PIssed. Again.

so we randomly went to the coldwater fair today..

It was really hot.. i was wearing jeans..


So cory splits off and me and dad go to walk around..

So we are going through buildings.. i spot a thing for the Tibbits opera house.. win free tickets..

So i tell dad to stop, i wanted to enter.. he's like "uhM. i dont think so. it's hot in here, i'm leaving."

So i go out.

Then we enter the next building.. and dad sees his friend.. they stand there and talk for like 10 minutes.

Great. his friend is more important than 30 seconds for me to fill out a thing for free tickets..

then hes like "all these barns and only 2 people ive seen i knew!"

so we go near the animal barns..

Dads like "jesus christ im not going in anymore barns"

so im like "...ok" so

he says "wanna go see the cows?"

they are in a barn, so i say no.

So we get to the chickens and rabbits.. so we go in there.. dads like "oh!! big fan!" So we go in.. he stands by the big fan.. then we walk QUICKLY though the barn.. then stop at the rabbits for dad to talk to some person for another 10 minutes.. Then we walk back to exit the chickens / rabbit barn.. of course walking QUICKLY though the chickens -_-..

then we walk down this thing past come more cows.. then we see a .. ~12 year old girl crying..

dads like "oh! Whats wrong?"
she says "nothing"

dad says "did you loose your parents?"

she said "yes"

so dads like "ill go get the police"

so he runs some police down and tells them about this little girl..
Then hes like "ive done my good deed for the day ^_^_^_^_^^_^^^^^^"

then hes like "jebus almost 11 and only 3 1/2 people ive seen i know!!"

and we past some drink stands and hes like "so.. i want a lemonaide.. You want one?"

i say "no"

then hes like "...fine" and doesnt get one

and im like "IF YOU WANT ONE THEN GET ONE! IM NOT STOPPING YOU!!"

him: *no comment*

Soo then we are walking and we find cory..

he gets his lemonaide eventually..

Cory got a water...

then he gave cory some money to play some games and whatnot.. cory won 2 huge stuffed animals.. i won 1.. But then again i only played ~2$ worth..

Then corys wandering around "blarg blarg games blarg blarg" "blarg. people keep hitting me with hammers every 5 secs"

ANd we are going and we play this game and then dad buys carmel corn and we are about ready to go and hes like

"ive only seen like 5 people i know here!"

and i couldnt take it anymore..

"Um.. Is the only reason you coem to these damn things is to find PEOPLE YOU KNOW!"

and hes like "well.. also to see the stuff..."

and im like "so basically thats the only reason why."

hes like "well..."

and im like "Ugh,"

so we walk twords the car and i i tell him "thats the ONLY reason you come to these things!~!!!! to FIND a HOT DATE.. and neglect your children!! To help OTHER PEOPLES children.. but neglect your own STILL!! 'OH LOOK THERES A HOT CHICK! wait thats a MAN.."

he said "I hate it when you say things like that"

and i said "WEll you know it's true dont even deny it, because that's the only thing you care about"

he also had no comment to this.

Now i mentioned before we left, while we were there, and once we were in the car.. "I need deoderant.. I am completely out.. and i cant go to fun spot without deoderant. That would be bad."

guess what? he never cared / forgot about it.. and now i have none.


I really effing hate him. now i guess im going to have to steal someone elses tomarrow..


Then i get home and sshane left me a comment saying "we should hang out... youve been away all day.".. he's been away all day with the away message "napping. please leave me a message!"


-=~*Sir Cait*~=-, 8/10/2007 11:57:51 PM:
you were away forever too. I was at coldwater at the fair

Shane, 11:58:01 PM:
lol

Shane, 11:59:41 PM:
ok, we are hanging out tomarrow

-=~*Sir Cait*~=-, 11:59:47 PM:
OK i wont be here tomarrow.

Shane, 11:59:53 PM:
why not T_T

-=~*Sir Cait*~=-, 11:59:58 PM:
fun spot i told you.

Shane, 8/11/2007 12:00:03 AM:
why do you hate me so much that we never hang out T_T

-=~*Sir Cait*~=-, 12:00:14 AM:
this has been planned for months.

Shane, 12:02:07 AM:
Status change: signed off (was Online)



WTF! WTF is this?!?!?

i HATE him apparently because my dads shop picnic is tomarrow?

i should. drop my pants to bow down and kiss his ass when he's bored!

I know he will read this and feel mad or something

but im sick of this.

Earlier this year he wanted me to drop my EXTREMELY important 'do this or im going to fail' math studies becuase he wanted someone to come over while he told the world OVER THE INTERNET that he LIKES MEN.

Then he was pissed at me for not failing math because of him..


Then the day before snoop died, he wanted to come over..


Shane, 8/6/2007 7:15:26 AM:
also, im not coming over so you can deal with your snoop trauma since you dont want my support

Shane, 7:15:28 AM:
see ya

Shane, 7:15:34 AM:
Status change: signed off (was Online)


WTF again!!
I kNEW snoop was going to die.. and i dont want him bothering me when im a snotty wet mess.. and spending my last hours with snoop. Nothing he can say or do will help snoop.. why even bother?!?!!?!?


I have other things in life to do besides my friends.... besides.. every time you guys DO come over you say "i am bored. what shall we do? lets play a video game! lets go to wendys"

maybe im tired of you being bored. I cant do anything about it. im a boring person. Im sorry. go find another more interesting freind :( Maybe im tired of video games.. and i dont have the money to spend on wendys.. and i HATE it when people spend money on /me/.


Yeah im on a depressing emo rant.. but i dont care.. im sick of life.. im sick of living.. sick of stupidity, neglect.. sick of those retards who are like "THINK OF THE POOR HOMELESS CHILDREN IN CHECKOSOLOBOKKI WHO HAVE NO HOME OR F0000D YOU LIVE LIKE A KING SO STFU WHORE!" thats why i dont ask for advice anymore. Noone has any for me. Im sick of the entire human race, and i hope they all die.


(They all will someday, which makes me glad a bit)


At the fair this one guy doing the games asked this kid "Heyy! Win a stuffed animal for your girlfreind" he stomped off and yeleld "I DONT HAVE A GIRLFRIEND, FAGGOT!"

..ugh. i want to kill him. I also want to kill the person whose ASS was hanging out because he was a size 6 wearing size 18 pants.

*STAB STAB STAB* HATE YOU ALL ;_;

o.' quotey

[01:50] freaken-bored.viliamu.: I think my arm is breaking out
[01:50] -=~*Sir Cait*~=-: then tape it back in
[01:50] -=~*Sir Cait*~=-: so it doesnt escape
[01:50] -=~*Sir Cait*~=-: o.o;
[01:50] Seikin - 143 - [[I Love You Grace Marie]]: xD

XD

Maybe

Maybe i am overreacting.. but who hasnt overreacted?


Maybe i am a drama queen.. But it's not over completely stupid stuff like "omg you whore, those are my shoes" or " you told jimmy that i thought he was ugly, but i secretly <3 him, now i HATTTE YOU!!!" or.. stupid 9th grade drama..

I overreact to things that annoy me..

the best thing to do is... dont say things.. that are annoying! EX: "you just hate me" please dont say that.. many people say that to me, and MEANit..

Rejection is a huge fear of mine, you know.. You dont exploit other people's huge fears. It's a very bad thing..

Now you know im afraid of ants.. so you say "OMG CAIT THERES AN ANT ON YOU?" I might jump or something but i wouldnt freak and get pissed..

but if you were to say something potentially life altering.. or degrading to me in general... for ex: "Cait, you seriously smell, and I dont think i can hang out with you any more" That would make me very perturbed..

However, if you were to say "Cait, you're fat" I would say "I know! :D" because i do know and i dont care..

I need to make one of those '100 reasons why it's better to be fat' list things XDDD!!

anyway..

maybe my mind is secretly hating all humans more than normal... and is trying to push my friends (the ones who I lurvee the most ) away.. in order to 'punish myself'

Ive noticed i punish myself subconciuosly a LOT..
(maybe im a masochist!..is that even the right word? XD)

but like.. at the fair or whatever... i will refrain from eating or drinking anything.. or going to the bathroom.. now if i get extremely thirsty, where i become fatigued... then i get a drink.. or if im going to pee my pants, ill go to the bathroom, lol.. But il only eat if people force me :\ (this has absolutely nothing to do with the fact im practicly morbidly obese)

If I'm really hot, i wont say anything.. i just keep on going as if everything is fine.. If i wanna go see the damned cows in the barn, i wont because i dont want to inconvienience my dad..

afterwards when we were outside the barn with the tickets to the plays.. dads like "you can go sign up if you want!!!!! ill just stay here." and im like "no!! No!!! lets.. just go."

I also pull my hair out.... I dont know why.. I have since 7th grade... I have chronic nail picking, too (not biting) i have no nails.. (well.. not NONE.. but if i can see white off the endof my nail, it's gone within a day.. there's always ~1/2 CM - 1CM of skin you can see at the end of my fingers... my nails have never been past the tips...) and ungodly amounts of split ends..

I duno. i hate me, and how i am.. the things i do..

Why dont i ever do anything for /ME/?
why is it always to try not to inconvience everyone else..

as shane + travis said.. "Why dont you ever WANT us to come over?"

because i apparently dont believe in doing anything for myself.. If you want to come over, go ahead... If you come willingly, i know it's not an inconvienience for you..
If i randomly show up... It's practicly taboo....

This whole post pracicly is the kindof things i think about in the car.. or in the shower.. ive never been able to get them out into words before... hmmm......


unfortunately, i have to get up in 3 1/2 hrs... and im not very tired *dies*

Writer's Block: Ewww

What is one food that you refuse to try? Why?


....Uh.. tomatoes.. onions..

Because... They are insanely nasty texturized...

Onions taste fine.. which is why i like onion powder.. tiny dehydrated onnnion granuals... but the texture themselves.. ugh. makes me gag.. for real :|

ooooomg i will never walk again XD

so we went to fun spot today..and it was fun for once..

(prolly cuz cory wasnt there)

i went around with danielle..

we rode rides.. secretly made fun of this one ride operated who was not happy.. we called him Mr. GRUMPAH! XD

and this other ride operator was cute~ his name was Trenton..

and we were placed in a seat on the tilt o whirl with a little girl.. i was randomly talking to her.. asked her how she was.. if she was having fun.. etc. etc.

then the ride stopped.. a little boy was bawling.. i was like "woah" and i asked her "this ride isnt THAT scary is it?" and shes like "no!! it's fun!! but the octopus ride is VERY scary!"

hehehe.


my dad even rode the tilt a whirl!!!

omg dude though.. at the arcade i got a meowing cat plushie bank aww ^^ and a purple and black snakey thinger... and..

we saw the tigers ^__^^ i took lots of pics ill upload them someday..

there was a lot of amish there...

um..

Omg i spent sooo much money i feel horrible XD

here's what i bought... well nevermind that ill just give a rundown of stuff




5:00AM - finally got to a 1/2 asleep state
8:00AM - Got up + shower, get stuff, etc.
9:45AM - Left.
10:30AM - Got there..
10:30-12:00 - Scoped out the arcade, went to the zoo and see the animals, came back.. Rode the sea dragon.. Then... the octopus thing..... then we went to the picnic pavilion for lunch..
12:00-12:45ish - Got food ticket, waited in line, got food (i got 1 hot dog, 1 bratwurst, 1 brownie, and a spoon of baked beans).. the baked beans were cold + nasty. The rest was alright. XD Oh also some Lemonaide.. which was.. -ok- but not... good. XD
12:45-3:00 - Rode the balloons, did some games (and won NOTHING! XD), Rode the Tilt-a-whirl several times.. rode the scrambler and giggled about Mr. GRUMPAH.. hehehehe.. and sky copter..... The guy that was running it was cute.. when we got off, Danielle was like "OMG That guy was CUTE!" and im like "...thats what i was thinking" heh.. I glanced at his name tag.. it said "Trent" or something like that.. Then rode the new ride, Calypto.. Which uh.. was only working for about 1/2 hr.. not that i care.. it WAS the stupidest ride we went on the entire day.. When the ride was stopping he held up his hand in the air making the number one... We rode the tilt-a-whirl some more... and Then the sky paratrooper thing.. and we saw the guy running the calypto pry open the back of the Calypto and.. was going in there.. and im like "OMG! That's where he keeps his stash of naked men and women.. THATS why he held up his hand at the end of the ride.. he wanted to pick the next people to hiiide in there :OO" danielle thought it was funny... While we're waiting for rides to start we like.. make up a bunch of random stuff.. XD.. Ok so then we checked out the souvineeer shop.. (twas all expensive) and then made our way to the roundup... and it was closed for 13mins.. so.. we went to the arcade.. and we spent our first 5$.. then we went on the roundup.... then we went back to the arcade.. it was air conditioned.. thank GOD.. it was hot out.. I am now all sunburned. XD Then we met up with dad... and we spent the next 5$.. And i got my stuff (the meowing kitty bank and purple snakey) .. danielle got a meowing kitty bank, a pink and white sparkly platypus.. and a froggie hair tye.. Cory got.. XD a meowing kitty bank and a RED snake and a little dog..
3:00-6:00 we walked around.. ate chikan strips.. watched cory go on bumper cars.. cory and danielle went on the sea dragon for EVER.. went on tilt a whirl some more.. then we were getting ready to go on the sky copters and leave when cory got a bloody nose.. he ran to the bathroom.. danielle went on it.. then cory was in the bathroom forEVER and then we sat at the picnic table with wet papertowel forEVER


Then we left.. and.. went home.. I fell asleep on the cough when dad was cooking supper.. Cory got another really bad nose bleed.. dad woke me up to watch the tator tots.. i was not happy :( my legs hurt. i dont want to walk ever again. XD


so now corys confined to the couch.. and.. i still didnt tell you how much i spent XD

ok so..

7$ and some change on games.
3.50$ on chikan strips
6$ on drinks
1.75 on cory for slushie


and thats it i think

IM SUCH AN EFFING BIG SPENDER! XD


so here i am.. burnt to a crisp and travvy is gunna come over ^^