cait: OMG D:::::::::::::::::::: thats so romantic Q_Q that totally slipped my mind *Shiny glazey eyes*
Daniel: it ruined the romanticness of it cuz you didnt remember ;-;
Cait: NO ITS STILL FINE Q_Q
Went in.
sat in the waiting room..it was UNGODLY HOT in there!!! filled out the paperwork, made some stupid comments about stupid questions..
We look a tthe stuff on the wall. all bought from walmart. there's a pumpkin on top of the fireplace that has "Happy halloween, y'all". I tell daniel that maybe this is a sign i should just turn around and leave, lol.
some things were on tv about TEEN ANOREXIA.. tbh most of my symptoms matched theres. I told daniel i have anorexia. lol.
The doctor comes out and smashes a bug on the wall. with his hands.
I say to daniel "Yeah i should definately turn around and get out of there"
Go in there, and the doctor that smashed the bug is really REALLY nice and funny.
Tell him whats going on. he said "its ok its a bit weird talking to a guy about this stuff" i said "I really dont care" lol.
takes my BP and oxygen levels and all taht good stuff.
nothign is wrong.
She gives me a prescription for Aleve. as it will "help stop the flow" BS. Also a slip for 2 days off work.
go out, get prescription... look for socks, find none good. XD
17$ for prescription. not bad.
Bad considering a bottle of Aleve is $3.
Get home, take it.
Go to Ponderosa.
eat a ton.
Daniel is worried about me, so is kinda quiet. I hold his hand in the van.
Go home...
Snuggle time.. OR SO I THINK.
we're in the living room.. cory needs help with physics, and he wont read the chapter.
so daniel helps him
FOR EVER Q_Q
which is like 1/2 hr.
but we dont have much time left till he leaves, and i want my snuggle time! *CRY*
He gets done with his homework, and we snuggle.
OR SO I THINK. everything is fine for awhile.. (no perv stuff like last night though)
I even get a SUPER GOOD LAUGH, out of we were talking about polygamy.. and he says "You can have another lover if you want, but just tell me.. its the trust thing im worried about.. not that."
and i laugh SO HARD!!! My bf says its ok if i get another bf or gf? LMFAO!!!!
he said "I dont think youd ever do that, but its ok"
I told him i dont think i want HIM to have another gf/bf, lol.
he said if it made me happy, it would be ok.
so cute....
so thoughtfull >_<
Then he starts making vampire noises and tickling me.. instead of gnawing on my neck, like i like.
pisses me off o_O i tell him quite frankly that i dont like that, and it made me mad. He felt bad..
I mean normally i would think that it was hilarious but snuggle time was running on low, and i was hormonal. D:
he stayes a bit longer and made it up by doing the most slobbery hax kisses ever. hehe.
this whole time he didnt get any head scratchies though ;-; i wanted to, but he was WASTING TIME!
Cait: one thing he did this time which was sort of new... though.. Im not sure if he did it intentionally... or not.. but..
Cait: I like it when he like, is on top of me, like.
Cait: i mean it sounds dirty, but i like to be like, held down i guess in a hug while we kiss.
Cait: so he did that..
Cait: and kissed my neck
Cait: but he had his leg inbetween mine
Cait: which was new, cuz its usually 1 on both side.
Cait: and he was sort of kicking a bit
Cait: which you can imagine..
Cait: Yeah like, not violently, but sort of
Cait: umm
Cait: when he put his head down to kiss, his leg would go forwardd twords my crotch
Cait: and when he pulled his head back, it would go back
Cait: sort of
Cait: Yeah
Cait: but not super directly
Cait: and that was like
Cait: O_O
Cait: woah
Cait: and because im hormonal, it didn't feel as good as it normally would, im sure...
Cait: but the combination of kissing my neck and doing that was pretty amazing, LOL
Cait: and it sounds SOOO PERVERTED AND DIRTY
Cait: lol
Cait: its embarrasing
Cait: Yeah i know, but ive been taught my whole life, you know, that its "dirty" and "wrong" and etc..
Cait: so its embarrasing for me,
Cait: heck, HUGGING was super omega embarrasing for me, because id never been hugged before
Cait: now its like... i dont care.. we hug in public
But yeah then he left around 2...
and i was pretty happy.. but... I got sad.
I got depressed.
I cried.
I hate health care.
I hate jerk people.
I just wanna stay in daniels arms forever.
upset as hell. was up till 8am.
called into work.
Said im gunna take some melatonin after i wake up around 1 to talk to daniel, and sleep my sorrow away.
Sigh.
next entry, AHOI
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